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chirmartir

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teaboot

Blasphemous angels being cast out of heaven

foolisherudite

mr-mbti

The MBTI types apologize

freshmbtimemes

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gabrhee

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lifeinpoetry

“That time is supposed to heal / only because once / it was seen with a scalpel in its hands.”

— — Valzhyna Mort, from “An Attempt at Genealogy,” Music for the Dead and Resurrected

noorshirazie

“Some sleep to forget, others sleep to remember; I sleep to revisit you.”

— Noor Shirazie, Into the Wildfire: Battle Scars

nemfrog

Playing card. [Jeu de cartes allemand au portrait à deux têtes] 1815.

Gallica

viinnttaaggee

blossomfully

gabrhee

When I saw this in the middle of the night, I instantly thought of you and a flood of emotions came rushing in. I pushed the emotions and thought of you inside because I decided to stay present. But I’m back here again in this place that’s both imagined and real.

My friend told me something that’s helped me along in my healing journey. She told me that if she were ever disrespected or wronged in an irreparable way by her twin flame, she’d walk away knowing that they’ll just find each other again in the next life and perhaps then, things will be different. I never really thought about it that way till then.

Since then, I’ve learned that soulmates don’t just exist - they are created and made by the choices we make to forgive, to choose, to love. While we don’t choose who we fall in love with, we most certainly choose the relationships we nourish and the people we stand by. We don’t choose who we fall in love with but we choose who we give our love to everyday. we choose to stay and we choose to walk away.

When it comes to you, I’ve been trying to choose me. Why you matter so much to me and why it’s been so hard to let go.. I really don’t know. I have my theories. But I’ve also asked 3 therapists and I have asked God. Maybe the answer doesn’t matter and maybe I’m not meant to know. Maybe I’m just meant to trust that walking away from you over and over again (even if the separation hurts) is what I’m meant to do. After all, I actually do truly believe that walking away from you is what is most loving, just and fair at this moment.

And for the record, i now believe that the whole “no expectation/non attachment” idea to evade hurt and suffering has a layer of bullshit. I did not expect anything when I last saw you but to hang. I did NOT even think I’d see you and I was OK with that but tell me fucking why it still ripped me apart to say goodbye. I hate being away from you.. I hate not being connected to you. I hate this distance from you. And honestly .. I’d rather have you in my life as a friend than not have you at all but I don’t think we can even give each other friendship at this moment. It makes me so sad.

I am telling myself that it’s okay though. If you want, we can watch the moon.. not today, not tomorrow ..maybe not in this lifetime but we will meet under the moon again.

Till then, goodbye.

#twinflames #frog

micakeluh

I reached a financial milestone recently, and all I have to say is I’m so proud of myself. I work hard. I do what I do, and I’m pretty fucking brilliant.

gabrhee

You are so fuckin brilliant ! 🤍