𝓇𝑒𝓁𝓊𝒸𝓉𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉𝓈

contemplation and enthusiasm. ambition and strong coffee. nav.

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gdialex

a soft sigh of relief and contentment fell from her lips as sawyer kissed her back. she didn’t think she could handle another person being scared of her mouth, another person pushing her away, another person not waning her. and yet…she still felt hollow. she kissed him harder, wrapping her fingers in his hair and ignoring the tears slowly streaming down her cheeks. maybe if she tried hard enough, maybe if she pressed close enough against him, she would stop feeling so fucking empty. “bed?” alex hummed against his lips, sliding her hands down his chest and toying with the hem of his shirt.  

he remembered her vividly, from the curves on her body to the simple way her head turned in sync with his. it was almost as if they were together again, save for the tears that kept making their way into the middle of their kiss. he was absolutely aware of the problems with their current position, but he couldn’t help himself under her soft touch. his breath caught in his throat when she suggested moving and he took a second before slowly nodding, sliding his hands under her thighs and lifting her with him. taking the all too familiar steps toward her bedroom, he placed her on the edge of the bed and kissed her again, running his fingers through her hair and pressing his body against hers. his breath was hasty and his voice was quiet as he spoke against her lips, not realizing that what he was about to moan the wrong name, “eden...”

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📩 TEXT > music man

Noah: and i hate you for that

Sawyer: fr what do u think

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gdialex‌

alex glanced at him, lids feeling too heavy to remain all the way open, and watched him take off her shoes with a small smile on her lips. she wasn’t the type of person who let people take care of her easily. most of the time, it felt unnatural––like she should be the one taking off his shoes––but she was drunk and sad, so she let him fuss over her without any protests. “am i that predictable?” alex hummed sleepily, curling into his side like nothing had changed during the last year, like he never cheated on her with morgan. “have i really made such a habit of getting drunk over stupid boys?” tipping her chin up, she smiled at him warmly and tapped his nose with her finger lightly, “teasing. thank you for driving me home.” she paused and then chewed on her bottom lip. maybe she did need another drink for courage.“and thank you for staying,” alex whispered as she placed her hand over his chest, and she could taste her tears on her lips when she kissed him. 

he chose to ignore her question of predictability, not wanting to upset her or talk about whatever made her sad. the feeling of alex laying on his chest, it never really got old. he could smell her shampoo, the alcohol on her skin, his heart beat fast as he looked down at her. nodding at her gratitude, he opened his mouth to say thank you when he suddenly felt her lips press against his. it was so familiar, from her chapped lips to the feeling inside him, and he couldn’t help but kiss her back. bringing his far arm around her, sawyer felt himself get caught up in her intoxicating lips and pulled her over his lap, his hands resting on the small of her back. this was wrong, they shouldn’t be together right now. things didn’t work the first time and he knew that the only outcome of this would be more pain, but feeling her on top of him made sawyer melt and forget all reason.

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gdialex

logan met her gaze with an arched brow and a wide smirk before his tongue darted out to lick the barbecue sauce off of her thing. man, being objectified may not be for everyone, but he had to admit…he was a big fan of being looked at like a piece of meat when it was bridget flores about to eat him alive. “i’m not. i’m really not, and yet here were are. i still have the claw marks on my biceps.” grinning, he wiggled his brows and tugged on a strand of her hair lightly, “kinda wished that you were there to scare them away for me. i didn’t think that i’d make it out alive for a second there––at least not without a couple bites of my ass missing.”  

goddamn, she thought to herself as she watched him look over at her. just a simple smile or the right level of eye contact and she was practically putty in his hands. as much as she liked to pretend that she was the one deciding what happened between the two of them, she knew in her heart that it was logan. logan logan logan. he was probably the only man with whom she genuinely felt comfortable, mostly because he never expected anything from her or wanted anything else. “mmm, want me to kiss them better?” she asked with a small laugh, running her fingers down the slightly red marks on his arm, “so you’re saying that you don’t want me to eat your ass or peg you? seems a bit limiting there. – you know you can shoot me a text and i’ll save you from bad sex, even if you’re in the middle of it.” and she was telling the truth, there were times when she texted him as he was asking someone else to come home, interrupted his flirting with other girls at parties, even once she called him when he was in the middle of getting a blowjob. perhaps that’s why logan’s other partners gave her dirty looks, because she was able to interject and she always won. taking a bite, she gave him a playful look and quietly asked, “logan, do you like seafood?”

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📩 TEXT > music man

Noah: I was not prepared for this level of wow so early in the morning.

Sawyer: but now you cant stop thinking about it

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cadavcrs·

snapchat >> bridget

preston: sexactly so come thru

bridget: why don’t you come here bridget: i dont feel like putting clothes back on

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cadavcrs‌

snapchat >> sawyer

preston: gimmie the gooD stuff

sawyer: bought this for u xoxo

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cadavcrs·

snapchat >> sawyer

lola: i don’t know a teddy lol lola: oh? you used to do other stuff?

sawyer: he’s cool i’ll introduce you guys sawyer: not really, i just dabbled.. i like weed it’s less intense that other shit you know

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cadavcrs‌

snapchat >> sawyer

preston: eh not good enough

sawyer: how can i appease you my king

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📩 TEXT > messicat

Messi: where would the regular skin be if we're entirely lip skin?

