Gell

Simply me :)

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My Truth

My truth is... I am not a brave soul. I am a coward who's afraid to face her fears and get diagnosed. Honestly speaking, I have so many times that I have pitied myself. Feeling lost, with nowhere to go, sorrowful, and not having any reason to live sometimes, I am afraid of my own shadow. I don't know my truth yet but I'm begging the Lord to give me more courage to live a life and not let my emotions be above my rationale. I wanna help myself and get rid of this I even came to a point where I question myself. Maybe my truth is I am too sensitive.

I am crying too bad now. I'm struggling with how to live sometimes. I don't even understand myself. I felt extremely happy yet extremely sad. I just wanna live gracefully. Help me.

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keep it real or keep your distance

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Manifesting that soonest... I can have a job that pays me well while traveling. Claim this, Gell! Claim this!

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I don't know what I'm feeling again now. Help.

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Biggest insecurity?

Lately, I just realized... Outside of family, I am nobody's original. I am always this nadagdag lang sa friends or closed friends nila coz maybe I've done something good for them that's why? I don't know. Sometimes nahihiya ako mag reach out kasi I don't know how to ask for help and sometimes I don't want to disturb them. Like alam mo yun, lumaki ako with different friends at different phases of my life. iba iba ung nakasaksi non. That's my truth.

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And here I am again, questioning my existence whether people are loving me the way I am or just because I can be the person they needed most in their lives. Do you know what hurts most? It is when the people you loved most are the ones who will question your decisions in life that you thought are supported because it makes you happy but it turns out not.

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Night of gratefulness

Before, every night is sleepless because I use to overthink.

Now, I use my night time to reminisce and smile out of gratefulness. Walang paglagyan yung saya sa puso ko. Salamat Lord. I experience this kind of happiness in my life that I've been longing for.

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Smile of sincerity

I am crying but no longer about pain.

My tears are shedding but has nothing to do with hurt.

I smile now through tears because of genuine happiness that I can't explain.

is this the life am I praying for?

if this is the answer, then I thank you, my Lord and my God. Thank you for giving me peace and a wonderful life.

Now I can breath with no stress and pressure but only smile of sincerity. I am more in love with myself now. I love you.

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Image description: "Sometimes people need their space. They're not cutting you off... They just need time to fucking breathe and take care of themselves. That shit has nothing to do with you" written in a tweet by 1hakz_

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Self-love

I don’t understand why people keep on calling me on days like this. Likeeeee please leave me alone I want to rest! I deactivated all my accounts because I don’t want to talk to you all via social. 

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Have you ever found yourself when no one is ready to listen to you? Just because people have already their priorities. It's sad when those people you use to talk with are no longer the same person you talk to.

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I'm so fucked up

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I actually don't know my self sometimes.

That's why I think I still figuring things out.

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I'm still trying to figure things out. I am still in the unknown. Who really are you?

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You know you're an adult if errands are part of your routines. 🤦‍♀️

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It feels good to be like this. Take

me back to these times, please. I am losing my mind :(