G.A.U.

𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚊𝚋𝚢 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚕⚣𝚟𝚎 , 𝚒𝚏 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚒𝚝 𝚒𝚜𝚗𝚝 𝚏𝚞𝚗.

[vacant-house]

I'm learning

Albeit slowly

That attachment is not

The same thing as love

And learning this

Is what tells me

That I don't think I've ever been in love before

So when my heart hurts

And feels heavy

As I detangle my life from yours

I can take the time

To ease my mind

Knowing that the pain my heart

Is screaming out

Is not from the losing you

It's from the pain in realizing

I lost myself for you.

It's my heart finally using the voice

That was once silenced by your presence.

To scream out and cry

"I am worthy dammit

I am deserving"

As many times as I might need

To outnumber the times

You made me forget it.

So,

Dear little me

I'm so sorry I stopped seeing you

Stopped hearing you

Stopped loving you.

I'm learning again how much it hurts

To neglect you.

Im so sorry little me,

For letting go of your hand,

When you're the only one who has never once

Abandoned my side.

Little me,

Please hear me when I say

That wasn't love

And that's not what love feels like.

And while I know we don't know what it really feels like

What I do know is this:

A real love protects,

Is thoughtful and kind,

And will only ever bring me closer to you

And will effortlessly keep us in mind.

[jayyrenz]

No more temporary’s. Give me something to grow with.

[gentle-sadist2]

The sweetest part would be watching you realize it was already inside you. The little slut. The needy thing. The cumhungry truth hiding behind soft eyes and careful words. I would not create it, I would just pull it out of you, breath by breath, until you are shaking like a ruined little fucktoy under my control.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

nothing will ever come close to the intensity of just how badly i wanted you.

[aidashakur]

No amount of chemistry can make up for a lack of emotional safety.

[minimalistquotes]

Lost time is never found again.

[goodfeet1]

[ajobbersdream2]

[gaynehollander]

Ilya approached that first hook up in the absolute right way to put Shane at ease and secure the ultimate prize (the golden boy of hockey on his knees in front of him) but I refuse to believe there wasn't at least a part of him that considered responding to Shane's "I'm not a chicken" with "okay, then I dare you to suck my cock" and I'm pretty sure that would have worked too.

[dudepitlover]

Yum 🐽👅

[scunthotter]

I do like to imagine Shane going 'I can do casual sex, ive been having casual sex for a long time.' Then getting some hook up, having casual sex and going 'what the fuck was that????' Because its not intensely romantic undernegotiated kink sex with his partner of nearly a decade. He like hooks up with a handful of guys that he just thinks are bad at sex and comes to the conclusion that Ilya must just be a god at sex, when really the other people ilya is hooking up with are not getting the Shane treatment, its just the two of them being freaks for each other.

[naropinosa]

[erotic4e]

[ecce-homo7]

[faketwink2003]

[000rrx]

[finelytaylored]

he was down SO BAD IMMEDIATELY