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only six more years to go

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Morirás conmigo

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The real struggle is when you're eyes tear up bc of how exhausted you are but you still can't sleep no matter what you do.

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Longest relationships are the result of biggest forgives

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My worst enemy is myself

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She still spoke to Ravi every day. Not the real one, the one who lived in her head. She spoke to him when she was scared or unsure, asked him what he would do if he were there. He sat beside her when she was lonely, and she was always lonely, looking at old photos on her phone. He told her goodnight and kept her company in the dark while she learned how to sleep again.

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I'm starting to realize my memory has holes.

Like If a bad thing happened, even If it was yesterday I'm just remembering it like flashbacks

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I love you more than yesterday, but less than tomorrow

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I wanted you to fight, say something, make an effort but you just accepted to lose me like I was nothing

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Big decisions are too hard for me because I don't know if I really want to do it or is it just a rage

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Before sleep I need to wait until the moment I'm completely exhausted and can't keep my eyes open. So I don't have to deal with being alone with my thoughts.

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Everybody around me has some kind of dreams, goals for the future.

When I look at the future, it's just an empty darkness.

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I feel numb. No tears, no anger, nothing. Just going through the same day again and again. I would rather just sleep without waking up.

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I've killed myself for you.

Not physical.

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When you say 9 more years to go, do you mean that you’re 11?

No, of course not. I meant I'm 18 and 9 more years later I'm gonna be 27.

The meaning behind it is the '27 club'.

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I lost you while I was trying to find myself

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I promise i will find you in every universe