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[gavricl]

still doing the bio and shit but uhhh go follow @kckabiel for 1(one) immensely bitter seraphim/former watcher who never said a single word to angels who weren’t the watchers, and who fell out of loyalty to his siblings and their nephilim children after the watchers fell and the nephilim were killed. And who then taught astrology to humans basically just to double fall and ensure heaven would know that he was a messy bitter bitch. and who currently lives among humans and goes by kokab

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lucivcr:

Lucifer hesitated for a long moment when Gabriel reached out, but at their core they were a selfish creature. If you gave the devil an inch, you had to know they would take a mile.

A gentle smile flashed across Lucifer’s face, which was the only warning they gave before grabbing the proffered hand by the wrist and pulling Gabriel forward. They wrapped their arms around their baby sibling and held them close.

Gabriel would always feel small to Lucifer, no matter their vessel’s size. The archangels had come into existence fully formed but… incomplete. God hadn’t taken the time to notice, always busy as he was with the next big project, but Lucifer had been there from the beginning. That was always their role: to do what their father wouldn’t. To be what their father wasn’t.

And well… if they were being honest, God was never much of a father at all.

Lucifer stroked a hand through Gabriel’s hair and held them tighter. Softly, they said, “I hope you realize I’m never letting you out of my sight again.”

Gabriel remained patient as they waited for Lucifer’s response. Part of them worried that Lucifer was rejecting them, but as soon as they took a moment to dwell on that idea their sibling smiled at them, and the next thing they knew they had been pulled into their sibling’s arms.

As soon as Lucifer hugged them what remained of both their impulse control and pride immediately disappeared. Gabriel’s arms wrapped much more loosely around Lucifer, and they laid their head on the other’s shoulder. Letting all the exhaustion they had been hiding show as they leaned against Lucifer.

They closed their eyes and allowed this moment to sink in. To let themselves feel small and safe and secure in the arms of the only being in existence that actually deserved anything near the title of parent to them. Gabriel let out a small laugh at Lucifer’s words. “Is that a promise?”

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lucivcr:

Lucifer froze as they noted the signs of panic in their sibling’s demeanor. Anger slowly ebbed into guilt, which was a feeling Lucifer had never quite grown accustomed to and certainly had no taste for. Few beings in all creation could bring it out in them. (Fewer still that Lucifer would allow to survive the exercise.)

They forced themself to relax and pulled back, away from Gabriel. Lucifer could give them space, if that was what they needed. Even if it was the last thing Lucifer wanted right now. They’d managed it before, after all. 

All that mattered was Gabriel’s safety. Lucifer couldn’t allow Gabriel to run from them again.

“Of course,” they said. “It’s your life. You can do whatever you want.”

They fought the urge to ask forgiveness. They weren’t that low yet, and… maybe a small part of them felt it wouldn’t be completely fair to request. They had let down the one person they’d always tried to protect, all the way back to a time before time, in the worst way possible. Lucifer was certainly never going to forgive themself–why should Gabriel?

Gabriel didn’t want Lucifer to retreat either, and it sadden them to watch as the other moved back. They weren’t going to actually do anything to stop it. They were both too proud and too caught up in their own feelings to take the chance.

Mostly Gabriel just wanted Lucifer to hold them. Or to go back to the time when Lucifer would always hold them. When things were certain and right and good. When they would have followed Lucifer anywhere. Before the idea of being truly afraid had ever even crossed their mind.

Now they were so broken down even Lucifer could send terror running through them. Now they could stand right in front of each other like this and still be a million miles apart. Gabriel hated everything about this. Then again, Gabriel had hated everything about most of their existence for a long time. They were just particularly good at hiding it.

Still, even with all of that taken into account, Gabriel believed that it was worth trying, and they knew that eventually one of them would have to bite the bullet. They extended their hand out to Lucifer wordlessly. Even for someone so found of speaking it didn’t feel right. There were no words, and even if there had been Gabriel didn’t think they needed them.

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lucivcr:

Lucifer fixed Gabriel with a skeptical look as they withdrew, worry and dismay warring inside them. They hated that it had come to this. There was once a time when Gabriel told Lucifer everything.

There was also once a time when demons knew their place. There was once a time when no one in creation would dare to hurt Lucifer’s family. There was a time when they were whole.

