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“no appetite.” as much as she’s tried, her eating habits are still far from the most best and largely dependent on her mood. the thought that it’s about time to replenish herself did not come to her until moments ago and her cramped schedule does not help. “and airplane food wasn’t exactly tantalising.” she adds, which is a fair enough explanation from her point of view. while she isn’t the worst picky eater out there, growing up with her mother who is fond of fine cuisine has trained her tastebuds quite a bit. she leans comfortably on his chest, soothed by the familiarity of his warmth under her. “i’m out of energy to make decisions, so i’m counting on you, babe.” in this state, she is almost certain that she will fall asleep before the food arrives.

"Okay, I won't scold you about the food," He starts, knowing that it was a valid take to prefer eating anything better than airplane food, "But you definitely have to eat properly while you're here." He already worried too much about her wellbeing whenever she was away, so much so that even in the very small amount of time they could spend with each other like this, he had always made it his mission to make sure she was eating and sleeping properly. "Is pizza good with you?" His hand moves up, fingers stroking her hair gently as he scrolls through the app again to look, finding one place that was still open at that late hour.

muse: hwang jieun / wedding planner / 27 open to: anyone ( possibly: friends, crush, friends with benefits ) plot: another fake dating shenanigan

“i know what you’re thinking.” jieun sighs. “that i’m crazy, absolutely out of my mind. fine, maybe you’re right. so what? just say yes, please. it’s just a few hours and i swear i won’t bother you about it afterwards.” she never thought she would stoop so low that she would ask someone to pretend to be her date, but desperate times call for desperate measures and getting invited to her ex’s wedding is one of them. she still can’t get over it — the audacity of him to invite her after walking away from a years-long relationship, only to be engaged only nine months after. she looks at them with her best puppy pout, her hands held together as she pleads. “please. i’m begging you. i’ll do anything.” that designer jacket they have been eyeing for a while? she’ll get it. taylor swift’s concert tickets? count on her to make it happen.

#interaction:tyler #fadinglights

"And you really think nobody's gonna figure us out?" He didn't have an issue with doing it, as strange of a request as it was, but she was his friend, and of all the people he knew how much this must have bothered her, having been invited to an ex's wedding like this. He does however, laugh and roll his eyes when she puts on a pout, basically pleading him to say yes. "Deal, but I want a really nice steak dinner afterwards. Damn, you should at least take me out on a date first." He teases with a grin, his dimples showing when he does.

“sounds like a good start.” ara has missed this, just the two of them in their peaceful little bubble, the outside world blocked out entirely. times like this don’t come by easily, but it is what makes each second count all the more. her heart softens from the sight of his endearing pout, but there is little she can do about her hectic schedule. she nods in agreement, her head leaning on his shoulder. she is fine with staying in, going out means having to worry about paparazzi at any turn and that is far from the most pleasant way to enjoy a date. she shakes her head. “it’s worth it to me.” she is thankful that she is comfortable enough to be past the point of caring too much about her appearance around him, cause damn is she exhausted from the flight and the darkness under her eyes shows it. “do you think we can still order something to eat at this hour? all i had was pretzels and orange juice for the whole day.” between the sleep deprivation and hunger, she is rather impressed that she managed to walk out of the relationship crisis intact.

A sigh escapes his lips but he knows that there was no way he could argue against her. It wasn't like he didn't appreciate it either, but knowing how hectic her schedule was enough as it is without having to travel all the way just to see him for a few days was bound to have its consequences, and he didn't really like the idea of her getting sick when he's so far away. "Why did you only eat pretzels? I can cook something for you if we can't, but let's see." He says softly, taking his phone out of his pocket and leaning back on the couch, pulling her to his chest and keeping one arm around her frame as he scrolls through the delivery app, turning slightly so he could look at her with a smile. "What do you feel like having hm baby?"

seolinah

MUSE: jang soo-min • 25 • athletic trainer OPEN to: f / m / nb (21+, but 25+ if romantic) CONNECTION: an athlete she works with, friend, significant other, someone she helped out randomly, whatever you want tbh

"I thought I told you to stay off of that foot! You realize it isn't going to magically heal, right? So you should really listen to me for once."

