I am, what I am

I am an aspiring writer that has gone through much in my life and has lost many important...things close to my heart. I suffer from a small form of depression, have a mild case of anxiety and panic disorders and tend to freak out with certain trigger images, objects and words. Please no news on the world, as it is one of my biggest triggers. Forgive me for my self-imposed ignorance, but I wish to live my life free of uneeded fear.

[gacha-addict2001]

This can be either Fem-verse or Omegaverse BUT!!! Hammeranvil, Dunkaerion, Valearon and Stagapple! Maekar, Daeron, Aerion and Raymun all have their memories from the future given back to them during the Ashford Tourney (Raymun was proposed to by Lyonel but marrying the Baratheon would mean losing the New Barrel Lordship so they said no). They quickly realize that THEY all remember the future, Aerion straight up tells Maekar “I’m going to find the Hedge Knight to have him fuck me) and they all remeber Maegor and how he was SLIGHTLY bigger than most people. Maekar wants to LEAVE! Having killed Baelor and becoming King and dealing with the Blackfyres, Maekar is done with this shit. Daeron is in the same boat and Raymun knows that no Trial of Seven will mean no New Barrel Lordship or the eyes of Lyonel on them.

So! They all just….go and sleep with each of their beloved throughout the ENTIRE tourney. It’s dirty, filthy and nasty. Aerion and Duncan are fucking by the elm tree, in the river and anywhere Aerion finds Duccan-wanting to try and conceive Maegor NOW. Maekar finally seduces Baelor and they fuck in Baelor’s rooms every night and morning; Maekar always submitting to Baelor since HE is the most into it. Daeron is in Valarr’s pavilion on the arena and usually gives the other a blowjob or a quickie before Valarr is called to joust. Raymun went straight up to Lyonel and said ‘I wanna blow you’ and the rest is history. And then….they vanish. They changed EVERYTHING, so Maekar-being the parent-says they are all going to Lys where Aerion found Saera Targaryen’s secret stash of money and will live there! Raymun is forced to come too, because it was VERY obvious that they were sleeping with Lyonel and Steffon had promised pain.

Only…3 years later, with Duncan as a Kingsguard since he claimed to be ‘Baelor’s Man’ when someone heckled him for his ‘incesteous ways’ (everyone knew he was banging Maekar and had been WANTING TO for YEARS) and he punched him unconscious; they ALSO get their memories back. AND THEY ARE PISSED. All of them know the others slept with them because THEY too remember and the men want them BACK. Ironically it’s Duncan who figures it out, Aerion always spoke of dressing in Saera’s jewelry and imagining how Duncan would ravish him in it. So in three months they are in Lys and looking for them.

Valarr and Baelor find Maekar and Daeron in their bath, both shocked when Baelor remarks that ‘Maekar’s strike with a mace was always true’ and Valarr saying ‘You never left me even in the end’; one would think the other would be happy that their beloved remembered…they aren’t. They are freaked out and scared. They try to escape; but Baelor and Valarr capture them and decide to do some Valyrian bonding by ravishing their beloved bodies right next to one another. Nothing like father son bonding time by having sex with the ones you love and are obsessed with.

Duncan comes into Aerion’s rooms, dressed in his Kingsguard gear; which had always turned Aerion on horribly. Aerion knew it was a possibility that Duncan would remember and Duncan cuts the shit, asking where Maegor is. Aerion says it never took, and that they’ve spent years coming to terms they’d never have their son again. Duncan states he’s here now. Aerion smiles before saying that that cloak stays on. It’s obvious Lyonel found Raymun if the moans and gasps from the OTHER SIDE of the Home is any indication.

I have more…but I need to refine it…..tee-heee.

[gacha-addict2001]

My contribution of Dunkaerion Omegaverse

Literally such a delinquent, buttttt......

Slowburn, obsessive Aerion, omegaverse groundhog day type shit between him and Dunk.

So it starts after Baelor dies, at the height of their hatred for one another. They are brought back to the day that they meet and you know, Aerion hurts Tanselle. Aerion sees his chance and just straight up kills Dunk the moment he sees him, he doesn't care that his father is screaming at him and Baelor is staring at him like he's a monster. He goes to bed happy...until he wakes up to his father saying they need to go so they can get to Ashfrod early, back in the shitty inn.

Aerion tries to kill Dunk again, only to get punched in the face by Duncan who says that is for last time. The two realize very quickly that they are the ONLY ones in this loop and that they have to be in hell.

Fo like 30 straight loops they just straight up kill one another, or die trying to be honest. They soon get REALLY good at picking apart one another's tells and they are simply now beating the snot out of each other. They....mellow(?) out after the 50th loop when they realize that literally NOTHING changes despite what they do. For another 20 loops they just ignore one another, but that does nothing at all either.

They get together in the early mornings when Aerion arrives, to bitch and moan about what the hell is going on, Aerion usually stealing the VERY special wine his Uncle Baelor was most likely going to use to propose to his own father. The loop will reset, he doesn't give a damn. The two go back and forth on many topics, anything and anything really.

They get to the topic of Dunk being an Alpha that doesn't act like an Alpha and Aerion and Omega who doesn't act like an Omega. They just chalk it up to their personalities and Aerion's is mostly due to the fact that his parents never really...saw him all that much, aside from a second son. As they spend more and more time together Aerion realizes he REALLY likes Dunk's scent of fresh rain, morning dew and woody Earth. Dunk likes how Aerion is spices, citrus and burning ember; NEITHER say anything to the other.

Aerion thinks they are something, but it is shattered when he always sees Dunk speaking to Tanselle when he goes to grab food. Tanselle, the bitch who made a dragon die before him and who Duncan had eyes for in the beginning. He tries to say to himself that it is nothing, only he and Duncan can understand one another in this hell they are in. It works for a bit...until one loop where Duncan leaves a note in their usual spot, stating he is finally going to man up and try to spend the night with Tanselle.

