My body tired and my mind still racing from last night's events. I climbed the stairs to my apartment. It was a shit hole, but it was my shit hole along with my brother. It wasn’t the prize home I yearned for, but it was home. Eventually I wanted the big house, white picket fence and the laughter of little Bourgeois’ filling it.
A far off future I wasn’t ready for just yet.
The last stair creaked as I greeted it with my foot. It always did. This place was a hellhole and it was one I was getting out of soon. I just hoped a promotion was in my near future to help me along the way.
I could hear the smooth sounds of Charlie Parker pouring out of the apartment as I got closer. That was brother. Loud, obnoxious and in your face. He was good looking, I mean he was my twin after all so that was given. It was the attention of all the pretty ladies he attracted, the expensive, fancy clothes and the cars that kept him preening like a peacock.
I checked my pocket watch. It was nearing eleven. I knew Lau was either having a party without my knowledge, or he was on his way out for the night—for my body’s sake I was hoping for the latter. I didn’t feel like dealing with my brother’s noisy friends. I turned my key and pushed open the door.
Just as I’d suspected. There was Lau in the mirror primping his hair. He kept his sides low and the middle with an inch or two of hair. My brother, Laurent, always tried to be different when it came to his hair. I didn’t really care for it, but it was better than the ones we saw on television for example, The Duke Ellington—the slicked back permed look, like someone dumped a can of oil over his head.
“You’re home late." He caught a glance of me coming in through the mirror. "You stepping out with us?"
I closed the door behind me. "Not tonight, Lau, I'm tired. I've been up for almost twenty-four hours.”
I tossed my shoulder holster onto the couch next Duke, one of our oldest friends from the neighborhood we grew up in. After our parents died Duke’s took us in and treated us like family. His mom was our mom and his dad was ours. I loved them and would do anything for them. What they did for me and my brother would never be forgotten and I would make sure of it.
“You never come out with us no more.” That was Duke. He sat on the couch flipping through today’s paper and tapping his foot to the record player.
Duke wasn’t a ladies man like Lau, he was about his money.
He wasn’t a hard man unless he had to be. Duke was smart, funny and laid back. He was a smooth talker and could sell water to a drowning man. He and my brother were in business together. What business?
“That’s because he’s stuck at that dead end job of his,” Lau said.
“I’m not stuck anywhere.”
“Yes he is, Duke. He’s occupying a white space where they don’t give a damn about his black ass. Come on, bro you don’t really think you gone move up.” Lau was now facing me as he sat on couch’s arm.“You smarter than that.”
“It’s true. I gotta agree with him. They already did you a favor by making you detective and I bet they white asses is regrettin’ that. How many black detectives you know in the LAPD?” He paused as if he waiting for my answer and when I didn’t he replied, “most of them are in uniforms walking the beat. You got lucky.”
I didn’t want to hear what they were talking about. I earned my promotion and I planned on earning more.
“Fuck both of you. When I make chief detective of the homicide division I want you two to remember all that shit y’all was talkin,’ and when I make captain I don’t want to hear shit.”
“Chief detective? Captain? You hear that shit, Duke? His ass is really dreamin’ big now! You know what, bro, I hope you get it, because no one deserves it more than you do, but I’m a realist also.”
“Do you ever get tired of being so negative? Times is changing, Lau.”
“Not fast enough. Speakin’ of captains. I heard about Conner’s crooked ass and Lana.”
“Shit’s fucked up. I was there. I saw it all, bro. He shot himself right in front of me.”
“I’m sorry, Larry. Lana was a good girl who got caught up in some bad shit. I know she was one of your oldest friends, but things happen.”
“She was and I’m gonna find out what happened to her, Lau.”
“See there you go stickin’ your nose in shit that has nothing to do with you,” Lau said, shaking his head. "Stay outta that white people shit."
"I can't let it go. I'ma find out what happened to her. I'm going undercover for a few days."
"So you leavin'?" Laurent asked.
"For a few days maybe a week. I don't know yet."
My brother trailed closely behind me as I entered my room.
"You really wanna do this, Larry? Get into some shit you may or may not be able to get out of?"
"— For Lana, yeah you already said that. If you really want to do this, then you'll need my help."
"And how are you going to help me, Lau?"
"I got ears out in the streets. Nothing goes on without me knowing about it. I'm connected like that. I can get you the info you lookin' for and tonight we put the word out," Lau said.
I was becoming more and more curious about my brother's activities, but I knew it was best that I kept myself in the dark. We had an understanding. I wouldn't snoop around in his business and in return he'd throw me a couple bones, bones I'd never be able to dig up myself.
"Get dressed you comin' out with us tonight," Lau said, as he began rummaging through my closet. "Damn, bro. Do you have anything that says I'm not a cop? Don't worry about it you can borrow something of mine."
