Gave Ian the gun back for no conceivable self-benefitting reason
Put aside his own discomfort and fear and personal problems with his angry abusive father to comfort a distraught Ian, despite the fact that, as a function of his abuse, anything resembling emotional vulnerability is a terrifying notion to him.
Boasted about having sex with Ian in front of Kash despite being afraid of being outed
Couldn’t keep the smile off his face when Ian grinned at him while visiting him in juvie
Agreed to work with Ian at the store despite the fact that it was the site of two traumatic events: having his sexuality discovered and being shot as a result of it
Appeared visibly and audibly insecure about Ian’s West Point ambitions in comparison to his lack of hope about his own future
Stood up to Ian’s father for him
Sacrificed his own freedom rather than kill Ian’s father
Immediately returned to Ian upon his second release without being bitter about all of the negative things that have happened as a result of his involvement with Ian before that point
Was explicitly and obviously jealous over Ian’s sexual relationship with another boy
Suggested that Ian is the only person he trusts enough to be vulnerable with, the only person he trusts enough to have the type of sex that Mickey most enjoys
Was once again explicitly and obviously jealous over Ian’s sexual relationship with another man
Waited so long for Ian to come running with him that he almost got caught by security guards
Grabbed Ian affectionately by the neck and fucking frolicked with him
Agreed to help Ian rob Ned’s house even though he hates Ned
Kissed him when it goes against everything that Mickey has conditioned himself to be in order to keep himself alive
Did not hold a grudge about being shot
Arranged to have the house empty (by asking Mandy not to spend the night) to give Ian a safe space to stay when he was in the group home
Made Ian food and had a fucking movie night date with him
Had sex that would be pleasurable for Ian despite the fact that Mickey was still sore from the bullet wound
Jumped on his father’s back to pry him away from Ian. Note that this is the person Mickey fears most in the world. Note that this is the situation that has terrified Mickey all his life. Note that this is an abused child who has learned to do whatever it takes to avoid getting hurt by his father all his life, and his first instinct is to protect Ian with his entire body.
After already having been beaten to near-unconsciousness and immobility, pushed at his father’s face with his hand to get his attention away from Ian, so that Ian could get out. Note that Terry is holding a gun at that moment. Note that there was probably no doubt in Mickey’s mind that he was about to die.
Despite being still-traumatized from the rape and in the process of losing even more control over his life, agreed to threaten Patrick Gallagher to step off Ian’s house.
Kissed Ian again when Ian proposed, “If you give half a shit about me, Mickey, don’t do this….” because there was no way Mickey couldn’t do what his father wanted him to. There was no way for Mickey to make that decision, but he had to do whatever he could think of to communicate to Ian that he gave so much more than half a shit about him.
Told Ian that he wasn’t capable of expressing in words how much he felt about him.
Despite living in an honest-to-god fucking hellscape of a nightmare, was able to smile at Ian and flirt with him. Even though he had so much of his self-determination stripped away from him as a result of this relationship, he did not, for one minute, consider blaming Ian. He did not, for one minute, regret it. He had no intention of stopping it, even though doing so meant risking his life.
Even though being so emotionally vulnerable is the scariest thing for Mickey to do, he begged Ian not to go and cried when he did.
But sure. Go ahead and continue thinking that the love between Ian and Mickey only became mutual in season four, or that Mickey was a piece of shit who never put Ian first before season four. It’s not like there’s any contradictory evidence proving that to be bullshit or anything.
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