Aerion snaps. He kills the beta woman in broad daylight, it is violent, merciless and frantic; he looks like a demon as he stabs again and again and again. His kingsguard struggle to get Aerion off her, the man yelling and screaming; he turns to a shocked Dunk and it all spills out.

"WHY HER AND NOT ME? IS IT NO I WHO IS IN THIS ENDLESS HELL WITH YOU? IS IT NO I YOU SHARE YOUR WOES WITH! WHY HER. WHY SEEK HER BED AND NOT MINE," he is sobbing, straining against his kingsgaurd, tears flowing down his face. Duncan says nothing and the omega in Aerion sees it as rejection; and the next words are the words of a desperate omega not wanting to lose a mate. "I CAN GIVE YOU GOOD CHILDREN! ME, NOT HER! THEY WOULD BE BOLD, STRONG AND HAVE THE BLOOD OF THE DRAGON! YOU DESERVE GOOD PUPS, SHE CAN'T GIVE THEM TO YOU! I CAN! ME! ME! NOT HER!!" He is sobbing, dragged away while everyone stares between Duncan and Aerion in confusion.

Aerion ends his life, not wanting to be reminded any longer that Dunk chose Tanselle over him. Duncan does the same, needing to speak to Aerion as quickly as possible. The next loop, Dunk is waiting near the pond; Aerion appears and it all spills out. Dunk is the only one he wants, they have been reliving the same day for literal years at this point and they are all they have, and Aerion loves him. They go back and forth before Dunk asks if Aerion really wants him, or just thinks he 'loves' Dunk because of this endless loop.

Aerion admits that when Duncan decides to go into the practice jousts every once and while he fingers himself, bringing himself to the apex of pleasure as he watches Dunk dismount lords and kingsguard alike. Pleasures himself at the sight of Duncan undoing his armor and getting a smell of his alpha musk. That loop Duncan and Aerion mate like animals in heat; they are and Aerion laughs deliriously; blabbering about strong children and how it makes sense that he would be the one to give Ser Duncan the Tall a powerful brood.

[gacha-addict2001]

More spicy stuff for my fellow vagrants. 

Aerion is unhinged during their first mating, when they have finally confessed in the hellish loop they are in. I mean he had no shame in admitting to dunk he was fingering himself (Male omegas have female parts) every time he saw Dunk practice jousting. And smelling Dunk’s natural musk has sent him into heat multiple times before but usually he was locked away by his father before he could get to Dunk; but not now. 

Duncan himself has gone into a rut, Aerion’s scent and the fact he has gone into heat triggering him as well. Aerion is babbling, basically pleading with Dunk to let go and do what biology demands to them. Aerion knows that the alpha inside of Dunk WANTS pups and that Aerion can provide him with strong pups, good pups, better than anyone else in all of the seven kingdoms. All Dunk needs to do is fuck him nice, good and hard, make sure that knot catches. Like before, they fuck like animals the entire day and the next they are back to their staring points. 

Duncan wants to talk, but Aerion is NOT having, he literally couldn’t give two fucks if anyone is watching them being honest. The stable they meet at empties as the royal group moves; has Aerion up against the walls of a stable; begging Dunk to go harder and to give him more. Maekar (Aerion’s Omega mother) finds them and flips his shit; screaming for Baelor. Aerion locks his legs around Dunk (Who never got over his fear of Maekar), telling his father that unless he wants EVERYONE to know that his younger sisters and Aegon are Baelor’s pups, he’ll leave them alone. 

Maekar is in shock, but Aerion has had literal decades of the same day to figure it out and to see his father be taken against the desk in the rooms Lord Ashford offered by his uncle. He is still deciding if he, Daeron and Aemon are the sons of Baelor; but he really needs Duncan’s knot to catch. Maekar states that Aerion will be having Moon Tea and they will have words, Aerion isn’t listening already is a euphoric state as Duncan released inside of him and all felt right. He then comments to Duncan they can run off to the caves and see how long they can go. 

[gacha-addict2001]

Dude I love your brain you’re so locked in

Honestly no clue what this is for, if it is my Dunkaerion or my fanfic. but thank you either way. I try to make good food for everyone to enjoy.

[gacha-addict2001]

My contribution of Dunkaerion Omegaverse

Literally such a delinquent, buttttt......

Slowburn, obsessive Aerion, omegaverse groundhog day type shit between him and Dunk.

So it starts after Baelor dies, at the height of their hatred for one another. They are brought back to the day that they meet and you know, Aerion hurts Tanselle. Aerion sees his chance and just straight up kills Dunk the moment he sees him, he doesn't care that his father is screaming at him and Baelor is staring at him like he's a monster. He goes to bed happy...until he wakes up to his father saying they need to go so they can get to Ashfrod early, back in the shitty inn.

Aerion tries to kill Dunk again, only to get punched in the face by Duncan who says that is for last time. The two realize very quickly that they are the ONLY ones in this loop and that they have to be in hell.

Fo like 30 straight loops they just straight up kill one another, or die trying to be honest. They soon get REALLY good at picking apart one another's tells and they are simply now beating the snot out of each other. They....mellow(?) out after the 50th loop when they realize that literally NOTHING changes despite what they do. For another 20 loops they just ignore one another, but that does nothing at all either.

They get together in the early mornings when Aerion arrives, to bitch and moan about what the hell is going on, Aerion usually stealing the VERY special wine his Uncle Baelor was most likely going to use to propose to his own father. The loop will reset, he doesn't give a damn. The two go back and forth on many topics, anything and anything really.

They get to the topic of Dunk being an Alpha that doesn't act like an Alpha and Aerion and Omega who doesn't act like an Omega. They just chalk it up to their personalities and Aerion's is mostly due to the fact that his parents never really...saw him all that much, aside from a second son. As they spend more and more time together Aerion realizes he REALLY likes Dunk's scent of fresh rain, morning dew and woody Earth. Dunk likes how Aerion is spices, citrus and burning ember; NEITHER say anything to the other.