I had a funny feeling down in the pit of my stomach. Not the kinda feeling you get after eating something bad, but the feeling that something was about to happen. Something that could either be good, bad or both. I couldn't shake it. The bright neon sign flashed, The Dunbar Hotel.
The Dunbar was the spot to be on Central Ave, and not to mention it housed one of the hottest clubs. It was the place to see and be seen, definitely one of my brother’s spots. I wasn't looking to attract any attention as I resigned to going undercover, but it looked as if Lau had different plans.
"Let's go. I heard some people we might be interested in talkin' to might be here. Let me do all the talkin.’”
Let him do all the talking wasn't something I was particularly comfortable with, but this was his element and he knew how to operate in it. I trusted him. I just hoped nothing went wrong. The jazz music music greeted us before we even got all the way inside the hotel.
The red velvet carpeting guided us further into the hotel as if it was a patrolman stuck on traffic duty. Down the stairs we went with pulsating walls curtesy of the live music being played. The smokey basement filled with hot, sweaty bodies keeping the beat graced the dance floor.
I nodded my head to the rhythm as we swam through the sea of people separating us from the bar. People, especially the ladies greeted my brother as we made our way through the crowd. Nods of acknowledgments and where-you-beens were tossed my way. Work was the only excuse I had or was willing to give.
I sat on the barstool wanting something to whet my thirst.
"I'll be right back. I see somethin' I need to get into."
I knew what that meant for Laurent. I wouldn't see him for awhile. I looked over in the direction in which he was staring. She was nice looking dame with an innocent nature about her. She stood alone in a corner watching everyone else enjoy themselves. If only she knew of the storm that was about to blow her way. Poor girl.
"Don't forget why we're here, Lau."
"Cool down, baby. I'm always on the job, but pleasure first business later. You need to find you somethin' to get into... maybe someone?" Lau's grin was wider than the Cheshire Cat's.
I waved him off only for him to laugh.
"Where's Duke?" I asked noticing he was no longer in our presence.
"Who knows? He probably found a card game somewhere. I'll catch you in a bit."
"I'll be here," I said, as the bartender approached me.
"I know my eyes ain't deceivin' me! My man Larry, what's cookin' boy?" We slapped hands.
The bartender was none other than Jack, one of my old friends from high school. I hadn't seen him in years and this was the last I expected us to reunite. It was nice to an old face from the past.
"Surviving. What's going on with you?" I asked him.
"Shit. Same as you. Trying to survive in the white man's world that ain't built for niggas like me."
"I can dig that," I said, placing my hat on the bar top.
"Where's that crazy brother of yours?" Jack asked.
"He's around somewhere." I surveyed my surroundings. I guess that was just the cop in me. I always wanted to know who was around and what they were doing.
"What can I get you, my brother?" My attention was back on Jack.
My eyes were back on the crowd. Everyone seemed to be in their own worlds, the music serving as their guiding lights, lost to it's powerful influence, then I saw her. The dim pendulum lights caused her golden brown skin to glow. The black, long sleeve dress with a deep V along the breast hugged every part of her body just right, and every red blooded male inside the joint saw it too.
A grin painted her red, full lips as the sea of people parted for her like she was Moses himself. The dames shot her looks of disapproval as they whispered to one another. With each step her jet black curls bounced. She was a beautiful girl, the kind of girl trouble followed and I didn't like trouble. She was the type of girl Mama Jones warned us about.
Out of all the places to sit, she had to sit next to me. I kept my eyes on my drink. Afraid that if I looked at her for just second I wouldn't be able to turn away. Playing with a girl like her was like playing with fire and I wasn't looking to get burned. Where the hell was Lau when I actually needed him? The cool liquid hit the back of throat causing the small jitters I had to dissipate.
"How you doin' Miss Lola?" I heard Jack say.
"Fine. Can I get a Manhattan, please?" Her voice was as smooth as my Irish whiskey. Smooth enough to coax any level headed man to do as she pleased.
"Rough night?" Jack asked as he mixed her drink.
She replied, "and it's about to get rougher."
I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Yeah." I downed the last of my drink and threw Jack a see-you-later while placing a five dollar bill under the crystal glass.
I began to follow Lau's lead.
"Excuse me," she called. I turned to see her looking up at me. "You forgot your hat."
Before I could say anything else Lau grabbed me, ushering me through the dance floor crowd.
"What the fuck is your problem, Lau?" I asked snatching my arm from him as we approached a door that was on the far end of the club.
"I saw that look in your eyes," he said.
"That look you get when you want something. Stay away from her, Larry."
"—Good. Keep it that way. Now when we get in here follow my lead.”