It seemed those times had past.

Lucifer’s hands curled into fists, and they bit their teeth against the wave of anger that crashed over them like a hurricane. Their rage would burn on for millennia, but it was too big for this. There would be time for the light-bringer’s wrath later, when Gabriel wasn’t in front of them. In need.

“Don’t lie to me, Gabriel,” Lucifer said, measuring each word carefully. “It doesn’t matter what your time whiled away with the mortals and monsters has taught you. That may work fine for them, but I see right through you. As you said, no one else knows the two of us like we do.”

Anxiety hit Gabriel like a tidal wave as Lucifer's patience appeared to wear thin. They swallowed hard and tried to will themselves to say anything to deflect and redirect, but much to their frustration words wouldnt come.

Gabriel did their best to keep their outward appearance calm, but they had no doubt that Lucifer would end up noticing the way they couldnt keep their eyes from darting back and forth from their clinched fists.

Gabriel knew Lucifer would never hurt them, not for real. Still, it was hard not to flash back to the image of Lucifer stabbing them in that hotel. Even knowing that it was just an illusion. Even knowing that Lucifer knew it was too. It still hurt, it was still burned into their memory.

Eventually, Gabriel remembered everything they stood for and re-steeled theirself. Immediately they shot Lucifer an annoyed look. "It's my life. I'll lie if i want to."

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lucivcr:

“You didn’t get the memo? We had to bump the tearful family reunion forward to make time next week for our annual cataclysm.” Lucifer rolled their eyes, but they allowed a tinge of amusement to creep into their voice. “Really, Gabriel. And they call me dishonest. I know how you love your jokes, but you can’t fool me.”

They paused. As much as Lucifer liked to believe themself infallible, they weren’t quite omniscient. Or omnipotent. Yet. 

The problem was, Gabriel mattered too much. It might be enough to make a lesser angel anxious. These were higher stakes than Lucifer had played for in a long time; it was so much simpler when all that they were risking was control of heaven and hell or the fate of all creation.

They reached out to take Gabriel’s hand but pulled back just short of touching them, uncertain how the contact would be received. 

“I know you’re hurting,” Lucifer said. “I’m sorry.”

“Oh no. I’ve learned from my mistakes, now I direct all cataclysm related messages straight to spam.” Gabriel couldn’t help the smile that spread across their lips as Lucifer played along and showed even a hint of amusement. “Well, if anyone else knew anything they wouldn't say that. Unfortunately, no one else does.”

It was quickly becoming obvious that navigating out of this emotional territory wasn’t going to be so easy as cracking a few jokes to distract them both. Oh well, they had certainly tried, and they would give themselves a solid C minus for effort.

Gabriel didn’t move as Lucifer reached for them. In fact they acted as if they didn’t even notice them moving at all. They knew it would be easier that way, and it did save thm from having to be embarrassed and disappointed when Lucifer retreated.

“I’m fine,” Gabriel corrected probably a little too quickly. “It’s fine.” 

[gavricl]

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lucivcr:

@gavricl continued from here

Lucifer smiled sadly. “Oh, I suppose I could have done better,” they said. “But they turned out pretty great, despite my… failings.” 

The last word left a bitter taste in their vessel’s mouth, but Lucifer could swallow their pride that much, at least. For Gabriel. When they were alone like this.

“Oh are we having feelings today?” Gabriel pulled out their phone and opened their calendar app. “I don’t have any feelings scheduled until next Thursday, actually.” They turned their phone around to show Lucifer the newly created appointment. It was entirely unnecessary, they knew this, but true emotional repression could only come from true commitment to the bit. “You did... you probably did... the best you could have. Not that I care.”

[gavricl]

“once upon a time, i had somebody i had to look after.”

“Oh really?” Gabriel sneered back at their favorite sibling. “How did that work out? Not so great, if I recall correctly.”

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iusticae:

Zaphkiel rubbed his temples are the sheer memory of that organizational headache. Even now, he never knew if he’d encounter an ancient remnant of that dewey-decimal nightmare. “And go on a scavenger hunt everytime I needed a tome? I couldn’t. Although, you may be both disappointed and somewhat flattered to know that you inspired me to make certain sections mischief-proof,” A part of him knew they’d probably be tempted to break his protection wards on the bookshelves. A stronger part of him wanted to see them try.