Aerion thinks they are something, but it is shattered when he always sees Dunk speaking to Tanselle when he goes to grab food. Tanselle, the bitch who made a dragon die before him and who Duncan had eyes for in the beginning. He tries to say to himself that it is nothing, only he and Duncan can understand one another in this hell they are in. It works for a bit...until one loop where Duncan leaves a note in their usual spot, stating he is finally going to man up and try to spend the night with Tanselle.

Aerion snaps. He kills the beta woman in broad daylight, it is violent, merciless and frantic; he looks like a demon as he stabs again and again and again. His kingsguard struggle to get Aerion off her, the man yelling and screaming; he turns to a shocked Dunk and it all spills out.

"WHY HER AND NOT ME? IS IT NO I WHO IS IN THIS ENDLESS HELL WITH YOU? IS IT NO I YOU SHARE YOUR WOES WITH! WHY HER. WHY SEEK HER BED AND NOT MINE," he is sobbing, straining against his kingsgaurd, tears flowing down his face. Duncan says nothing and the omega in Aerion sees it as rejection; and the next words are the words of a desperate omega not wanting to lose a mate. "I CAN GIVE YOU GOOD CHILDREN! ME, NOT HER! THEY WOULD BE BOLD, STRONG AND HAVE THE BLOOD OF THE DRAGON! YOU DESERVE GOOD PUPS, SHE CAN'T GIVE THEM TO YOU! I CAN! ME! ME! NOT HER!!" He is sobbing, dragged away while everyone stares between Duncan and Aerion in confusion.

Aerion ends his life, not wanting to be reminded any longer that Dunk chose Tanselle over him. Duncan does the same, needing to speak to Aerion as quickly as possible. The next loop, Dunk is waiting near the pond; Aerion appears and it all spills out. Dunk is the only one he wants, they have been reliving the same day for literal years at this point and they are all they have, and Aerion loves him. They go back and forth before Dunk asks if Aerion really wants him, or just thinks he 'loves' Dunk because of this endless loop.

Aerion admits that when Duncan decides to go into the practice jousts every once and while he fingers himself, bringing himself to the apex of pleasure as he watches Dunk dismount lords and kingsguard alike. Pleasures himself at the sight of Duncan undoing his armor and getting a smell of his alpha musk. That loop Duncan and Aerion mate like animals in heat; they are and Aerion laughs deliriously; blabbering about strong children and how it makes sense that he would be the one to give Ser Duncan the Tall a powerful brood.

[gacha-addict2001]

I love your “This is Just for the Money” fanfic! It’s awesome and I enjoy rereading it over and over! I hope you are feeling better and taking care of yourself!! You deserve all the cuddles and love in the world!!

OMG! Thank you sooo much! I actually got SUPER lucky and found a job like a week and half after I got fired from my last job. I like it 1000% times more, it is what I went to school for and I just enjoy it more. I am still learning the ropes and I am there full time from 9 am to 5:30PM. I am a HR Assistant, and it's an expanding company so everyday is different.

I will be back hopefully soon, I have many ides just getting into the flow is hard, especially after loosing the other job slammed me into such a deep depression so fast I am still crawling out of it.

But thank you for your support and I hope to have the next chapter out soon.

[gacha-addict2001]

wehehehehe tyty I shall start my yap

but for context: I do WAY too much crossovers with fandoms I adore the storyline/plot/characters of, aka I have too many AUs I plotted up but never posted cause I think it's pretty biased between my three favs (ruggie, epel and deuce)..oops

So basically this one idea I just had plotted up in my head is basically I slap one centric character of the AU...into Yuus spot in a separate twisted wonderland universe. and that character so happens to be an AU of Epel (specifically, a Twst x Path to Nowhere AU, whose code name is Caerulea), and now his ass has to navigate the whole TWST plot AS Yuu..and has to suffer the consequences of his own bad decisions (aka- hiding the fact that he's a Sinner...and an unintentional doppelganger)

The worst/best part is that Caerulea actually has complications with blot (due to Mania and Blot entangling with each other and becoming two sides of the same coin AHEM), so others throughout the story do actually notice his blot levels goes beyond normal standards and asks for his well-being (rightfully so), only for Caerulea to ignore and tune them out, and the others worry more as a result. They'll most likely have to corner Caerulea into spilling the beans ;p

Caerulea in the process is a whole other can of worms, from the Euphoria incident he was dragged into because he had no where else to go (tldr of Euphoria from the PtN event, human trafficking and slavery), the fact that he's separated from his safe space(s) [Porcelain(Ruggie), Solitaire(Deuce) and MBCC in general] while mid-healing from trauma process, and thrusted into this Alternate Universe of his original home mid-dangerous mission, and finding ways to get back without "completing the storyline" (he can try the multiverse teleporter, oh for sure, but FATE's will won't allow it. Adding salt to injury, every other multiversal device he has works, he can get updates of how is everyone doing and what's going on, but he can't go back till he "finished the story", in a sense giving comfort but also dangling the fact that he's so close yet so far from exiting for real ;D), a whole lot of issues fr

For the TWST universe surrounding him I have some ideas:

- Prologue goes almost about the same, except for "no magic" however, it is the fact that mania and blot clouded the dark mirror's vision, making it unable to decipher what his soul might resonate with which dorm (and the fact that the mirror flinched hard when glancing into the red mania mist is a different story entirely), Caerulea was told by the mirror "Peculiar. there is magic within this one, but I can't see it through the clouded mist in their soul, so I can't sort them into any dorm. Stay behind child, I have some questions to ask." and the whole orientation flips out and Grim's entrance goes as normal.

- Does talk to the mirror later, albeit in private, without anyone nearby. Crowley decided to put them on a wait-list (trial period) to see whether they are fully capable of magic. Ramshackle is fully his after that. And Grim shenanigans again

- Statue, chandelier, and dwarves mine incident happens, but they actually defeated the blot monster faster than in the original, due to having an extra mage in the party.