#interaction:leon #seolinah

Leon starts making faces even though he knows she's right and he resorts to sighing afterwards, leaning back on the chair he was sitting on. "You know I can't rest, not when my schedule is so packed."

"good. now think long and hard about how to make it up to me." but jason is already forgiven in her eyes. she isn't sure how it happened, but she will always have a soft spot for him. she knows that things will never be easy for them, but she will continue to root for them. "like crazy, huh?" she teases him with a satisfied beam as she melts under the kiss. "how crazy?" if she had a normal life with a normal job, they wouldn't have to be always doing long distance. alas, this is the life she's chosen and there are consequences she must bear. "then you'll be thrilled to know that i'm going stay here for the next three days, glued to you 24/7, being my most clingy self." everyone thinks she should stay at the shooting location in the little break she gets in-between filming, but she'd rather be here instead. she knows they need to spend more time together, especially after how the recent (made-up) news probably made him feel.

"I think 24/7 cuddles and kisses should be a good start of making it up to my favorite girl." Even with how he felt earlier, he lifts her up from the floor and carries her bridal-style over to the couch, sitting down and making her sit on his lap, his arms wrapping around her waist. He couldn't really help the pout that comes up on his face when the reminded that she's only there for three days comes up. "We should definitely just stay home the next three days and spend time together like this yeah?" Not to mention that it was hard for them to go out anyway, knowing how eyes were on her all the time, but he really did prefer just having her to himself. "I do wish you didn't have to tire yourself out like this though."

so i've been away for quite some time, but consider this a reverse starter call and i'll respond to one of your open starters OR create a starter based on your wishlist!

#indie rp

"it's okay." she tries to comfort him, "it'll get easier." everyone told her that she should rest a little more before her return to the city, but ara insisted on getting on the earliest flight possible. she couldn’t wait until she’s back in his arms again. “and that was the warm welcome you showed me.” she sighs, “you should be ashamed of yourself.” except she is obviously teasing and her unserious tone shows it. she can never stay mad at him. not even after what happened, not when she’s the cause of his suffering. despite how it looked just moments prior, she knows she’s not the only one trying to make it work. her arms are still around him, as if afraid he’d slip away and vanish at any moment, but she turns her head to the side and protests. she adds a little sniffle for the extra flair — she is a drama queen, after all. “maybe you didn’t miss me like i missed you.”

Even though he knew she was just teasing, he couldn't help but be ashamed of himself for what he had nearly done. She had always been like this, making these little sacrifices for them, to make them work, and he didn't want her to think that he didn't take notice to it. "I know, I'm sorry." He apologizes sincerely, cupping her cheek again to turn her head towards him before placing a kiss on her lips softly. "I missed you like crazy. I always do when you're away." Even though he had also been quite busy travelling for his business, it was much different when she was away filming for months. "And I'm glad you're here."

ara knows how hard it must be for him. she has years behind her back to learn how to cope with the pressure, but it is all brand new to him. she can hear him, but she doesn’t feel like she’s done enough. she knows by now there is little to do to control what others think of her. it is impossible to try to monitor or morph their opinions and any attempt to do so only has the opposite effect. “it’s not your fault.” it is none of their fault. but this is the weight that they must endure, a struggle that they cannot escape from. she wipes away his tears too, her touches fraught with gentleness. “i bet you didn’t think this far when i told you my life was crazy, right?” but it is beyond crazy and it isn’t stopping anytime soon. “too bad i’m clingy as hell and you can’t get rid of me.” she attempts to lighten the mood with a joke, though she cannot say her clinginess is overstated.