Sawyer: thats what im wondering too!

Sawyer: holy shit..... i just looked it up and ig there's less melanin color so the blood vessels show more and there's nothing protecting it so it gets chapped easier

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cadavcrs·

snapchat >> bridget

preston: sex is healthy for u preston: ;) :)

bridget: i think i’m fairly healthy bridget: i could always use a little extra work though

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spxncxrt

he relaxed as he saw sawyer pop up behind a row of lockers. lately a lot of “fans” had been coming in to try and catch some of the players after the games. he hated to call them fans, but it was getting to the point where it was becoming overbearing and school security had to step in. “yeah they’ll steal it and try to sell it on eBay or something” he cracked a smile as he threw a shirt over his wet head. “it’s been getting ridiculous lately. i caught someone rummaging through my bag last game with a pair of my socks in hand?” he tilted his head to the side as he pictured the girl once more elbow deep in his duffel looking for god knows what. “i think it’s the time of year.. the sun is coming down a lot earlier. all that science shit” he sighed knowing that he was rambling, “it’s just been a tough time. i’ll be okay though”

watching spencer’s body language change, sawyer felt more confident walking further into the locker room. he had forgotten a few things, mainly his car keys, so he would have to enter eventually. letting out a small sigh, he sat on the bench next to the other man before laughing at his story, “at least they weren’t trying to get your jock strap, right? i’m constantly afraid of that.” it wasn’t as if he had heard of that happening beyond television or movies, but those seemed real enough. and he was sure that spencer wasn’t only tired from the beginning of fall, but he didn’t want to pry. it wasn’t his place, despite him being worried. “honestly? i don’t think anyone thinks about it any more. people are fucking dicks, but i doubt you’re at the front of their mind. – they’re too worried thinking about who they’re going to hit on next or when they’ll run out of weed,” he attempted to reassure spencer, although he wasn’t sure if it would actually work. 

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cadavcrs‌

“you’re good. don’t worry about it.” preston shook his head. “no big deal.” it really wasn’t. it’s not like he was going out of his way, and even then, preston enjoyed driving his car. even if it had a scratch right now, he’d rather not think about it. 

looking over, he ran his hand down his chin and shrugged again, “i feel like you were kidding but i can still give you some gas money. i know it’s not a far drive but it’s still an extra mile or so.” it really wasn’t too far, but he was still grateful for a ride. better to sit in a car than walk after going a touch too hard at the gym. he already had a bad knee after getting surgery for a torn acl his freshman year, so leg day had a tendency to make him struggle.

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cadavcrs‌

that comment made preston laugh at loud, and he tried not to pout again. he held a hand out, threading his fingers over his arm. “depends on when i want it?” he bit on his tongue softly, humming a bit. “now? all the time?”

bridget narrowed her eyes and looked at him a bit closer, her eyes connecting with his before finally saying, “someone’s getting greedy.” she, of course, was greedy herself, but she never dared admit it. it was certainly evident, when she would take a moment and look at how her nights were spent. at least she was satisfied, though.

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gdialex‌

alex hummed softly and struggled with her shoes for a moment before giving up and collapsing back against the couch cushions. if she were sober, maybe she’d realize that this entire situation was completely unfair to sawyer. she was using him. she never really thought that she had it in her before. she tried to justify it several different ways but eventually settled on the fact that she was genuinely enjoying sawyer’s company. “i would like for you to sit,” she said softly as she patted the spot next to her, “and i would like for you to continue to compliment me because it’s really doing wonders for my bruised ego.” 

of course he would do what she asked. the moment alex wanted anything, sawyer felt as if he were dating her again. he used to drop everything to be with her, and even though she didn’t call him for emotional outbursts he still would move the world for her. he took a few steps closer, pausing to look at her slumped against the couch and leaned down, gently pulling her shoes off. slowly, sawyer sat down next to her and pulled her body close, giving her a gentle kiss on the top of her head. however badly he wanted to feel her against him again, he knew that it was the wrong time. he didn’t long for her touch anymore, there was someone else who made his blood rush and his stomach erupt with butterflies. despite still softening when seeing her, he no longer felt the need to immediately rush over and hold her. “alex, you’re an incredible woman. i... i don’t know what happened but whoever made you feel bad enough to drink so much doesn’t deserve you,” he knew that he never deserved her, and he hated the thought of her running back to shiloh after what ever he did to hurt her this time.

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gdialex‌

he leaned across her lap and took a large bite of her burger (( despite having half of his still available in front of him )), licking his lips with his usual flair for the dramatics. “i know that i probably should’ve waited until after we had sex, but goddamn, i was starving. fighting off drunk bachelorettes all night is a fucking workout.”   

bridget couldn’t seem to contain her giggle as she watched him steal her food. she reached toward him to press her thumb against his chin, catching a bit of bbq sauce that had dripped before he had the chance to lick it away. this was one thing she liked about being with logan, that they could sit and talk as if they were normal friends, eat sloppy food and watch trashy television but still fuck like maniacs. shaking her head, she uncovered her burger and placed a few fries under the bun before taking another bite, “don’t tell me they were fighting over you... you’re not cute enough for that, my baby.” of course she was joking, since she knew quite well how attractive he was, but at times she wished she could keep him to herself. that wouldn’t make their excursions nearly as fun, though, and she would feel severely limited at the same time.