- Riddle's overblot go as usual...except the tart making goes by faster, rose colouring goes by faster, and the flashback revelation and tampering was just triggered by being covered in blot...he does pass out later though (overexertion).

- Actually almost every other overblot does follow the original plot, the details are only slightly different (way of thinking, plans, speech). But there are more "off-canon" stuff happening in between and intermission from every other fandoms are between each overblots

- Styx actually kidnaps him with the other overblotees, since Idia has been monitoring him since day 1, so the people who actually go after Caerulea are people he made aquaintance in-between overblots and vignette shenanigans.

- When Idia was investigating individual profiles for overblotees, not only does he find out 1. Caerulea doesn't even EXIST in the database in the whole world, 2. The look he has is just a disguise + the disguise spell he used was unable to be decoded, so therefore unable to be reversed by anyone in Styx and 3. his blot levels is that of a regular blot monster, but he somehow isn't one, sends Styx's whole operation into a frenzied chaos. The overblotees find this whole thing out by crashing into the main control room when the overblot happen. Panic intensifies and operation stop overblot delayed by a few minutes. That fee minutes gave Caerulea enough time to escape the confinement he was in and slip away to the underworld himself.

- Styx main control room detects Caerulea going down Tartarus and everybody panics. Overblotees speedrun getting admin cards to catch up to him. Everyone involved cleared the tower way quicker than they should've.

- Caerulea gets a chance to talk to overblot Idia and Ortho. Eerie shit ensues and Caerulea nearly turns into a corrupted blot monster himself, and Idia and Ortho nearly got corrupted by the Mania overflowing of him.

- Overblot took more effort to beat, due to trying to get Caerulea to snap back to reality and detach him from Idia and Ortho

- After that is almost the same, except that Caerulea turned down the chance that Mickey might have a way home due to knowing the story is about to end, so therefore only told the other first years about Mickey as a source of his weird dreams instead

- Malleus Overblot happens, but Caerulea is nowhere to be seen at all. So the main plot point other than to stop the Overblot is to find Caerulea. Grim was left all alone until nearly the end, where they found Caerulea hopping from dream to dream himself, making NPCs wake up by inducing a little Mania to make dreams into nightmares and scaring them awake, and a very pissed Malleus Draconian hot on his trail.

- Grand defeat happens as per scheduled program (yayyyy) and they finally have time to regularly hangout as teens (book 7.5)...and to corner ask Caerulea about..a whole load of things.

- Scheduled program ends and Caerulea can finally set up a teleporter to go home 💥💥💥 but before that happens everybody ambushes his ass Furina's court trial style to get answers to questions....only for Caerulea to reveal the fact that he is from a boarder multiverse and chaos ensues. Caerulea stays behind to explain some shit and answer some questions before leaving at the dead of the night with a letter saying the gist "we'll meet again" with some ways to contact him and story ends 😋 (I might tweak the ending when book 8 comes out)

*mini note: other fandoms do appear during intermissions and side stories for Caerulea and will have your scheduled comedy before the hurricane 😇

That's all I have for this one LMAO 👹🙏🏻

HOT......DAMN.....

[gacha-addict2001]

can I perchance have the opportunity to yap to you a random ass TWST story idea I plotted up in my head (asking permission)

(it's kinda...wide linked to other fandoms as side plot and intermission typa scenarios)

Go ahead, hit me with it.

I'm all ears.

[gacha-addict2001]

I just recently saw your 7 man band AU game show shenanigans and I just wanna tell you I have been binge reading it (12/20 uploaded chaps as of writing) since 12pm in the afternoon

It's currently 6pm. 👹

I have severely underestimated how long the chapter was (my scrollbar was about 3 pixels on mobile 💔💔💔)

KEEP COOKING BTW I LOVE THIS VERY MUCH 😋🔥🔥🔥

OMG HAHAHAH. Thank you very much! I am glad people are liking it. I had so many ideas and I just decided one day to do it and I am glad people who wanted it are enjoying my vision of it.

[gacha-addict2001]

Seven Man Band AU. What do you think?

An Ace Centric chapter is coming. I have two songs that he could use to get his feelings out. But I am literally 50/50. Help? No songs named, only where they are from.

Kpop Demon Hunters

Hazbin Hotel

Voting ended onDec 9, 2025

[sandbees]

I’m using my power, followers go vote for KDH /j

Nono but if you haven’t read this fic before go read it!!! Link below!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[gacha-addict2001]

OMG! I remember loving some of your TWST headcanons, glad your liking my story!

[gacha-addict2001]

Seven Man Band AU. What do you think?

An Ace Centric chapter is coming. I have two songs that he could use to get his feelings out. But I am literally 50/50. Help? No songs named, only where they are from.

Kpop Demon Hunters

Hazbin Hotel

Voting ended onDec 9, 2025

[gacha-addict2001]

A little help with the Seven Man Band AU.

Hey, Hey.

I haven't gotten this far into the planning process, but I have created three 'Albums' in which the First Years could create after they get off the show. Because even if they win or not, they are still gonna be sought after for singing. The first two albums are named–

Welcome to the Madness (8 Songs) & Lingering Conflicts (4 Songs)

Anyone wanna help me name the third album? This is the only way I am gonna show you this. I'll give you the songs, but who is singing what is not gonna be shown. I just need a name of this 'Album'. Literally have been stumped on this for the last two weeks, nothing is coming to mind and it's bugging me.

Here is the Album.

Poison Bad Romance Alejandro Poker Face Dead Dance Born this Way Can’t be Tamed The Edge of Glory

Hit me with your suggestions! Go all out.

[shumidehiro]

Indemnity

A what-if scenario where he never finds Tholindis.

