Song of the Day

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Song of the Day - Day 24 - The New Year by Death Cab for Cutie

Lately I've been having the feeling that I've ruined a lot in my life. I’ve had the best people I’ve ever known come and go because I wasn’t in a good place in my life. I regret a lot of that, but it’s something I have to live with. Perhaps they’ll see that I’ve changed and come back and perhaps not. Who knows. People say to live life without regret, but without it I wouldn’t be in a position to change. It is a constant reminder of what I was doing wrong and what I am now doing right. Once I learned to embrace regret I was ale to actively change. So as my new years resolution I don’t discard the weight of the previous year for the freedom of a new year just to fuck up again. I choose to learn and grow from my experiences and carry them with me. In other words:

‘So this is the new year. And i don't feel any different...

So this is the new year And I have no resolutions For self assigned penance For problems with easy solutions’

There are no easy solutions to life.

I have met some of the most amazing people and at times I think they underestimate the impact they have had on my life. I'm not the best at showing appreciation, but over the last couple of years I've grown a lot and I can think of more than a few people that have helped me a lot along the way. To name a few:

David Oh, Diana Zhao, Christian Demrow, Michael Burman, Brandon Fiksel, Will Harrison, Ralph Ramos, Russel Hughes, everyone in same chat (don’t ask) especially Angus Gore, and many other people. I’m going to miss all of my college friends and even though I never told you all how much you mean to me trust me, I REALLY appreciate you and you have all changed me significantly and have helped me when I really needed it. Thanks mates!

PS: saw them live, this song is great. :D

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Song of the Day - Day 23 - Somebody That I Used to Know by Gotye (feat Kimbra)

This song got insanely popular over such a short span of time back when it was big. The (feat Kimbra) in the title is VERY important cause damn Kimbra is sexy and an amazing artist and honestly it is kind of sad that most people will only know her from such a small, but powerful part of this song, if at all. I mean shit go listen to Good Intent by Kimbra and tell me that isn’t some weird, sexy, fucking amazing music. As for Gotye, this isn’t even my favorite song because that place is taken by Eyes Wide Open, but this song is the one with the most meaning to me.

This song is so powerful, from the lyrics to the way the video is executed. It starts off with Gotye reminiscing over a lost love and let me tell you, the lyric ‘Told myself that you were right for me, But felt so lonely in your company, But that was love and it's an ache I still remember’ can be COMPLETELY relatable! Getting ‘addicted to a certain kind of sadness’ is too real. If you haven’t felt like that at some point, even towards something unrelated to romance, then you’re probably 5 in which case why/how are you reading this you genious baby, you! Being a part of an ending is much harder than being a part of a beginning for me, but I suppose that’s different for everyone. ‘Well you said that we would still be friends, But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over’ said every person ever coming straight out of something great. I mean, it is denial at its finest. 

The chorus goes:

‘But you didn't have to cut me off Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing And I don't even need your love But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough No you didn't have to stoop so low Have your friends collect your records and then change your number I guess that I don't need that though Now you're just somebody that I used to know‘

Bad breakups are simultaneously the best and worst things and I don’t know how to explain it. It is so hard to be friends with someone you loved, especially when you still love them. Sometimes you need to just let things happen and maybe they’ll work themselves out. Maybe things will work out, maybe they won’t. I could fill this entire page with maybes, but what I can definitely say is DO YOU. Be yourself and do what you need to do and things will be alright. If you both loved each other than you won’t hate each other forever and things will be okay.

Side note: the record thing is too real for me X.X

The real pinnacle of musical-emotional orgasm comes from Kimbra’s part:

‘Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over But had me believing it was always something that I'd done But I don't wanna live that way Reading into every word you say You said that you could let it go And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know’

This verse, first of all, is the epitome of something that happened to me. Kimbra beautifully explains the relationship from the other person’s perspective. I can definitely say I’ve been in Gotye’s place on this one, but the simple elegance of what Kimbra says is so powerful and I understand what she must feel. I’ll be honest, there’s someone I always think about when listening to that verse and let me tell you, I get it now. As the song progresses, the two become more and more painted, which in my opinion represents grief, sadness, etc - all the feelings felt during a failing relationship. By admitting that Kimbra doesn’t want to live like that anymore, the paint is gradually removed, leaving just Gotye, covered in paint. Now I imagine Gotye isn’t all bad in this tale and there was probably some back and forth, but it sounds like this guy has issues and that’s relatable because we all have issues. We all come with baggage one way or another and at that last moment in a relationship it is so hard to just let it all go. I’ve been that man, standing, covered in grief and that’s hard. 

