I was going through the Pinterest board I have for some of my ocs and I went through Adan’s. I found a quote I had forgotten was in there;
“He fell it first. He fell harder.”
And it represents how him and Scourge realized their feelings for each other so well!!
Adan’s realization was slow and bittersweet. He was slowly beginning to trust Scourge as an ally and was learning to work with him as well. Overtime he found his bluntness, even if it was unpleasant at times, to be refreshing in a way. They fought from time to time, but ended up understanding each other more by the end of it.
The one thing that unnerved Adan about was his force signature. It was muddy and jagged, but felt like a hole at the same time. To him Scourge felt like a crater in the force; present but hallowed out.
When Adan realized he felt more than friendship for Scourge, he was certainly surprised. Yes, he knows the Sith is attractive but that’s not what made Adan fall for him. Scourge was confident, blunt, intelligent, and loyal in his own way. The one problem is that Scourge can’t love him back. He’s literally incapable of it, and it hurts. Adan beats himself over of it at first, one for knowing he shouldn’t feel that way for someone(let alone a Sith), and two for falling for the one person who can’t love him back. He even tries to see him less for a few days but ends up feeling bad and childish for avoid him.
He ended up putting his feelings on the back burner for a while to try and ignore them, but the more mission they went on and the closer they got the worst his feelings became.
But Scourge? His feelings hit him like a freight train.
I mean after centuries of being numb to everything and then sudden having all your senses return would be incredibly overwhelming. Now, it’s never explained if Scourge regained his emotions gradually or all at once, but in my mind it believe it was all at once.
First and foremost, he has to relearn his emotions and how to control them. I also think that the absence of the pain that his immortality caused would fuck with him for a while as well.
Him and Kira are still on their mission, so she’d definitely help him a lot, but they end up talking about the old crew. Kira says she misses the old crew, and Scourge finds that he does to. That part of him longs to see them again, like he bonded with each of them but was just unaware of it. Then they bring up Adan and what he’s done in the galaxy.
He’s proud, very proud, and he misses him the most. It surprises how much he misses the Jedi. His presence, his questions, his annoying affinity with animals and plants. He finds himself yearning just to see him one more time. He wants to talk with him, hear him laugh, see his true eye color. He wants to fight by his side again, to protect him again and make up for lost time. Then it hits him like a ton of bricks, he would do so much more than just that for Adan and then recognizes the feeling. He recognizes its love, and it hits him like a ton of bricks. He loves Adan. Holy shit he loves him. Years of emotions he couldn’t feel resurface and he’s bombard with the realization that he’s absolutely smitten.
I just love them both and I realize I need to talk about them both more often.
You ever look back at a sentence you just wrote and find so many typos that it makes no sense? Like did I have a stroke in the middle of writing this sentence? What happened??
I’ve always liked learning about the anatomy and physiology of the species in Star Wars, both canon material and headcanons.
Like the complex nerves on a Twi’lek’s lekku or how they have two stomachs. A Zabrak’s twin hearts and tougher skin. A Nautolan’s sharp teeth and gills. A Torguta’s montrals and three lekku. Even just culture differences in their appearances. Like a Mirialans tattoos or a Mandalorian’s paint. I love it and I wish we were given more in depth descriptions.
But why am I talking about biology in a Swtor rant? Zakuul.
When replaying some of the chapters I’ve realized that these people are rather ignorant when it comes to the larger galaxy. Not that it’s entirely their fault considering how isolated Valkorian kept them. But it also means that they don’t know all of these like facts about the diversity of the rest of the galaxy.
Now I can’t stop thinking about the companions from Zakuul finding this out and being baffled.
For example my Consular, Omyari, is with Arcann and she’s a Zabrak. Imagine one day he hugs her or something and she’s super warm and he thinks she’s sick. Then she has to fully explain that she’s fine and that she simply has two hearts. Imagine his reaction!
Omyari: No I’m fine, my hearts just have to pump a lot of blood after a workout.
Arcann: Wait- hearts. As in plural?
Omyari: Yeah. I have two, all Zabraks do.
Arcann: What..?
Or learning that harming a Twi’lek’s lekku has a possibility to kill them because part of their brains is directly connected to them. Cut to the Zakuul companions in shock at how many times they’ve almost accidentally killed/harmed their Commander. (This is a jab at how many times my knight has been thrown head first into a wall by Arcann and Senya.)
Now I need to write a snippet of this for Omyari and Arcann.
So, for some reason I had the idea to design padawan braids for my Jedi characters in Swtor, but neither really have a normal apprenticeship. In canon anyway, this is just for fun. I just have Adan’s rn, so Omyari’s will come later.
Yap session below!
Overall Adan’s training was focused more on combat, stealth, and meditation.