You thought that being Rerir’s companion was the worst thing that happened to you aside from being immortal against your will. Aside from seeing your homeland got destroyed. Aside from being doomed to roam Teyvat forever. You thought, too, that him gaining his full power was the worst thing that happened to you.

Clearly, you hadn’t considered the fact that Tholindis might never be found.

Tholindis, Rerir’s long-time fiancée. The one behind his violent pursuit for the moons. Nobody knew what exactly transpired between the two of them, and he refused to tell you the complete story except for his occasional psychotic ramblings of her name. It must’ve been something bad, something traumatic, because it turned him into this obsessive lunatic with abandonment issues.

Issues that you, unfortunately, had to endure. Because, really, what else could you do against one of the Five Sinners? Immortality didn’t come with a set of powers, and even if you were strong yourself, it’d never be enough to beat him.

Although, the longer you stayed with him, the more you began to feel as if you were there as his crutch.

But, then again, you were a sinner’s companion, and none of them were in the sanest of mind.

You watched Rerir as he breathed heavily, his back turned to you. It was a common sign whenever he was in his bout of insanity, but you knew that this time, it was different. The moon had been searched, people had been killed, and Tholindis still hadn’t been found.

Except for her tattered dress, that is, which could only mean one thing.

“No…” he whispered, clutching the dress tightly within his claws. “She’s not dead yet.”

You remained silent. It wasn’t as if you knew the answer, either, although you had your own suspicion. A suspicion that was best left unspoken.

Rerir suddenly howled as his power went haywire. It split the scorched ground, and from the cracks, ghouls and phantom hands rose. You startled and slowly withdrew, not wanting to be a casualty from his outburst. Being close to him right now was similar to being close to an enraged God, and it was best to wait until he calmed down.

At least, that was what you planned.

But, alas, he didn’t share the same idea.

“Are you planning to leave me too, after everything we’ve been through?!”

Your eyes widened when one of the hands wrapped around your body and yanked you towards him. From this proximity, you could see the grief, fear, and fury swirling within that pink eye. You tried to squirm, but the hand only tightened its grip.

“Rerir, you… you’re suffocating me!”

“Why? So you can abandon me too, is that it?!”

“I wasn’t… trying to abandon you!”

“Lies! Cowards like you only pretend to be loyal, until the opportunity arises for you to run away!”

“Rerir, please…!” you gasped desperately for air. “You have to… believe me!”

The said man shook his head stubbornly, but he relaxed his hold slightly.

“No, no more. You’ll stay with me forever.” he mumbled absently. “We shall get married and I’ll put a baby in you. That way, you won’t be able to leave me.”

“Rerir…!” you shrieked, face paling in horror. “Snap out of it!”

“Shut up!” he barked. “I won’t give you any chance to escape from me. Never! Neither death nor the abyss shall separate us anymore.”

You opened your mouth to yell, but another hand immediately slapped it shut. Rerir ignored your muffled cries and walked off, muttering about Khaenriahn’s marriage ceremony and children.

[gacha-addict2001]

Dunno, I thought to make this more demented and spicy since I read it. 

So since the fall of their nation and Rerir deciding that you are to be his companion; things aren’t exactly linear. You have the skill of finding connections between sources that he himself doesn’t really notice, so there are times when you are stuck living with him for literal months to years at a time. Then he up and vanishes, following the connections that you found for him, and you think you are safe ... .Until he returns with more information and is more unstable than before. 

Your terrified of him, so you help him so he doesn’t torture you–since the torture won’t lead to the relief of death as you are cursed with immortality–and so that he will leave again. But as time goes on the time between when he leaves and returns shortens; and his instability gets MUCH worse. From years, to a year to a few months to a few weeks, the time between him finding you and leaving gets smaller and smaller; and your fear grows. Until he never comes back, when his body is destroyed in his attempts to find Tholindis. You believe you are safe now, after a few decades of being paranoid of course, but you go on to live a ‘normal’ life while suffering from the decay. It’s not as bad as Capitano or Dainslief; but it does hurt and it is a reminder of what happened to your people, your nation and everything you loved. 

But you persist, you allow yourself to live while keeping who you are a secret. You move to Nod-Krai, not knowing this is where Rerir is looking for the last bit of his scattered pieces. You develop a life, friends and companions here in this town ruled by no one. You find someone you really like, and they really like you. You spend time with one another, feelings develop and things progress. 

But Rerir is back, though only at 10% of his true power; he is back and he seeks out his ‘only true companion’; he has your essence memorized and is able to find you quickly–he is relieved to sense you in Nod-Krai. You must have known he was attempting to get back, and he is happy about that. Until he gets to your house and sees something that sends him spiraling into rage– 

A pathetic human is between your legs, you are moaning, shifting and panting–and the look on your face….

You look like you LOVE that human. 

He finally snaps out of his daze when the man rises, moving to be closer to you and complete the connection….

….Rerir can’t have that. 

Using his power he grabs the pathetic human, and rips him apart right before you; you are drenched in blood and frozen in fear at the very familiar power that you had not seen in centuries. Rerir enters, he is scowling, anger radiates off of him in waves that seem to choke you as his hands hold you down. 

“If you could love another, then what was your loyalty to me for?” He snarled, eye wide in paranoia and anger. 

You try to speak but nothing come out, his hands are choking you–half naked and aroused; his eyes rove over you and he cocks his head to the side. 

“No, no more. You’ll stay with me forever.” he mumbled absently. “We shall get married and I’ll put a baby in you. That way, you won’t be able to leave me.” Those words hit you like a Mitachurl. 

“N…No…Rerir please,” you plead. 

“But…mayhaps I can put the child within you now,” he said, moving to walk over as the dark power began to rip off the rest of your clothes. 

“Rerir…!” you shrieked, face paling in horror. “Snap out of it!”

“Shut up!” he barked. “I won’t give you any chance to escape from me. Never! Neither death nor the abyss shall separate us anymore.” His single eye locked with your own just as he kneeled between your open legs. “This is the only way…” 

Tears well up in your eyes and that seems to stop Rerir for a moment, and something you never expected came from his lips. 