The point is: there are two sides to every story and it’s important to keep that in mind I guess. :) Cheers!

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Song of the Day - Day 22 Part 2 - The Waterboy Returns by Modern Baseball

Well. Now. This is it, isn’t it? I mean I suppose I shouldn’t expect much considering how it started, I just wish you were honest with me. I get depressed and depressed people are not hopeful or logical. That in combination with our relationship being long distance and my recent break up wasn’t exactly a recipe for something perfect. What I don’t understand is when I told you how I thought we weren’t going to work out in the end and I poured my heart out, then said “____. After all this I’ve told you I want you to know that if you do like me and you do want this to work I will do everything I can to make it happen. I will try my hardest.” That was the moment our relationship became saturated, viable, and real to me. You said let’s do it, but you meant that you didn’t want to. Why not just tell me instead of leading me on for a whole month? What I meant by being honest with you about the bleakness of the situation, given we’re both moving around next year after graduation college, was to tell you that it would be hard. I’m your first boyfriend and it’s long distance and you needed to know. When I poured all my feelings into that it was to show you that despite how vulnerable I am (depression/family issues/ recent break up/anxiety/etc) I was now ready to give it my all after talking to you for quite some time. I didn’t know how to phrase it, but that’s what I meant, and you got that and said let’s do it. Why? The time after that day you began ignoring me and making excuses to not spend time with me. I figured it was school and the family issues you mentioned so I never asked, thinking that was the thing to do if I cared and that you’d talk to me if you wanted to. As it turns out you just didn’t care about me or my feelings, then broke up with me the night before I all nightered for my most important exam. 

What you said a few weeks before: 

“I think I’m just having one of those times where I just don’t wanna do anything or interact with people but idk I’m hoping it goes away. I just feel sorta empty and numb so I;m sorry I’m so distant right now.”

Translation several weeks later after leading me to believe it was that:

“I don’t feel the same anymore. I’m perfectly fine not spending time with you, I wanted to make it work but I don’t want to.

“...I was avoiding spending time with you...”

My translation:

I honestly think you should have just told me when I initially told you how I felt. I think what you did is emotionally manipulative because you were basically ignoring me hoping I would break it off so that you didn’t have to. I just attributed it to issues you were working out and went on with my life even though it didn’t feel too great to be ditched time after time. I honestly wouldn’t have cared if you just told me. I mean... I would have cared, but it wouldn’t have been such a big issue. This is just so unnecessarily emotionally exhausting. 

The Lyrics:

Hey you, that's no way out. You can't find help in a bottle or a cut. They'll choose the wrong way to remember you. They'll find the wrong words to say... Hey man, whatcha thinking about? Not to be blunt, but haven't heard from you in days. Are you okay? You can talk to me. Do you have anything to say? It’s fun to be all talk, but I won't be here forever. Rough time to be a lost soul, I'm sure, but we feel the same. Death won't bring friends and flowers to your grave. You don't know how to behave, when we're so far. Hey man, whatcha up to now? That's so typical Bren, all you sing about is girls. Take a stand man, you can find voice that's not haunted by old flings. Hey kid, think you got a sec? I can call you. I just wanted to check in. It's been a lifetime since we spoke last, I have a thousand things to say... It’s fun to be all talk, but I won't be here forever. Rough time to be a lost soul, I'm sure, but we feel the same. Death won't bring friends and flowers to your grave. You don't know how to behave, when we're so far. Let's go we can't lose another day in your old room. Caught you wasting away on accolades for songs you wrote, paralyzed by change, but scared to death that you might stay the same Hey man, whatcha thinking about? Not to be blunt, but haven't heard from you in days. Are you okay? You can talk to me. Do you have anything to say? It’s fun to be all talk, but I won't be here forever. Rough time to be a lost soul, I'm sure, but we feel the same. Death won't bring friends and flowers to your grave. You don't know how to behave, when we're so far.

So why this song?