Combat is important to any Jedi’s training and Adan found it relaxing in a way. Well, sparring and training at least. The repetitive motion of going through katas and memorizing the forms made it easier for him to keep a clear mind and stay focused. He knows most of the forms and how to use them, but because of his double bladed lightsaber he has to practically modify most forms to fit his weapon. Overall he mostly uses form VI Niman and its variant Jar’Kai.
Stealth is also a specialty of his because of Force cloak, which is apparently a rarer ability. Even before the Jedi Order Adan was good at keeping quiet and his training has only amplified it. Sometimes he’s not even trying to be quiet he just is and it scares the shit out of people sometimes, though he usual apologizes after.
Now Adan has problems with attachments, as I’ve ranted about in another post. He forms bonds quickly because his bonds were all he had before the Order and emotional bonds are very important to a child, not to mention a traumatized one, but everyone knows the Jedi’s rules on attachment. To ensure he wouldn’t let his guilt or fear cloud him Adan would regularly meditate to sort out complex emotions he’d feel, often going to his Crèche master to ask for clarification on what he was feeling. This was an especially helpful habit during his teen years
Since it’s fairly evident in the image, yes, Adan has a Varactyl—and yes I realize now I spelled it wrong in the image. Anyways- Adan has a very extensive interest in biology. He absolutely loves plants and animals and is fascinated by them. This mostly stems from the fact he hadn’t seen a green plant until the Jedi took him in when he was nine. He met Lira on a planet-side exploration lesson when he was fourteen. She was the runt of her clutch and was abandoned by her family. Adan found her and tried for days to earn her trust until she followed him back to their ship. He’s been taking care of her since, with permission of course.
Goodness I’ve been yapping about my boy for a while. It’s 1 in the morning rn why am I even doing this?
swtor question of the day: does your PC have any children? how is their relationship to your PC? if your PC chooses not to have children, do they have anyone to pass on their legacy to?
Victor and Akaavi found out that she was pregnant about a month or two before the start of KOTFE. So he missed the birth of his daughter and wasn’t able to reunite with them until the Alliance was created five years later.
Now I have an AU with KOTFE and KOTET to include most of my characters. So, when they’re captured by Arcann, it’s just my Knight who’s put into carbanite. The rest are imprisoned in the same facility, just in another wing. Then three years down the line Lana, Koth, and T-7 break them out.
So, Victor is waiting in his cell for three years, unaware of what has happened to his Riduur or his child. When he found them again he was thrilled and in complete awe of his daughter. He spent a whole week simply clinging to them both. Like if either of them needed something, he already has it. They need help, he’s already there. He does this because he feels incredibly guilty for not being there for Akaavi when their child was being born and for not being there to support either of them. He tries to be as present as he can for his daughter and his wife.
As for my other characters, yes I do have children planned, just not at the moment.
I plan for Handrō and Vette to have a daughter after he’s left the Alliance to settle down with her.
Omyari (JC) and Arcann are going to have a daughter as well, but that’s sometime after Legacy Reborn.
I’m undecided on whether I want X’jad(BH) and Theron to adopt a kid or not, but I’m leaning towards yes.
As for my characters who won’t have children, they teach the younger generation at the force enclave on Odessen.
Adan(JK) helps teach and train some of the younger students when he’s not busy with leading the Alliance, though he has his Varactyl that he’s had for years. She’s kind of like his scaly child.
Su’lani(SI) doesn’t really have much interest in kids, but she with help the ones at the enclave learn and train from time to time. She’s passed down her knowledge in her studies and that’s enough for her.
So I was replaying some of the chapters from KOTFE because I like doing that sometimes and chapter two was one of them. I was just having fun and then I got to the part where you have to go through the republic and you have the side quest to revive the civilians. Now, I usually don’t pay attention to quest titles, but apparently I did this time. The title of the side quest was “Too little, too late.”
If I wasn’t actively in the SFAWTDE/DAWTDE fandom I’d probably be fine. But that song is literally everywhere on my feed! Now I can’t stop thinking about my Jedi knight and that song. I swear this song can be applied to every fandom.
I don’t even know why I’m ranting about this. It’s too late for this…
After playing both sides of Legacy Reborn, I wanted to share my thoughts on this finale. Though I will be focusing more on the story aspect than the gameplay, since I didn’t have many problems with it.
Spoilers below!
Over all I like the branching POVs, the combat, and the Malgus lore. I’m probably gonna read his novel after this.
I am grateful for the Mando’a option when Shea dies, sometimes I feel like the devs forget that for the Bounty Hunter sometimes—and I know that they have to cover every class story so they can’t do that all the time. Still I’m glad when they do include that.
On that note—Holy shit Shea died! Out of everything that could have happened that was not on my radar.