He knows that they could only both deny the other's fault, but he knew that he had been the one who broke first. She was stubborn, and he thought he was too, but here he was ready to give up on the one person he felt had been the best thing that has happened to him just because of the unwanted attention he had been getting, and he felt stupid for letting himself get that vulnerable. In other words, he's shoved that nagging voice in the back of his head again, hoping that it would never win against him again. "No. I figured. I just didn't think it would affect me this much." But she was right and he knew it. They should be worth it. He should be fighting. With a soft chuckle at her joking, he pulls her back into his arms, hugging her closely to his chest. "You are clingy as hell. You just flew all the way back just to see me."

relief washes over her when his arms tighten around her and he leans on her, rather than keeping her at arm’s length. god knows she didn’t hop on a twelve-hour flight on two hours sleep just to have her boyfriend break up with her. “i love you too.” but she knows by now that love cannot withstand everything. he is right. the real world is cruel and eager to tear down everything that shines, but she doesn’t want to let it win. “shhh.” her hand gently pats his head, fingers running through his hair to soothe him, even if her own tears cascade just the same. she wishes there’s more that she can do to lift off the weight of the world on his shoulders. it pains her more than anything that her choice of occupation now becomes a burden for him too. “we’re going to be okay.” she really, really hopes so. “i won’t give up on us.” she hopes that he doesn’t, either. “is there anything i can do to make it easier for you?”

People probably thought it a dream, dating one of the biggest actresses of her time. She was a shining star and she had so much more potential to grow, but that's when the world was harshest to her. To them. But in times like this, when he just has her in his arms, it really was much easier to pretend like everything could be okay, like everything could work out. "No. You already do enough." And it was true. There was only so much she could do, and he knows how much she's sacrificed just to be with him. His arms subconsciously tighten around her frame just slightly but he pulls back enough to get a look at her, moving to cup her cheeks and wipe away her tears. "It was my fault. I'll do better next time. For us."

maybe ara is asking for too much. maybe she cannot have the best of both worlds — a flourishing career and a loving relationship that she can always fall back on. with her rising career comes more attention, both good and bad, and he shouldn’t have to suffer because of her. but she is greedy and she will always want this. she will always want him. what does it say about her if she yields under the pressure and lets go of something that is so precious to her? “you don’t have to do this.” she pleads, arms wrapping around him with stubbornness. “we can make it work, i promise.” someday, the media will find a new favourite starlet to ruin. she won’t stay in the spotlight forever. “i know it’s selfish, but i don’t want you to go.”

H wanted to stand his ground, to say that enough was enough, that they were both better off without worrying about something like this when she had her whole career ahead of her and he needed to focus on his own work, but the moment her arms wrap around him he cracks even further. Her scent, the familiarity of her touch, they were all enough to make him crumble. Slowly, his arms wrap back around her frame and his eyes shut tight to stop the tears from falling even though they escape from his eyes, burying his face against her neck. "I love you." He breathes out, trying to keep his voice steady, "I really do. But it's going to keep being hard. We're going to keep doing this."

she exhales slowly, trying to gather herself but it does the opposite. her vision is becoming blurred with her tears from how real it feels. she hates the way she knows what he’s saying is true. she hates the way she cannot argue back and say that none of it matters. whether she likes it or not, being with her comes with a price and it is now too high for him to pay. she should understand. there are people out there who would be easier to love. people who do not come with the same baggage or garner the same negative attention all the time. “being tired doesn’t matter when it’s with you.” she thought he shares the same sentiment. that even though things aren’t easy, they mean enough for him to fight against the odds. “i don’t want to be with anyone else but you.” the dam breaks and she is struggling to breathe when the ache is so overwhelming. “please, stop pushing me away.”

He stood at a crossroads and he knew choosing one or the other had to be done, no matter how impossible it felt, or how much pain it brought him to even have to make a decision like this. But when he hears her words, he can't help but show the cracks in his resolve, jaw clenching once more as he tries to hold back his own emotions even though the pain in his chest began to feel unbearable. At the end of the day, she was still the girl he loves, and seeing her like this was more than difficult. "I know." His voice was tired, barely audible as he reaches for her hand again, leaning to press a gentle kiss on her forehead. "I don't want to do this either. But maybe I have to."

“and you care that much about strangers on the internet? more than your own girlfriend?” ara wants to have a level-headed conversation where her temper is controlled, but her patience is thinning. she isn’t sure why he is punishing her for something she has no control over. “i chose to be an actress. it’s not my fault that they think they own me and get to write whatever they want about me like i’m just a fictional character for their entertainment.” it took a long time for her to learn not to care as much about what they think — she would lose her mind if she took everything to heart, like she did at the start of her career. “you trust me, but you just don’t believe that this can work.” it is what he’s been trying to say and what she’s trying to run away from. she looks down at her hands, now emptied and void of warmth. “can’t you see how hard i’m trying, too?” how can he throw it all away like it’s nothing?