“You’re not giving yourself enough credit; you would have figured it out eventually.” It was obvious as soon as Zaphkiel mentioned Mischief-proofing that Gabriel took it as a challenge, and their eyes instantly lit up with excitement and determination. “Zaphkiel, brother, I’ve missed you so much. I love you so much.” Gabriel paused for dramatic effect before setting a hand on his shoulder. “As soon as I figure out how to get past whatever you’ve done, and I will. You’re stuck with my system forever.”

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xragaire:

“Uh huh!”  Riley said with a bright smile.  “My name’s Riley, what’s yours?”  

Gabriel’s response started with another long beat of silence. They still had no idea what to make of this situation. “My name is Gabriel.” 

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ofinfiniteuniverses:

“My presence unsettles you still that much Gabriel?” Despite the phrasing, it’s not really a question. He doesn’t advance farther, instead choosing to stop a few paces from his brother. 

“Give me one good reason why it shouldn’t.” Gabriel was genuinely curious if Michael would be able to come up with one. After all at the end of the day Michael was still their brother. It would be nice to be able to trust him again.

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xragaire:

“Are you okay?”  Was all the little boy asked, eyes wide and curious as to what was wrong.  The hand holding the barbie lowered and he held it at his side for now.  The little boy climbed up on the bench next to him with a decent amount of effort, exhaling a huff as he got settled.

Gabriel had to take a deep breath. “I’m fine,” they responded calmly this time. Whatever was going on here Gabriel wasn’t going to so openly lose their mind at what really did seem to be an actual child. “Are you okay?”

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Riley looked up at the person before him and waved.  “Hello.”  He smiled.  They looked sad and Riley had a deep, inexplicable urge to try and fix it.  The child got up and offered them the barbie doll he’d been playing with that day.  “I’m Riley.”

[gavricl]

Well, Gabriel certainly wasn’t sad once the child approached them. Instead they stared silently at him in what could only be described as total confusion for a long moment. “What the fuck,” was what they eventually blurted out without thinking. “Shit. No. Uh.. you didn’t hear any of that.” Gabriel waved their hands in front of his face, trying to distract him.

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@gavricl

“Gabriel.” If angels were actually capable of feeling emotion, there would be a rush of positive and negative ones as Michael took in the other. “Brother…”

[gavricl]

“Aw, fuck,” Gabriel muttered under their breath when they sensed Michael’s presence. They turned to face their elder brother and smiled at him, though it was still obvious from the look in their eyes that they were made nervous by the other Archangel. “Hey Mikey. Sup?”

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iusticae:

Gabriel’s presence had been constantly felt in the library back in the day. Why they felt obligated to torment Zaphkiel and his books was a mystery to him. And yet, Zaphkiel got some strange enjoyment out of scolding them. As sure as the sun rose, Gabriel was there. Until… they weren’t, of course. In some ways, Zaphkiel had missed them, well, themself rather than their antics, “A combination of all three. A grand finale of sorts, I believe.”

Gabriel had always liked the library. Both it and Zaphkiel has always seemed so much more peaceful than the rest of what heaven had to offer, and Gabriel had always appreciated that. Even though Gabriel had primary showed that appreciation through obnoxious behavior such as their random reorganizations. It was one of a few things they completely and genuinely missed. “That sounds great. You should have kept it like that.”

[therpmemes]

                night in the woods → sentence starters

slightly edited in some cases to work for rp purposes. feel free to change phrasing or pronouns to fit your muse(s)!

❝ Do you think we’d be friends if we weren’t, like, stuck together in the same town? ❞

❝ My entire life feels like running after something that keeps moving away into the distance, while I stay in the same place. ❞

❝ I believe in a universe that doesn’t care and people who do. ❞

❝ We’re all gonna die if we don’t keep living. ❞

❝ Go legally braindead from lack of oxygen due to choking on my entire ass! ❞

❝ There is not one person on God’s Earth who doesn’t love tacos! ❞

❝ I am so scared all the time and the fear hurts. ❞

❝ Pretty amazing, to be something at least. ❞

❝ I have really up up days and really down down days. And I don’t know which it is until it’s over sometimes. ❞