The only thing that kinda irks me is the ending. You have your weapon at his head, the temple is being bombarded and then they just role the credits. I understand it’s to set up the next chapter/era, but I want some closure on what the hell just happened. Like I want to know the damage of what’s happened. How hurt is my character? Is Malgus alive? Is anyone still inside the temple hurt or dead?I get some people like a cliffhanger, but i don’t feel like know was the right time to use one.
And finally, still no Scourge. I understand only a select amount of players even know he’s gone, those who romanced him, but I had a little hope for something since his message was about him leaving to discover something to help defeat Malgus. We’re well past that now!
Logically, I understand it’s not a priority to the Devs in the slightest—if they even remember. I also understand that there could be trouble with the VA(I have know idea) or just trouble bringing him back into the story since I know a lot of players won’t care. This is a minor issue, but I still miss him.
I am looking forward to how this will continue since Malgus did win. He got what he wanted and used Nul’s machine. I just hope we get closure during the next update.
I need somewhere to shout about this, so hello tumblr!
My own art teacher wants us to use ai for a project.
I’ve already had an iffy opinion on her since she uses an ai generated image of herself as her school profile picture. Red flag, I know, but it was just a pfp for her own use. It wasn’t being shoved in my face and it was her own personal use. I didn’t like it but I’m not going to fight a teacher.
But now, she’s enforcing it to be apart of our work. An art teacher wants us to use chat gpt to recreate another famous artist’s work! The actual project itself was to recreate a famous work of art with your own style or interests. That sounds like a great project for the end of the year, but no! She’s forcing us to use ai to do it!! I even asked her if I could not use it, but she was adamant about it. And for context it was either the ai art or give a presentation from the pov of a famous artists. I gladly chose the presentation over using ai, but when I said that she tried to explain why! She was giving the excuse of using digital materials but I wasn’t listening at that point.
What makes me more upset is that so many people are actually doing the ai assignment.
I just needed to get this out of my system. I hate ai.
actually guys, i need to be fr. if i can be agents georg, i wanna flip the opportunity for my fellow swtorians to bring me into another class story relationship that usually leaves me scratching my head. so, this one's for my jedi knight people:
what connects your knight (or doesn't) with orgus din?
my one consistent headscratcher with knight is that, clearly, a rapport's meant to be established there because they want to take advantage of doing something to it by alderaan - the execution of which i find bungled and, to be very honest, i... might have thought my character was overreacting the first time i played it. <.>
i know i have knight-having mutuals out there and it's a class i haven't spend time looking deeply into the fandom side for. it brings a lot of interesting elements to the table, absolutely, and i understand some of its appeal. again, i'm in a camp, having played all 8 class stories at least once and often at least multiples times to certain points (some completely, some thru expacs, etc) that none are bad, but... i think there's some connective tissue lacking in execution sometimes. knight struggles to give me the set up that would make me feel its intended payoff is... emotionally earned/established, if that makes sense?
so like. orgus as written leaves me feeling more like he's the guy that's always going for a smoke break after every conversation/the dad that's always leaving to get milk and never coming back. which, if i step back and look at the idea behind the character - a jedi master who doesn't take another padawan for years because his last fell after a deeply traumatizing time for not only that padawan (bengal), but the jedi order as a whole (the sacking of coruscant), that can be a really compelling character. that's an interesting viewpoint to have of the jedi order, and what it means to someone to be a jedi.
i just... don't know if i necessarily understand the writing's intent when it wrote him as the jedi knight's master for tython? because of all the "mentor-"adjacent characters in all class stories, i... never feel like i spend a lot of time with orgus. which... for the kind of payoff they want to slide in on alderaan is... really odd? i find the inquisitor and zash and the warrior and baras to have a more readily established and consistent rapport, and the latter even readily admits he's willing to sacrifice your life for his goals as early as dromund kaas, y'know?
so i wanna give people an open invitation to tell me how their blorbos feel about the relationship and invite me into your interpretation of the dynamic. do you take what's here and run with it? do you headcanon something further that's not "in-text?" did you write something else completely for your knight? if they're close, they're friends, they're not, they couldn't care less - whatever it is, i wanna hear about it from the people who love the knight class story like i love the agent story, lol.
i don't think i'll need to qualify any statements or anything, but just in case: there's no wrong answers to personal enjoyment with your blorbos. i really liked chatting about a chapter two choice in agent the other day, and since i'm in a knight replay and i'm going through some of my feelings with the writing of it again, i figured it'd be cool to see reads put together like that kind of post?
so. tell me about your jedi knights <3 and maybe why it is your favorite class story, if it is.
I like Orgus as a character, I find him to be kind of relatable or at least funny at times, and when I first played through the story I was kind of shocked that he killed off.
