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shiloh smiled at that, shaking his head. “ thank you, ” he said, much to soft for what was meant to be sarcastic. but he couldn’t help it, not this time. not anymore. “ not a big deal ? ” he repeated incredulously. “ i would’ve been stuck with a really shitty public defender if not for you. i don’t feel completely doomed anymore, and i appreciate now having that sort of assurance. i need as much as i can get in here. ” well… at least he now was going to do down in a slightly more dignified way with this big shot lawyer helping him out. of course, as dignified as someone with an impending guilty sentence and battery and assault and whatever the fuck else spencer’s lawyer figured out to charge him with could be. oh, God, what if he got a charge of trespassing, too ? fuck. “ doesn’t really feel like i’ve been taking good care of you lately, ” he scoffed slightly, fiddling with the cord on the phone. he’d made her cry in the past two months, for fuck’s sake. they’ve fought a lot, more than they ever have and that’s – not what a good friend does. he matched her hand placement again, palm against palm through the glass and smile small, sad. this was going to be the hardest part of all of this, wasn’t it ? alex could visit him all she wanted in prison but eventually the meetings would trickle down and space out as she moved on, got swamped with med school and meet a nice guy. losing his freedom was one thing – losing his lifeline was something else. “ really ? ” shiloh smiled a little more fully at that, amused. “ …so, you two are… done ? or are you still a thing ‘cause he finds hulk-you super hot ? ” casual.
alex shrugged her shoulders and tucked her bottom lip between her teeth. it didn’t feel like a big deal to her. in fact, it seemed like the absolute least she could do considering this entire mess was her fault. “you are not doomed,” she said quietly, flickering her gaze to his face. “we’re going to get through this. no matter what happens.” she couldn’t imagine not seeing him everyday because, to be honest, when they were apart she still saw him everywhere. in the way cupcakes held icing, in the way books bed paper, in the way a couple looked like they were still next to each other when they were across the room from each other. there wasn’t ever an escape from missing him, not for one goddamn second of the day. “come on, wonder boy,” she frowned slightly and shook her head, “that’s not fair. it’s been...a rough couple months for all of us.” the corner of her mouth tugged into a small smile as he pressed his palm (( almost )) against hers. “do you remember when you pushed noah butler off the swings because he made fun of me for using the word neanderthal? you’ve been taking care of me since day one. i literally don’t know what i’d do without you––and i thought that i knew everything, so this really sucks.” a smile that sad shouldn’t ever be on shiloh’s face, alex mused. shiloh shouldn’t ever be anything other than exceptionally happy because that’s what he deserved, and that’s how he made her feel. “we were done before the locker room,” she said quietly, shrugging her shoulders. “but hulk-me is super hot,” she added with a grin just because she wanted to see shiloh smile again.