“You were supposed to be happy I came back,” he whispers, more to himself than to you.

(Used your last lines because they worked so well!)

[gacha-addict2001]

More trouble for the First Years

Okay, okay. So I finally had time to catch up on the latest chapters in book 7 and couldn’t help but think after reading Utopian_Angel’s (Ao3) or @enchanted-nerd (Tumblr) Lions & Dragons [Amazing fic by the way, totally go and check it out! Show it some love people!], what would have happened if during Malleus’ overblot, he took priority over ensuring the first years dreams were the most protected-even over his fellow housewardens. 

We know that for the housewardens he placed the Darkness as close as possible to ensure they were entrenched deep into their dreams to make sure they wouldn’t wake up. But with the Lions & Dragons Malleus, I think he would take extra precaution to ensure the First Years would NEVER wake up. He would make it impossible for anyone to get close to the first years and keep a much closer eye on them than even the housewardens. This as well since he doesn’t have access to Ortho’s dreams as Ortho cannot dream because he is a robot. He’s missing one of his treasures, as he calls them in Lions & Dragons. Not having access to all of them makes him seriously pissed off and so he gets extra protective over them all. 

I honestly see it as Ortho and Idia have literally no choice but to go with only Silver to the dreams and having to wake up the first years dead last, they have no choice because attempting to wake up Sebek drew Malleu’s attention to them so fast they almost lost Ortho because Malleus was determined to keep all his treasures together. Maybe even during the confrontation in the Cerberus Gear, Malleus still attempts to keep Ortho’s body thinking he can still bind him in dreams. 

Dunno…been stewing with this since catching up. The Housewarderns were tough to wake up, but I think Malleus from that story would make it near impossible for the First Years to even wake up. He would have taken special care to make sure that they have the best dreams with the least margin of error to allow them to awaken. Most likely he keeps them close to the center of his arcane realm to ensure the most potent magic….   

Anyways, lemme know what all ya’ll think…

[gacha-addict2001]

More for you all.

I guess if Malleus is keeping a closer eye on the First years, their dreams would be different than what we went through in Book 7. 

I think with Sebek he would still be in school with everyone, spending the days with the first years alongside the other Diasomnia members. Everything would be as it was because Sebek finally carved out a place for himself with people who see him and who he sees as friends. Malleus is able to come in and out of this dream with ease, and he gets to indulge Sebek in a way he usually would never allow. 

Epel…I am NOT allowing him to be that muscle bodied baby headed being, but he is going to be training with the rest of the first years helping him. He spends time in a warrior workshop with Lilia and Sebek, Malleus watching them as he comments about Sebek’s youth. He’s in school, because he has found himself there with everyone around him and Malleus is able to be there in a capacity to keep an eye on him. 

Jack is pretty much the same, just Malleus making it more and more apparent that Leona wants to do things civilly; so Malleus comes along to make him communicate with Leona. That way he can keep an eye on Jack personally while commenting on his form and such. Not much needs to be done with Jack, he already has a very good dream that Malleus is able to enforce no problem; so all he does is strengthen the conviction and ensure all actors are believable. 

Deuce….delienquent through and through; Malleus has a bit of a hard time understanding his convictions but he plays along. It’s fun but he does twist the dream to make sure that both Diasomnia and Heartslabyul are in a Partnership/Alliance so that Malleus is allowed close access to Deuce and able to communicate with ease. The battles they engage in is fun for him, so Malleus usually is there in Deuce’s dream to have some fun and ensure that his dream is going perfectly well. 

Ace is pretty much the same, only that it doesn’t involve any of the Heartslabyul members aside from Deuce and they are all vacationing in Briar Valley. Malleus is the one who invited them to be honored guests and he is throwing balls and treating them as well as a prince can for such guests. Ace’s dream is an excuse to be able to spoil his treasures and spend an unlimited amount of time with them in his country, showing them all it has to offer and more. Not to mention he can pretend Yuu can see their family and is able to come back whenever they want because that is what ACE wants. 

Yuu’s dream is simple. He’s happy with everyone in Night Raven….Malleus had the hardest time in reworking this dream because Yuu’s dream was to go home. Away from all of them. He needed to intervene. He had no choice. Yuu’s is the most warped and the one Malleus is in the most to ensure its stability and to make sure that Yuu isn’t able to wake up. Grim is always managing to get into the dreams somehow, like he is drawn to Yuu. Malleus has nothing against Grim, but he woke up Yuu once already and it was once too much. 

Leona, being the second closest that the First Years are friends with, insists they need to grab them. Idia states that Malleus has the strongest amount of Magic in those dreams and he is most certainly splitting his consciousness to be present in all of them. It is going to be impossible to get them out. Leona doesn’t want to, but he states they need to use the first years as human shields, that the only way to wake them up. Malleus won’t do anything to them if they are between the two groups. 

[gacha-addict2001]

More trouble for the First Years

Okay, okay. So I finally had time to catch up on the latest chapters in book 7 and couldn’t help but think after reading Utopian_Angel’s (Ao3) or @enchanted-nerd (Tumblr) Lions & Dragons [Amazing fic by the way, totally go and check it out! Show it some love people!], what would have happened if during Malleus’ overblot, he took priority over ensuring the first years dreams were the most protected-even over his fellow housewardens. 

We know that for the housewardens he placed the Darkness as close as possible to ensure they were entrenched deep into their dreams to make sure they wouldn’t wake up. But with the Lions & Dragons Malleus, I think he would take extra precaution to ensure the First Years would NEVER wake up. He would make it impossible for anyone to get close to the first years and keep a much closer eye on them than even the housewardens. This as well since he doesn’t have access to Ortho’s dreams as Ortho cannot dream because he is a robot. He’s missing one of his treasures, as he calls them in Lions & Dragons. Not having access to all of them makes him seriously pissed off and so he gets extra protective over them all. 