#( NICE. And yes )#( an absolute blast. nOT FAKE )#interaction:jason #fadinglights

"Yes if they start saying all of that stuff about me. I'm not you. I didn't choose to be put under a spotlight where all people do is tell me how I don't deserve you." And there it was. The ache in his chest all started when he saw how people had started taken a liking to someone she was being linked to, and though he knew that he was the one she loved, it was hard to be reminded just how much they hated him. And it wasn't like it was the first time. "But what if trying isn't enough? What if this is all we'll ever be? Don't you think you'll get tired of trying too?" What if one day she realizes that this wasn't worth it? That there were better men out there? Then where does that leave him?

“since when do you care so much about what other people think?” maybe they should have considered that aspect before hastily starting a relationship. but it’s never her plan to fall in love with him. it has just happened and she has tried her best to make it work, even though her schedules and duties keep her from being the best partner she could be. she wants to live honestly. she wants to love like normal people do. is it such a greedy thing to wish for? “but it’s our relationship, not theirs. why should we give a damn about what they think?” no matter how much people try, no one gets to dictate how they live their lives. “do you really trust me? it’s beginning to sound like you don’t.” she thought he believes in them as much as she does, now she isn’t so sure anymore.

#interaction:jason #fadinglights #( i was struggling for a bit there too but let me know if this works )

"It's hard when your fans curse me out for stealing you away." Not to mention everything else that people have said about him. His head finally turns back to look at her, jaw clenching slightly. "And because it's your career to care about what people think." The words come out before he can think about them and he pulls his hand away from hers in frustration. "I trust you. I wouldn't have pursued you if I didn't." It was never about trust, after all. It began to be about how hard it had been for him to just exist ever since their relationship started. But he knew, of all the people, he knew that she struggled with that too. "I'm sorry." He mutters after a while, knowing that it was unfair for him to say things like that unprovoked. "But you know it's true."

fadinglights:

“it’s hard, but it's not impossible.” or she desperately wishes that it isn’t. ara knows that the odds are against them from day one and maybe she is asking for too much, but shouldn’t love be enough to push through the storms? the next three words that come after almost reassure her, but then comes the but. she wants terribly to unwind the clock and return to when things were simpler and they were still full of hope. “what has gotten into you, huh? why are you suddenly talking like this?” he is him and he is the one she chose to love. she takes another step closer, taking his hands in her own. “did i do something?” she asks, beginning to lose her resolve. “ — is it about that stupid article? i told you none of it is true.” you are the only one i want.

A huge part of him wishes she was right, or that he could just believe it and drop the topic. It would have been so much easier to fall back into it, to pretend like none of it hurt him and pretend like the world around them didn’t matter. But these were all things he could only pretend to do, and the reality was much worse. He hates the very moment his eyes meet hers when she steps closer because it became harder to differentiate the pain in her eyes and the pang in his chest, but he allows her to take his hand and he moves his attention to them. “I know. I trust you.” Because he did, but nobody else would. It was as if the whole world was against their relationship, and though it was hard to admit, the things that people say about her hurt him too. “But nobody thinks we can work out, and maybe they’re right.”

maybe this is just too much for me. "what do you mean?" except ara knows exactly what they mean. "this is just too much for you?" the actress repeats, her voice losing its strength with each syllable pushed out. her hand tightens into a fist and tears slowly gather in her eyes, but she forces herself not to tremble. this is why she should have never taken the leap and tried to make something happen when it's hardly possible — they are from different worlds and they shouldn't have to suffer just because of her fame and every exhausting thing that comes with it. the silence stretches and its weight gathers over her chest to suffocate it. she doesn’t want to be having this conversation. this is supposed to be date night. they are supposed to be having fun. her heart isn’t supposed to be breaking. "you already knew what would happen when you decided to see me." how can they give up on them just like this?

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