Mom, you always taught me to take care of "the gift that the genetic lottery has given you🐒"... my appearance. But you also taught me the value of culture, the passion for living life to the fullest, and the need to fight for all that is good: democracy, true justice for all, social and human rights.
Respect for all who deserve it.´
"We must pity ignorance and be prepared to defend ourselves against the ignorant," you used to say.
And you taught me about love, Mom.
Because I have never felt so loved by anyone as I do by you. With that unconditional, inextinguishable devotion, despite my flaws and imperfections.
Oh, mom.
I wish you were here with me tonight to celebrate this Hungarian joy, this current of happiness and hope that runs through the world.
I need your wisdom and your knowledge of the great world to explain the world to me.
Mom.
A great tyrant has fallen, but you are no longer here.
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"You're the best mother in the world, Mom."
"The most beautiful mother."
"The one with eyes bluer than blue itself."
"You're the person I love most in the world, Mom. To the moon and back..."
These are the words I used to say to you every night before going to sleep, or every time we were going to be apart for a few hours
In case they were the last ones.
I have cared for you with all my dedication and I feel that it has not been enough.
I've done things I never imagined I was capable of, and I've done them happily for you even though they broke my heart into pieces that will never be put back together.
So why do I feel like IT WASN'T ENOUGH?
But I think that if you're out there, somewhere beyond all places, maybe beyond the True West, in Valinor, and you're watching your lost son, maybe you...
All the photos I posted were for you, because you were so proud of my appearance, even though it's just a poor imitation of your imperial beauty.
Oh, Mom
My Queen of Valinor, more beautiful than the Valar themselves.
Will we meet again somewhere beyond the sun, beyond the sea, beyond the last horizon?
Can I only sleep if I deceive myself into clinging to that hope?
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