Soaring in the Music: The Magic of Neurodivergent Flow 💫
At the core of being AuDHD, I have moments where I am a little bit overwhelmed, but I have truly learned how to deal with it. I asked myself how I was dealing with stress and overwhelm when I was in my early 20s, and I realized that I was truly in survival mode back then—that I was depressed and anxious all the time. But I’m not that anymore. I’m learning to rest more each day, and I am learning to absolutely protect my peace and to create strong boundaries.
At the same time, I also have these moments in life where suddenly everything feels completely magical. I can’t fully describe it, but for example, when I find a new, fun trance song, suddenly I am so engulfed in it that I become the song! It fills every part of me, and I’m dancing, floating, laughing, and twirling. My world has shifted, and for a split moment, I’m hyperfocused on that song and nothing else exists around me.
You know, I just recently started watching Futurama, and the very first episode was like, "Oh my gosh, this show is so magical, why have I never watched this?" I could tell that I was going to binge-watch it, so I’ve been monitoring how many episodes I watch at once so it doesn’t take away my whole day. Now it’s become my go-to show when I have nothing else to do in the moment, or if I’m just pausing to take a break in the day. It’s like, "Okay, I can turn that show on and watch an episode without guilt."
Last week I had to start taking brisk walks in the morning and at night to help with my digestion. I feel like it’s very beneficial, plus I get good blood flow, and blood is very healing to your body. So I’m listening to music—and yes, I love trance music, it’s so magical! But then it went to a commercial break one day, and I switched over to Yacht Rock Radio, and Fleetwood Mac came on. Suddenly my whole world shifted yet again. I can’t explain it, but I was looking up at the trees and the beautiful sky, and I could feel every bit of the emotions from the song. I was completely soaring in my head, and I felt myself walking to the beat of the song, and nothing existed around me. I was just completely in another world, and I thought to myself, "How can it be that part of me can be struggling, and yet there’s this other side to me where all the worries just fade away and I’m just completely lost in the magic of being alive?"
I also have realized experiences do absolutely linger with me—that no matter what I face, it seems like I have to think about it for a while, and it’s just being neurodivergent, the way that we process life. We have an inner monologue the whole time. While I’m walking my street, I’m talking in my head to myself and processing every little thing that goes on around me, and it never stops. My brain never stops working for a second. I never go a moment without thinking about something or someone, and it’s just a lot, but it’s magical too.
There’s this big part of me that says, "I don’t wanna be anybody else." I don’t need to change the way that I think and process life, and this is what makes me unique. But at the same time, the other part of me says I wanna be so healthy and happy and function in this world. Yet everybody’s got a different idea and experience of what life should be like, what love and your health should be like. I spent many years on this blog focused on my mental health; this year in 2026, it’s been more about my physical health, but it’s also been about being AuDHD and how I function and process this world. I’m figuring out the very core of me: it’s to better understand myself, and I am absolutely choosing to love me just as I am, and I’m giving myself all the grace that I could possibly come up with.
And it’s not just about me. I wanna be healthy for those close to me that I deeply care about. Life is a journey, and the outside world would think to themselves, "You have it really difficult being neurodivergent." But no, I don’t. I just think different, but it’s not difficult. It’s not wrong, and I’m not broken. You are not wrong, and you are not broken, and you are allowed to process life at your own pace. I know we live in a fast world that demands results, but I’m telling you that you don’t need results right now... you just need to be okay. Just take those deep breaths, because your well-being is most important! Be patient and kind with yourself, and take your life one day at a time. 🕊️✨
8-10-26 at 1:11 p.m. (1111)
