LEMONS OF 2020
Let us all admit it. As we welcome 2020 last Jan 1,2020 exactly 12mn we are all expectant and hopeful that this year will be extraordinary compare to our past years. However a huge surprise is waiting for us which everyone will truly hate. Personally, this year have brought me much. Much that I cannot imagine how difficult it will be for me.
January, when my birthday flight to other country was cancelled due to the unknown virus (CORONA VIRUS) that is spreading in the world. Then Lockdown began and I was stuck in Manila far from my family, friends and I canāt even go to the office. Leaving me and my laptop alone with no internet connection. My battle with myself started. On how i can keep up with my routine, staying healthy and COVID FREE. My relationship was tested since Iāve found out that my partner is not completely faithful to me. My heart was just broken that I am tormented with the thought that we are planning already of our future, wedding and settling down. Then here goes my career that seems to be doing fine is now unstable. My credibility, integrity and ability was questioned. My company was planning to restructure due to the pandemic. Then I began to pray God DEARLY, I tell him that I need a new job because I have to save money and I canāt lose my finances. I specified everything that I needed. The salary, set up and everything. I ask for forgiveness especially in my relationship. I bargain with Him that If my partner is not the right man for me then just remove him in my life. But if heās the one for me, give me a heart that is willing to trust again and forgive him. So much battle with my faith, self and sanity is happening. You know? Realizing that everything we are planning for can just disappear in one snap of a finger. I analyze and began to see myself as a PROUD, BOASTFUL, SELFISH AND SINFUL whoās so much entitled of herself. I earnestly pray to God to correct the desires of my heart and re-direct my priorities. But you know? Indeed God is faithful of all the troubles I got in. Here are some of the highlights of my 2020 that God blessed me:
I finished my MBA (with all high grades) and passed my comprehensive exam to continue my Thesis Writing
I Got the job EXACTLY I prayed for! Exact salary, set up I ask Him.
I reached my savings goals and now praying for another blessing this 2021.
Me and boyfriend is rebuilding our relationship. (I forgave him, of course he worked hard for it, for everyone whoās asking me why do I forgive him after those mistake that happened. Wait for my next blog š
Our house together will be finished next year (praying!)
My family never experienced Hunger, sickness and we remained healthy, complete, SANE AND FREE FROM COVID19
We are given the opportunity to expand our finances and praying that God will give it to us this year as long as we are good steward.
Indeed, this year is a rollercoaster. Looking back of all the heartaches, my imperfections and shortcomings to Him. I don't know why God is is Faithful and Loves me. All I can say is THANK YOU FATHER. I cannot pray to remove all the storms that is about to come. But of everything I have been through, All I am asking is the strength, courage and pure heart to continue in trusting Him. This is a testimony that I can share to encourage everyone whenever they are losing hope or faith.
āThe steadfast love of the Lord never ceases His mercies are never come to an end. They are new every morning. Great is thy Faithfulness.ā Lamentations 3:32-33