Well I think it is pretty obvious. The meaning is in the print. I can’t find help in a bottle, but damn I did try for a few days. That was my mistake. As far as choosing the wrong way to remember you and the wrong words to say, well yeah. It’s kind of hard not to now. You said you didn’t want to be like my ex and we should be friends, but how can I consciously be friends with someone who straight up told me he didn’t want to spend time together? That’s what I want to believe and if I did this would be so easy, but you’re clearly so much more important to me than I am or ever was to you. I want to just leave and never talk again, but I can’t. You can always talk to me. Do you have anything to say? It’s fun to be all talk. Wow such a real lyric because it was, but after I took it past that point and laid it on the line (my fault by the way I shouldn’t have done that to you I suppose) it just became shit. There’s no eloquent way to pretty up shit cause its still shit. Rough time to be a lost soul, I’m sure, but we feel the same. We both had the same issues. I just didn’t ignore you because of them and I decided to be honest.  “ Death won't bring friends and flowers to your grave. You don't know how to behave, when we're so far.” Well I’m sure you can make you own interpretation of that lyric. Just to bring it back full circle  

“Hey man, whatcha thinking about? Not to be blunt, but haven't heard from you in days. Are you okay? You can talk to me. Do you have anything to say?”

This is genuinely how I feel. 

So now I’m sitting here, editing my short stories and poems for my fiction class, wondering why I wasted so much time and thought on you. Literally everything I wrote is about you in some way. 

“Guess what I’m done writing your book. The ending got twisted around but for all of the hell that it took......”

That’s it. Scene. Cut. Next scene. Action.

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Song of the Day - Day 22 - White Wine and Fried Chicken by Hot Chip

What he told me: 

He was having family issues and was stressed out with school. I believed him. I learned to tone it down because that is what he wanted and needed, We all have issues and we all need to work them out, so I supported him cause that’s what friends do.

What I told him: 

I love you. Every day. You may not need that , but I think it was important so you know how important you are to me. I’m not the best at dealing with people aka the plebs, but when someone shows me appreciation that really hits home. Perhaps it became too commonplace and you didn’t believe it anymore? 

What I told him about this song with his parts mostly redacted:

[11/29/2015 8:33:04 PM] Austin Sullins: just talks about how the singer presumably used be this busy, wild, constantly needing something to do, constantly busy person, but then falls for someone who kind of changes that in a good way. Like everything doesn't need to be so urgent and tense and things can be silly and its ok [11/29/2015 8:33:58 PM] Austin Sullins: and the friendship or relationship or whatever led them to waste a lot of time but its ok cause theyre both happy and thats all that really matters to them [11/29/2015 8:34:43 PM] Austin Sullins: not even time itself has the power to tell them what they can and can do cause they just enjoy each other so much [11/29/2015 8:34:49 PM] Austin Sullins: idk thats the kind of person i am [11/29/2015 8:34:51 PM] Austin Sullins: xD [11/29/2015 8:34:57 PM] Austin Sullins: so like when i listen to a song [11/29/2015 8:35:05 PM] Austin Sullins: and i say yo will, this reminds me of us [11/29/2015 8:35:17 PM] Austin Sullins: even if you dont get it usually i have a lot of feelings [11/29/2015 8:35:18 PM] Austin Sullins: :P [11/29/2015 8:37:03 PM] Austin Sullins: yeah if you dont get something ask me and il be glad to give my impressions so you know how i feel (cat) [11/29/2015 8:37:12 PM] Austin Sullins: anytime [11/29/2015 8:38:00 PM] Austin Sullins: cause anyone can be like "oh will dis her b our song yo swag420" but if you dont get it then im not rlly saying anything [11/29/2015 8:38:01 PM] Austin Sullins: hue [11/29/2015 8:38:26 PM] Will C: omg why did you type it like that [11/29/2015 8:39:02 PM] Austin Sullins: mocking the pseudoromantic semi-intellectuals of our time

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Song of the Day - Day 21 - Farrah Fawcett Hair by Capital Cities

AKA Much better than Safe and Sound lol..... It’s kind of sad that that song got way overplayed because the rest of their album is fucking sex. PURE sex. I’ll be honest I don’t know all these random cool facts about Capitol Cities like I do for other artists, but they’re a lot newer to me so I’ll definitely be keeping them on my radar. 

Well it’s been awhile since my last post, but such is the life of a college senior. All is well now and being busy is refreshing. I met a really great guy so things are just right... right where they should be, how they should be. 