I honestly see it as Ortho and Idia have literally no choice but to go with only Silver to the dreams and having to wake up the first years dead last, they have no choice because attempting to wake up Sebek drew Malleu’s attention to them so fast they almost lost Ortho because Malleus was determined to keep all his treasures together. Maybe even during the confrontation in the Cerberus Gear, Malleus still attempts to keep Ortho’s body thinking he can still bind him in dreams. 

Dunno…been stewing with this since catching up. The Housewarderns were tough to wake up, but I think Malleus from that story would make it near impossible for the First Years to even wake up. He would have taken special care to make sure that they have the best dreams with the least margin of error to allow them to awaken. Most likely he keeps them close to the center of his arcane realm to ensure the most potent magic….   

Anyways, lemme know what all ya’ll think…

[violenteconomics]

the first-years accidentally start a secret support group for other freshmen in ramshackle dorm.

it's ortho's idea, really. it doesn't even start off as a support group. ortho just wants to have a large video game tournament like he often sees online, and the first-years decide to help him make it a reality.

at first, they just invite their roommates, which brings us to a healthy number of about 18 people. then their roommates invite a few friends, who are eager to escape the pressures of being in their respective dorms. before they know it, their "video game tournament" has turned into a hang-out group of about 36 who come over to play video games every other weekend.

one day, while they're playing a racing game, one of the scarabian first-years starts absentmindedly talking about how nice it is here. how ever since winter break, he's felt unsafe in his own bedroom, especially with jamil still lurking around. how it's nice to have an excuse to just get away from all of it for a bit.

then he notices the room's gone quiet. his words have unknowingly hit a serious nerve.

they all take a break from the tournament to just... talk. they're night raven college students, so they don't really talk much about their feelings, but in this empty space, as detached as they'll ever be from the brutally individualistic culture of this school...

it feels safe. it feels right.

epel starts bringing over criminally soft blankets from pomefiore's seemingly endless supply of cashmere bedding. jack brings over some cacti to lighten the mood. ace and deuce -- with trey's unknowing help -- learn how to make a decent (if repetitive) spread of cookies, soup, and popcorn. sebek brings over some scented candles from diasomnia just in case someone wants to close the blinds and be in relative darkness for a bit. and yuu, of course, offers their time.

before they know it, "video game tournament" turns into a codeword rather than an actual label. and the first-years have become the operators of night raven college's first -- and perhaps only -- support group.

(everyone collectively agrees to keep this a secret from the upperclassmen for as long as they can. it's nice to have a little space that's just for them.)

[violenteconomics]

YES YES YES YES YESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYES FOUND FAMILY DOMESTICITY IS MY WEAKNESS ISTG

like sometimes they talk for way too long and by the time they're done, it's almost midnight and they're way too exhausted to even think about walking back. (and maybe a little scared what their dorm leaders will think about them coming in long after curfew.)

(except for savanaclaw students, who know that nobody even knows or cares that they left in the first place, which... hurts more than a claw scratch ever will, but we're not going to dwell on that thought.)

so yuu offers them some of their rooms to sleep in. while there are enough that they could have a room all to themselves, some of them do choose to bunk with each other, because it's just nice to not have to fall asleep feeling alone and like the world's out to get you for once.

and when they wake up in the morning, some of them go out to get breakfast for everyone else at sam's shop, and they all eat breakfast together, joking and laughing and messing around like people their age should be.

and for one, perfect moment they're all happy and they're starting to like waking up in the morning now and ARGGGGGH IT MAKES ME INSANE THEY TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER LIKE THAT AND RAMSHACKLE BECOMES THEIR HOME AWAY FROM HOME AHHHHHHHAAWEOFOWEIHFBWEGIU

[gacha-addict2001]

Imagine if the House Wardens and older students assume it's something bad.

Like...drugs, sex, a fighting ring or some stupid shit they think is going down there. But no, its games, food and some not so platonic cuddling (like seriously, are any boys in the school straight? like be fr??), but nothing more than that. They don't know what to do while the first years are trying to hold in their anger and tears because all of this is for sure going to be taken away.

They don't talk to their seniors for a full week, because they are waiting for the shoe to drop and say that they aren't allowed back and the seniors are freaking out, like why aren't their adorable (they are reaching fr, these are traumatized babies) first years speaking. to them.

Dunno, thought this was funny.

[compassion4companions]

[gacha-addict2001]

If anything, cat

[violenteconomics]

after trying to help deuce study for an alchemy test, the first-years accidentally blow up their concotion, turning them back into 3-year-olds and forcing their upperclassmen to take care of them. (ortho remains physically intact, but his internal memory has been reset.)

it's mostly funny. mostly, they all have a good laugh over how weirdly articulate jack is, or how epel insists on climbing every tall thing he can find, or the way yuu is always falling asleep the second they get comfortable, or the way ortho looks at even the most mundane of objects with such curiosity and wonder.

mostly, they're just trying to keep ace from flying off on one of the broom, or stopping sebek from stuffing his face with honey, or watching deuce draw his "mummy" by incoherently scribbling on a piece of paper with a broken blue crayon

mostly, it's harmless.

mostly.

except when it comes to the housewardens.

the first time ace and deuce saw the severe look on riddle's face, they clung to cater and trey like their lives depended on it.

the first time jack saw leona, snarling lightly,, he stood in front of ruggie protectively and bared his dull puppy teeth at him, all the while shaking in his boots.

the first time epel saw vil, who tried to pick him off one of the pillars, he was so startled he fell, then scrambled up to hide behind rook. if vil's in the room with him during naptime, he won't even TRY to sleep.

the first time ortho saw idia, he stared blankly at him, as if he were a stranger. he'd been perfectly cheerful (if a little confused) to everyone else, but as soon as idia walked in the room, his eyes glazed over and he greeted him like a perfectly obedient robot... and nothing like the ortho they knew.

the first time sebek saw malleus, he just burst out into tears, climbed into lilia's arms, and refused to get out of them until he saw malleus leave the room. 

when yuu saw a housewarden for the first time, they locked the door to their bedroom and didn't come out for four whole hours. sometimes they started screaming for no particular reason.

and nobody’s quite sure what to do with that.