“You know this conversation isn’t over, right?” I said, as he pushed open the door.
If I wasn’t intrigued by the young woman at the bar I was now. Laurent knew something about her and I wanted to know just what that was—I would grill him later. I thought she was dangerous, because she was young, beautiful and attracted the company of all those around her. but according to the tone my brother took it made me believe she was dangerous on a whole other level. A level that turned even my brother off.
“Come on, Jermaine whatcha got?”
I could hear Duke’s voice coming from a room that was at the end of the hallway. Laurent closed the door behind us and on we went.
“Hold on, I got something for that ass!” Another voice said, just as we entered the room.
There were five men at the card table including Duke. The other four I didn’t recognize. Judging by the clothes and jewelry these men wore I knew there was some serious green in the room. This would have been a hell of a bust if I was on the right side of the law. I needed this men. They had information that could possibly lead me to Lana’s murderer.
“Damn!” Duke threw his cards down onto the table. “Somebody need to check this nigga’s sleeves!”
“Duke, you in here losin’ all ya money ain’t you?” Lau said.
“Man, fuck you. Matter of fact fuck all y’all cheatin’ ass niggas!”
“Shut yo’ ass up and deal the cards. You come in here night after night, and sit yo’ black ass down in that same chair and play cards. Nigga, you complain when you win and complain when you lose, but you never leave that chair, so shut up and play,” one of the men said.
Duke was mad and being teased. I couldn’t stifle the chuckle that flowed freely from my mouth.
The room erupted with laughter even Duke joined in.
“Before we get to that. There’s some business we need to discuss,” Lau said.
“Cool. Yo, Mike, Roy go watch the door,” The man I’m guessing was the boss said. The two men did as they were told freeing up two spaces for both my brother and I. We sat down. “What’s up, Beast?” the boss said.
“Shit. Jermaine, this is my brother, Blaze.”
“What’s up, Blaze?” Jermaine said. “I’d always heard about Beast’s mythical twin brother no one had ever seen, only heard about. It’s nice to finally meet you.”
I knew my brother went by the street name Beast, and had been since high school. He was feared by many, but loved by the girls. I don’t know what in hell’s name he thought of gracing me with Blaze. What kinda name was that? I guess this was apart of the whole undercover thing.
“Nice to meet you too,” I said.
“I’m lookin’ for some information you might have on a murder.”
“Whoa, Beast. I don’t know shit about no murder.”
“It’s about Captain Connor.”
“Connor? That piece of shit? I’m glad his ass is dead. Good riddance,” Jermaine said, with a small grin on his face. “Why y’all askin’ about him? What he do die before he pay back some money borrowed?”
“It’s not his death we’re concerned about. It’s his daughter’s.” I chimed in.
“Look, it’s unfortunate she got caught up in her father’s shit, but that’s the way the cookie crumbles sometimes.”
“We’re coming to you, because we thought you might have heard something about it, like who may be involved,” Lau said.
“I don’t want to get into that shit, because I don’t want that comin’ back on me.”
“We get that, Maine, but Lana was a friend. She meant a lot to me and my brother. Remember who got you out of that gun charge last month? That was Blaze.”
“Hold up. You the cop?” He looked at me then my brother. “Beast, you bought a cop in here?”
“Cool out. He’s not after you and he’s not trying to infiltrate your drug and gun operation. We just want a name and we’ll be on our way.”
“Once you get into this shit ain’t no goin’ back,” Jermaine warned.
“I don’t know much, but I can find out. All I know is some people said they saw a woman leaving the scene.”
I could have sworn Calvin said something about a man at the scene or did he? I needed to get back into the precinct and fast before he was transported to San Quentin.
“Nobody knows who the woman is or if she really did it,” Jermaine said.
“Do you think she’s working with or for someone?”
“I don’t know, but I’ll see what I can find out for you. Say, man thanks for helpin’ me out with the gun thing, and if you need anything let me know. I’ll be in contact soon.”
We were back in the car. Duke, Lau and I. We sat outside of the club. It was nearing one in the morning and I was beyond tired. I watched as the people poured out of the Dunbar heading in different directions. Those people were the ones I called carefree.
Carefree in a way that they didn’t deal with the day to day stress as those who protected them from the dangers of the streets. Most of them were oblivious to the gunfights, drug deals and murders that happened right on the very streets they conversed on. I took an oath to keep them safe, an oath to take on the criminals that threatened their everyday lives.
“I need to know that you’re all in, Lar.” His voice interrupted my thoughts.
“This shit gone get dangerous and I need to know that when it gets rough—and it will—you’ll pull the trigger. That badge you got inside your jacket ain’t worth shit on these streets. You’re in my world now and ain’t no hidin’ behind the title detective. You are no longer Detective Larry Bourgeois, you are Blaze. You’ve always seen the streets from your side of the law, now it’s time to see it from my point of view. You headin’ down a dark path. Can you handle it?”