“We decided to go dancing, which I’m terrible at, but when I drink I can’t seem to stop. Brandon and Will chose the place, since it was their party and apparently there was some special event or something. I don’t really remember. I do remember being amazed at the amount of gay people packed on one dance floor. I made my way through the building, as other guys nodded in approval, the occasional “heeeeeeeeeeey you’re cute”s shouted in my direction. One really sexy guy started dancing with me during some Lady Gaga song that I’m apparently a “bad gay for not knowing”, which was fun, but sometime between the bombastic bass-booming dancy chorus and the end of that song I looked at this outrageously good looking guy and realized I didn’t want anything to do with him. I mean don’t get me wrong, I appreciated his attractiveness and the fact that he took interest in me, but I couldn’t do it. I didn’t want this superficial connection, or the one night stand that could come from it. I wanted a connection like the one Brandon and Will shared. I wanted a Will of my own. This whole time I promised myself I wouldn’t look for someone to replace Ralph, meanwhile while I wasn’t looking, someone snuck into my life.”

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Song of the Day - Day 20 - Along the Busiest of Roads by C418

This song brought to you by the creator of the minecraft music interestingly enough. I’ve only heard a few songs not on the minecraft album and it all has this chill vibe that brings me from point A to point B. I could get lost to this.

Man yesterday was a crazy day. I finally worked up the courage to move on and cut ties, which is what I need for now. I don’t have room in my life for acquaintances right now, I just can’t deal with it. I can’t keep trying. A the same time I’ve been thinking about mistakes. I’ve made a lot of rash mistakes and mistakes are always the worst when they come from fear. Fear is the one thing that, when it causes a mistake, that mistake resonates within me and rings and rings and rings like a bell in my head. So I have to convince myself, at least for now, that it’s a step in the right direction and not as mistake made of my fear of change. 

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Song of the Day - Day 19 - Moment by Jhameel

I heard this around the same time that I heard the new Robert Delong song and I gotta say this is the best start of my senior year ever! It also just speaks to me on a really deep level lyric-wise. I miss the times when it didn’t honestly and I’m working to be less like this. Emotions are good, but I’m going to do without them for awhile. I need a break. I’m being overloaded by so many people and so many thoughts and so many feelings about people, but for now *breathes deeply* Ima live in the moment.

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Song of the Day - Day 18.5 - Scarlet Cardigan by Ded Rabbit

I haven’t been on Tumblr for very long, so I make it a point to check out my followers and while doing so I ran across this little gem. I listened to the songs they had on youtube and really liked them, especially Wash Away. It reminds me of a Kooks/Wombats-esque fusion which is interesting and I can’t wait to see what they make next. I’m always on the lookout for some new music so feel free to send me the good stuff! I just wish I knew more about them TBH.

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Song of the Day - Day 18 - Someone Great by LCD Soundsystem

So yesterday I’m at this super low-key hipster bar in Station north Baltimore called Brewer’s Art and I’m getting a little tipsy. Suddenly I hear this song start up in the background and I just couldn’t hear anything else. I just started dancing. I talked to the guy who plays the music there for awhile too and got a few recs. Overall it was an amazing night. I just kept dancing until I remembered the song is about the death of his therapist and I was just overwhelmed by sadness because the song reminds me of my aunt/past relationship. When I watched the documentary Shut Up and Play the Hits I could not sit through this song without crying because of those reasons and the fact that I was watching the last time they will ever perform that song. Nonetheless its a fantastic song for fantastic people and I’ll definitely be back at that bar for sure.

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Song of the Day - Day 17 - Better Days by Robert Delong

NEW ROBERT DELONG SINGLLLLLLLLE! Holy Molly it’s about time. I’m a little late posting this, but he’s one of my fave artists so when this came out I couldn’t do anything but listen to it! Enjoy :) I like where his new album, In the Cards is going with a more rough sound. It reminds me a bit of Acid Rain and  Survival of the Fittest from his old album. ME LIKE ^_^

I’m all moved in to my new apartment and ready to start the adventure of senior year of college! I’m going to be SO busy with research, work, classes, and being the president of my LoL club on top of the volunteering I do. I already have a pit in my stomach because I know I won’t be able to keep in contact with everyone I want to, but it happens. Just gotta keep moving forward towards those BETTER DAYS :3

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Song of the Day - Day 16 - Fitzpleasure by alt-J

This band is just so gooooooooooood! The reverberating bass over the quirkiest voice/lyrics is the most interesting thing! They also go by ∆, which I found out was typed by entering (alt+j) on a mac. I feel like the way they can sing anything and make it serious and sexy is just so troll and they definitely take advantage of that in some songs like my personal favorite, Every Other Freckle. I designate this a new genre of music and you shall listen to it as thus: hypechill. FOR IT IS HYPECHILL that will save us from mediocrity.