❝ Plastic bags are the ghosts of supermarkets. ❞

❝ Being the only queer people in town sucks. ❞

❝ Not knowing how something worked used to seem like… magic. Now not knowing means it might be going wrong and I may not be able to fix it . ❞

❝ When I die, I want it to hurt. When my friends leave, when I have to let go, when this entire town is wiped off the map, I want it to hurt. Bad. I want to lose. I want to get beaten up. I want to hold on until I’m thrown off and everything ends. And you know what? Until that happens, I want to hope again. And I want it to hurt. Because that means it meant something.  ❞

❝ It’s a fantastic ass right? ❞

❝ No fascists at this party! ❞

❝ You could vape. ❞

❝ You know when your body is like ‘Uh whoa I almost died,’ and you get all hyper because you’re filled with dolphins? ❞

❝ At the end of everything, hold on to anything. ❞

❝ If anyone’s going to ruin your night, it should be you. ❞

❝ I’m like, proud of us all, for having good-ass lives in a shitty, stupid, good-ass town. ❞

❝ Nothing is going to save us forever, But a lot of things can save us today. ❞

❝ And nobody cares! I wanted someone to notice things aren’t OK. ❞

❝ Once haunted, can a place be unhaunted? ❞

❝ We devote ourselves to something we barely understand, something we can never touch. We give it a name, and we give ourselves a name for doing so. All of it creates this connection. And that connection, that becomes the thing we can touch. ❞

❝ Oh my god. That was dangerous. I could’ve died. THAT WAS AMAZING! ❞

❝ There was until one afternoon… where something just broke. Reality broke. ❞

❝ They said I had an anger problem, but that’s not true. ❞

❝ I know this won’t save me in the end, but I don’t need it to save me forever, I just need it to save me now. ❞

❝ I have the worst face. I have a nightmare face. ❞

❝ Don’t panic but we’re maybe all gonna die soon. ❞

❝ Okay, I don’t feel comfortable with you objectifying my boyfriend. ❞

❝ I’m gonna go run around naked in the wooooooods! ❞

❝ You can’t take a woman’s husband just because he’s dead! ❞

❝ I am super, super gay. ❞

❝ I think my total gayness came through to the discerning reader. ❞

❝ I am extremely unhappy and you’re the only person who knows. ❞

❝ My dad/mom/parents didn’t like me. ❞ 

❝ My dad used to hit me a lot. ❞

❝ My mom like, wouldn’t feed me. ❞

❝ I’d be locked in there for a day sometimes, or overnight. So I’d try to develop psychic powers so I could like signal to the neighbors or unlock the door. Didn’t work, as you might guess. ❞

❝ I never told anybody. After a while, I started feeling guilty too, for some reason. Like this was something bad I was doing? ❞

❝ Being abused isn’t your fault at all. ❞

❝ I’m just glad I didn’t – yeah, anyway. ❞

❝ My dad had to stop drinking because he was a danger to me and my mom. ❞

❝ I want to grow giant and pick you all up and carry you somewhere safe. ❞

❝ Screw it! I’m doing two beers! I’m doing beer! ❞

❝ I guess beer is just one of those horrible things adults do. Like doing taxes and having babies. ❞

❝ Time makes most dangerous things less dangerous. ❞

❝ I stayed and grew up while you left and stayed the same. ❞

❝ I don’t even believe in hell and I hope they go straight there. ❞

❝ Hey you get that porn off your laptop? ❞

❝ You’re a smooth talker. you’re a smoothie. ❞

❝ Eff college!! All those rich kids and hot people all wring sex and having papers with each other! ❞

❝ I was just saying you look like crap because I love you. ❞

❝ Let’s steal from my boss, who trusted me! ❞

❝ ______ is probably bipolar. ❞

❝ I don’t know what this feeling is. ❞

❝ Don’t ever say daddy again. ❞

❝ I can’t not give a shit. ❞

❝ I thought you couldn’t leave home because of your… issue? ❞

❝ You’re home enough. ❞

❝ Isn’t it illegal to smoke indoors? ❞ 

[gavricl]

@xragaire liked for a lyric starter for Gamaliel

“History obliterates, and every picture it paints it paints me and all my mistakes.”