What is your deepest darkest fear?
Gabe liked to pretend he had no fears, he enjoyed being perceived as the tough guy who could take on the world if he needed to. People would tend to believe this about him too, as he tended to walk through life with little to no care other than which female he was going to attempt to pick up that day.
He ensured he had a hard exterior so that others, including himself, couldn’t delve into the mess he actually was. He had learnt to do this from a young age, as his parents tended to not show any emotion or care about his. It had been so long since he had taught himself how to protect his vulnerabilities from the outside world that he now believed he had no fears.
However, once beneath the hard outer shell, he was a bumbling mess. He had never felt good enough, with anything in life. He continually tried to hide his fear of being inadequate. He feared he would never live up to his parents expectations, or his own for that matter. His father was a successful businessman, who could make all inconveniences disappear at the drop of his wallet, and what was Gabe? Sure Gabe was in peak physical form, but he never felt enough. He wasn’t smart, and he knew it. All he understood was working out and girls. How could he ever succumb to anything more than that. How could he live up to anything, when he had never been taught how to handle problems, other than throw money at it. He felt like he had never had a relationship with his parents. He had never been taught what love felt like. Which led into his second deepest fear, dying alone. He wanted someone to see through his shell, to love him for him. He wanted to love and be loved. He wanted to share his life with someone special. He wanted more than anything for them to know him better than anyone else, and he them.
Every once in a while, these fears floated to the surface, before he would have to push them back down again, hoping for no one to ever find them. For how could THE Gabe Legume have any fears. Ha!
