A LIFE ALIVE

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took my best friend to the atlantic - 2021

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I don’t know how to talk to my friends anymore

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literally I feel paralyzed

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I don’t know how to talk to my friends anymore

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another night of listening to lord i need you in the dark with tears streaming down the sides of my face hehe 

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“I have almost never worked with an abused woman who overlooked her partner’s humanity. The problem is reverse: He forgets her humanity. Acknowledging his abusiveness and speaking forcefully and honestly about how he has hurt her is indispensable to her recovery. It is the abuser’s perspective that she is being mean to him by speaking bluntly about the damage he has done. To suggest to her that his need for compassion should come before her right to live free from abuse is consistent with the abuser’s outlook. I have repeatedly seen the tendency among friends and acquaintances of an abused woman to feel that it is their responsibility to make sure that she realizes what a good person he really is inside - in other words, stay focused on his needs rather than her own, which is a mistake. People who wish to help an abused woman should instead be telling her what a good person she is.”

Lundry Bancroft, Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men

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Kanye West "Come To Life"

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if i lay in bed will that mean i'm succumbing to my depression again

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bell hooks mentioned going through a time in her life where she was severely depressed and suicidal and how the only way she got through it was through changing her environment: She surrounded her home with buddhas of all colors, Audre Lorde’s A Litany for Survival facing her as she wakes up, and filling the space she saw everyday with reinforcing objects and meaningful books. She asks herself each day, “What are you going to do today to resist domination?” I also really liked it when she said that in order to move from pain to power, it is crucial to engage in “an active rewriting of our lives.”

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I feel like I don't have a future

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I say this a lot and I'm saying it again (hopefully to keep myself accountable fr this time), but I really need to start consistently working out. I'm sad that it doesn't come from pure/non-shallow intentions anymore... whereas I previously wanted to work out specifically to be and feel strong, now it comes from a place of sheer desperation to not hate my physical self. and maybe I'll have healthily exercised for months on end and my body still won't look any different, but at the very least I'll know that I wasn't just sitting around and doing nothing. I just need to focus on setting myself in motion before worrying about anything else right now

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this summer was everything i didn’t do. summer just haunted me, i mean. if there is anything i must take to heart from these few months of all the things i didn’t do, it’s (ever so relentlessly) don’t waste time. make art once a week no matter how fucking shitty it looks or you feel, write everyday whether it’s a day recap or how sad you’ll be when the simpsons will end once the voice actors all die, don’t stop reading the science section of google news, don’t skip the just one hour of calculus daily, and i guess most importantly: never allow yourself to wake up and breathe a little despair. because when a little settles, the rest will rise so suddenly like a wildfire, burgeoning through your lungs and you’ll end up walking with worse posture, flinching when somebody speaks, forgetting your potential to grow, forgetting all the things you can do during the time it will take.

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people born in 2002 are 19... I’m sick

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listening to reborn by kids see ghosts and bawling <3

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if i open petfinder or look at any animal adoption page for too long i will simply start crying

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A Google doc with resources for Afghanistan 

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GoFundMe Emergency Funds for Afghan Artists

Afghan Child Education And Care Organization (AFCECO) (orphanage)

Visions for Children e.V. (assisting Afghanistan and other countries lacking educational infrastructure)  

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Form for U.S.-based attorneys willing to help with Afghans with their SIV, P-2, and humanitarian parole cases (via Afghan Diaspora for Equality & Progress)