“I got you, Lau. I know what I have to do and I’m glad you’re here with me.”
“We came in together, we go out together. I’ll always be here when you need me.”
“And vice versa,” I said. He started the engine. “Where to now?”
“I got a place not too far from here where we can crash.”
“So now you keepin’ secrets?”
“Nothing like that. It’s just a little get away I take every now and then. I do it for your sake.” He winked.
I didn’t know what I was about to get in to. Not yet nor did I realize how much my life was about to change, the decisions I was gonna have to make and the sacrifices that were going to come with it. Lau was right although I would never tell him that, but he path I was about to head down was dark and twisted. Was I ready for that?
I approached the apartment building that wasn’t too far from the Dunbar Hotel and walked in. I knew what I was looking for the moment I stepped out of the cool night air. The mailboxes. They were located right in front of me. My manicured finger slid across the name plates until I saw his. I was ready just like all of the other nights. My pulse raced and my heart thumped inside of my chest. I checked myself in my compact and applied another coat of Jungle Red lipstick. Vain that way I was, but hell, I had a reason.
I reached the top of the staircase. At the end of the hall was the door I was looking for, the door marked with the number eight and when I reached it; I knocked. I heard a thud and mumbled curse words on the other side of the door before it opened.
“Can I help you?” He said, impatiently as if I'd disturbed him.
“Who’s asking?” He was now in a defensive stance.
I loved when they challenged me. “Do you mind if we speak inside?” I asked as sweetly as my tongue would permit.
“What is this about Miss?” He asked crossing his arms, but never budging from the doorway.
“I really think we should talk about this inside.”
“I think we’re fine right here. Who are you and what do you want?”
I was growing tired of this whole cat and mouse thing. I was ready to get this over and done with. I had other places I wanted to be and this wasn't one.
“Mickey Cohen says you owe him some money for a loan you received a couple months back, and now he wants it all and I’m here to collect. I’m only going to be patient with you for so long.” I gritted my teeth ready to bare them if needed.
“I told him when I got the money I would pay him back. Now, go tell him that.” He attempted to close the door.
I stopped it with my favorite heels. He would pay for scuffing them. “Not so fast.” My gun was now pulled and ready. He backed into the apartment slowly. I closed and locked it. “Where’s the money, Mr. Johnson?”
“Look, I don’t have it all right now. I’m trying. I just need a few more days. I swear I’ll pay it all back!”
I shook my head. I didn't understand why people borrowed money they knew they would never be able to pay back. It didn't mean much to me whether he did or not. I was a collector and when I couldn't collect the money, I collected your soul. Death had a face, a very nice one at that.
“Mr. Cohen doesn’t have a few more days.” I aimed my gun at him.
“Wait! Please I’m begging you, miss. I have a wife and a son. Don’t do this please have a heart.” He fell to his knees hoping I would show him mercy.
Little did he know I was merciless, but he was about to find out.
“I’m sorry Mr. Johnson it’s out of my hands.” I fired the weapon twice into Mr. Johnson’s skull.
His limp body lie on the floor next to the couch that was covered in his blood. Mr. Johnson’s brains were splattered on the white walls and some of the picture frames I assumed was of his wife and son. I placed the gun back into my clutch and left.
Down the stairs when I went as quick as I came. Two men were coming up. I prayed to anyone who was listening that they would leave me be so I could leave the building without being seen by anyone else. I took a deep breath and attempted to walk past the two men.
“You looking real good, miss lady.” I heard one of them say.
I tried my best to ignore them until the man in white grabbed grabbed my arm.
“I know you heard my man talking to you. Thank him for the compliment,” he said, tightening his grip.
He looked into my eyes, which I guess he thought was threatening; I didn’t even put up a struggle as I reached into my bra and pulled out a blade. My hands were quick when the blade glided across the man’s throat. His grasp on my arm loosened and down he went.
“You crazy bitch!” The other man said.
He looked at me before attempting to run.
My blade caught him in the back. He fell to the ground while I stepped over the man in white’s body and walked towards the man in black, who was slumped in front of the building’s front door.
I pulled my blade from his back and proceeded out of the door. My heels echoed as they hit the cement sidewalk. There was a local cafe that wasn’t too far and I was approaching it. I went inside and made my way towards the bar.
“Excuse me, sir, do you have a phone?” I asked the bartender.
It’s in the back,” he said.
To the back I went and there was the phone. I picked it up.
“Operator, can you get me WI 2541 please,” I said.
"Your father wants to see you tomorrow."
"Of course he does,” I said, hanging up the phone.