(when the effects of the accident wear off, the first-years remember absolutely nothing about it. and everyone collectively agrees it's for the best.)

[gacha-addict2001]

Their possible reactions kill meeee....

Riddle is unsure of what happened, he had been trying to work on himself and everything had been going well so far. But when Ace and Deuce are suddenly toddlers, they fear him and he is struck by lightning. He feels like he is looking into a mirror when his mother found him after sneaking out with Trey and Chen'ya. He attempts to get on their level, show them he isn't mad but it only sends the boys into more hysterics and Trey tells him it's best if he stays away and he breaks.

Leona makes a sarcastic comment the moment Jack goes in front of Ruggie, the usual. Being a guard pup or a baby without it's fangs until he sees the fear and tears welling up in Jack's eyes and he realizes that the other is afraid of him. Jack, who had the balls early in his first year to stand up to him and fend him off during his overblot sees him as a legitimate threat to the point he is scared for his life but assumes that Leona is going to hurt others as well. He leaves without a word and watches Jack to see if it was a fluke, only to realize that Jack is on edge because he's younger and his sense of smell is better and he knows Leona is watching.

Vil took notice of how much Epel did not relax around him when Rook was actually frustrated in trying to get him down for a nap, as all children his age needed. He had turned to Vil, possibly to ask for some relaxing mist only for Epel to grab his hand and growl at Rook, shaking his head at Vil and Vil felt his entire being clench in despair. Epel did not trust him at all, even after he had brought the first aid kit for Rook to use, Epel saw him as a threat and that hurt more than he wanted to admit.

Idia stood stock still as Ortho turned back into the very first robot he had made, unable to do anything but spit out the preprogramed words he had put in when he had finished him. The other's told him that Ortho was perfectly fine before, a the mind of a toddler but still speaking, and Idia knew that he was back to when he was nothing more than a simple program. Ortho's integration into the System Ortho had really changed things and...Idia felt sick. He fled to his room and didn't come out until everything was fixed.

Malleus had flinched back, eyes widening at Sebek's frantic tears as he clung desperately to Lilia. The elder fae had no idea what was wrong, trying to coax Sebek into looking at Malleus, assuring him that they where good friends and Malleus would do nothing to harm him. But Sebek only cried harder, to the point of nearly passing out. He was so red and on the verge of turning blue that Silver whispered to Malleus he was on the verge of hurting himself, it took Malleus a long time before he left the room and he stayed out of sight as Lilia calmed Sebek down, hands clenched into fists as slolwy but surely, Sebek calmed down and fell asleep.

Yuu had been staying with Sam, since his shadows would be able to keep an eye on them since wandering around wouldn't do Yuu any good and he didn't technically have a housewarden. Jamil and Azul happened to come to pick up things for themselves and saw Yuu. Jamil, being an older brother, tried to ask Yuu have he was feeling only for the kid to scream at the top of his lungs and rush toward the small bedroom Sam made. Azul came out and asked what was wrong and Yuu screamed again, locking the door and crying when Jamil knocked on the door to ask what was wrong. It was later when the first years where going through some exercises with some of the seniors that they realized Yuu had been afraid of them and not older teens in general. They didn't like the feeling that came with it.

When they reverted a single burning question was in their minds.

Are they hiding how they actually feel about us and as children they couldn't hide it as well?

[violenteconomics]

AHHHHHHAOUHEFIOUBWEIUTGH THIS IS SO FUCKING GOOD. YOUR BRAINWORMIES ARE TILLING THAT SOIL GOOOOOOOD. AND AND AND AND IT'S LIKE IT FOLLOWS THEM LIKE A SPIRIT LONG AFTER.

like imagine it takes a few weeks for the first-years to go back to normal, and in that time, the upperclassmen all got used to acting a certain way around them.

like suddenly ace and deuce are realizing that riddle is making every excuse in the book not to be in the same room as them for too long, because he never -- ever -- wants to see their faces lit up with such abject terror ever again.

and jack feels leona watching him with such sharpness and intensity. everytime jack gives off even the slightest hint of being nervous or scared, leona visibly recoils and growls, like an animal backed into a corner.

vil always makes sure he's not at pomefiore between the hours of 12 and 3 in the afternoon. he can't even be contacted after curfew. epel sees vil across campus one day, and he can't help but notice that he looks a bit paler than usual, like he hasn't been sleeping at all lately.

idia locks even ortho out of his room. the one time ortho managed to convince him to let him inside, he couldn't help but notice how wrecked idia looked -- more so than usual. ortho watched idia play some video games for a bit, before idia anxiously shoved ortho out of the room with the excuse of needing some alone time to read manga.

sebek straight-up can't find malleus, and that's because wherever he goes, malleus ensures he's out of sight. it gets so bad to the point where malleus insists on eating in his room so he doesn't have to do it downstairs, a place sebek also likes eating his meals.

yuu thinks jamil and azul are mad at them. everytime they try to talk to one of them, they always manage to find some kind of excuse to avoid a conversation. one time yuu tried to get some dinner at the mostro lounge, only for jade to walk up, shove a takeout box in their hands, tell them it's "on the house" (something that NEVER happens in octavinelle), and then politely ask them to make their exit.

and the first-years aren't sure what they did wrong. for all they know, they blacked out for a few weeks, woke up, and suddenly their upperclassmen are straight-up avoiding them.

and that... hurts.

[gacha-addict2001]

A–h! Yes! The most delicious of them all....

Miscommunication and Angst, not to mention together.

Perfectly balanced, as all things should be.