Life’s good. Still in between apartments/staying at a friend’s house until I can move in to my new one. My grandma gets into town at like 7 AM so me being me I’m just going to stay up and hate myself later. I also went on a date today, but we didn’t have much in common so I son’t think anything is going to happen, but he is cute. Much dimples, such wow. I’m talking to this other guy too who has a lot in common with me, but doesn’t live close which is an EVEN BIGGER shame, but hey, I’m fine with this.

In an unrelated note, I’m trying not to wear myself thin. I want to be able to please everyone and when I can’t I feel bad and I can definitely relate to someone else having the same issue. It sucks feeling like you disappoint everyone, but honestly you just do what you can and fuck ‘em :3 I have actually a few friends who I feel like a burden to so I’ve been slowly talking to them less, not to learn to live without them, but so they don’t get overwhelmed. It sucks because they’re the coolest people I know. They really need to work on their friendhips though and learn when to be like “NO” lololol.

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Song of the Day - Day 15 - Chicago by Sufjan Stevens

This song is love. This song is life. This song is such a chill-out-and-watch-the-world-go-by wonder. Honestly it has so much more meaning now to me then ever before for obvious reasons. *AHEM* Ex living in Chicagoland *AHEM*

I’ve been afk for awhile after attending the 2015 League of Legends Collegiate Summit at Riot in LA CALIFORNIA BABY! Long story short I made some of the best friends I’ve ever had and it was SUCH a good experience for me. I really needed a new group of friends as you all know by now. 

I’ve also been thinking about my brothers and how much I miss them. I really wonder how it would be different if we weren’t all 6 years apart. It is REALLY hard to relate to them and it’s difficult being the oldest. I have to be so responsible :( 

That’s it for now!

[thegamefreaks]

(via ▶ Dr. Wily by Hammer Brothers)

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Song of the Day - Day 14 - Raconte-Moi Une Histoire by M83

Man I love this artist! They put me in a trance-like state that let me write cutesy things like this. This is something I wrote for someone at some time or whatever *hair flip* O.O WHAT HAVE I DONE.

Let me take a moment to tell you how i feel. how you make me feel like a tiny wheel is turning in my heart powered by a tiny mouse and his tiny mouse farts

you see he runs and runs as fast as can be. he runs and runs you cant catch me

it wasnt long ago that he wasnt fed and his little mouse feet were cold and dead

I would run and run as fast as can be I would run and run you can't catch me

I couldn't let the world catch up I couldn't let people in cause, you see, thats when it begins

relationships, people, family and friends why start something when everything ends

So i hit the track hard I kept myself busy theres no one for me, I would tell myself no one

Its the quiet ones that get you the ones that never show the feels see they have something that no one else has they have tiny mouse meals

You fed my mouse lots of cheese he turned that wheel like it was a breeze

so please stay forever and feed my mouse watch him chew and chew and if you promise to stay with me I promise I'll feed your mouse too

I'll give him all the food I have to give and I'll buy a house where we can live And once we're old and gray my mouse will still be turning away

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Song of the Day - Day 13 - Kids by Sleigh Bells

Let me tell you... there is NOTHING better than getting in the groove to this song. Whether it be driving like a mad man or kicking ass in video games the result is the same: EPICOSITY THE LIKES OF WHICH YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE. Pentakill on Sivir? No problem!

Well today was another day I was promised to get to play with my friends and was left out. I mean to be fair, I don’t think the one who told me that really wants to play with me. If I was anyone else I’d be insta-included. He would make sure they got their turn. I mean, isn’t that what you do for friends? Well it’s what I would do, but I can’t speak for everyone I suppose.. it just sucks I guess. I just feel that if someone doesn’t want to spend time with me they should tell me so I can stop caring. I don’t like to be told “oh yeah sure later when I’m done here” then having that not be the case. If you aren’t going to actively put the effort in to act like a friend then just say no... I understand we probably aren’t friends and this is his way of pushing us farther apart. I’m just really sad about it.