In This Universe
It's been a while since I last poured my heart out here in tumblr. (I kinda miss long-form writing / journaling, tbh.) Now, since I was and still is in a pickle, indulge me as I try to write what's been bugging me for a few days now...
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In a parallel universe, you could have said yes to me when I invited you for that first uke sesh. In that parallel universe we could have walked the entirety of BGC, Makati, Manila, wherever you want - sharing life lessons, stories of luck, misfortunes, and love, maybe, maybe not. In that space, we could have seen something grow out of our usual dates, our usual catch-ups, our typical weekends. In that universe, we could've been together - in love. You will never be too much, you will never be a handful, because the moment I first talked to you, I knew - you were more than enough.
But...
In this universe, I am madly in love with someone else. In this universe, you are on a quest to find yours. In this universe, I am only your confidante who's willing to coach, guide and make you better, wiser.
In this universe, you are "the one that got away".
In this universe, we chose to be friends.
In this universe, we can't fall in love.
I'm in a pickle. I really am. Oh well, cheers to more overthinking, I guess? 🍷