I understand why it was done in retrospect for lore and in game. But I realize that we really didn’t get a lot of him as I first thought.
As for Adan’s, my knight, relationship with him, they are—well were—friends. Kinda like that point where you’re not just surface level friends but not ultra good friends, you know? (I think just good friends sums it up) Anyways, it’s like that. Their relationship is more like peers that learn from each other, than a mentorship.
But still it’s not a whole lot of time to get properly attached to someone, so why is Adan? He gets attached easily. Why you may ask? Trauma! What else?
But his attachment to people is due to the fact that for his first nine years of life he was a slave, so everyone he held dear was either taken from him or he was taken from them. During this time his attachments were all he had, to him they were everything. Especially his sister. One night he had run away after their master tried to spilt them up when he was found by a Jedi knight, Lyla Suran. She is his mentor figure and my miralukan crèche master.
Lyla brought him into the Jedi order and looked after him herself. She was in charge of small crèche group, which also includes my consular. She taught them the core traits of the Jedi order and helped them work on their individual strengths.
She helped Adan with the trauma of being a slave and the guilt that he harbored for those he left, like his sister. She helped him learn how to cope with it properly and how to communicate effectively. He built very strong bonds with her and the group, and while it is indeed an attachment he’s learning to not let it control him. He believed he was safe for once, but then the sacking of Coruscant happened.
He was about 12 when it occurred and he was hit with the fact that he wouldn’t be safe, and he let that fear fester for a while. The progress he made on getting better reverted back about a year or two. Lyla had to help him communicate his feelings again. She had him talk it through with her, helped him find ways he could cope or work through this fear without letting it take hold of him.
She taught him how to defend himself, but most importantly others. She taught him that he is not alone in that fear and that he can still have hope.
Lyla was the one who put in the work of training him in the ways of the force, on how to control his force stealth, on how to not let his fear control him.
actually guys, i need to be fr. if i can be agents georg, i wanna flip the opportunity for my fellow swtorians to bring me into another class story relationship that usually leaves me scratching my head. so, this one's for my jedi knight people:
what connects your knight (or doesn't) with orgus din?
my one consistent headscratcher with knight is that, clearly, a rapport's meant to be established there because they want to take advantage of doing something to it by alderaan - the execution of which i find bungled and, to be very honest, i... might have thought my character was overreacting the first time i played it. <.>
i know i have knight-having mutuals out there and it's a class i haven't spend time looking deeply into the fandom side for. it brings a lot of interesting elements to the table, absolutely, and i understand some of its appeal. again, i'm in a camp, having played all 8 class stories at least once and often at least multiples times to certain points (some completely, some thru expacs, etc) that none are bad, but... i think there's some connective tissue lacking in execution sometimes. knight struggles to give me the set up that would make me feel its intended payoff is... emotionally earned/established, if that makes sense?
so like. orgus as written leaves me feeling more like he's the guy that's always going for a smoke break after every conversation/the dad that's always leaving to get milk and never coming back. which, if i step back and look at the idea behind the character - a jedi master who doesn't take another padawan for years because his last fell after a deeply traumatizing time for not only that padawan (bengal), but the jedi order as a whole (the sacking of coruscant), that can be a really compelling character. that's an interesting viewpoint to have of the jedi order, and what it means to someone to be a jedi.
i just... don't know if i necessarily understand the writing's intent when it wrote him as the jedi knight's master for tython? because of all the "mentor-"adjacent characters in all class stories, i... never feel like i spend a lot of time with orgus. which... for the kind of payoff they want to slide in on alderaan is... really odd? i find the inquisitor and zash and the warrior and baras to have a more readily established and consistent rapport, and the latter even readily admits he's willing to sacrifice your life for his goals as early as dromund kaas, y'know?
so i wanna give people an open invitation to tell me how their blorbos feel about the relationship and invite me into your interpretation of the dynamic. do you take what's here and run with it? do you headcanon something further that's not "in-text?" did you write something else completely for your knight? if they're close, they're friends, they're not, they couldn't care less - whatever it is, i wanna hear about it from the people who love the knight class story like i love the agent story, lol.
i don't think i'll need to qualify any statements or anything, but just in case: there's no wrong answers to personal enjoyment with your blorbos. i really liked chatting about a chapter two choice in agent the other day, and since i'm in a knight replay and i'm going through some of my feelings with the writing of it again, i figured it'd be cool to see reads put together like that kind of post?
so. tell me about your jedi knights <3 and maybe why it is your favorite class story, if it is.
I’m posting again. I’ve finally gotten out of my funk with digital art, and it’s thanks to this big guy. Even ifs it’s not polished and finished I like the rendering so I’m posting him. Anyways-
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