My genderfluid's journey

Nathaniell. I'm Genderfluid, French, white, ADULT, with some chronic diseases. Pronouns change according to my gender. Don't hesitate to ask. I'm here to speak about being genderfluid, gender, and genderfluid representation. This is a side blog.

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learning journey

Things I'm learning right now

spanish

madarin chinese

hardware fixing

light saber

ballroom dances

video making

Thing I attend to learn

LSF (french sign language | langue des signes française)

arabic

python

java script/css

cybersecurity

statistics

music creation

drawing

parkour

home renovation

car driving

sewing

brodery

knitting

Things I know now

how to be a silly billy

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Want to learn something new in 2022??

Absolute beginner adult ballet series (fabulous beginning teacher)

40 piano lessons for beginners (some of the best explanations for piano I’ve ever seen)

Excellent basic crochet video series

Basic knitting (probably the best how to knit video out there)

Pre-Free Figure Skate Levels A-D guides and practice activities (each video builds up with exercises to the actual moves!)

How to draw character faces video (very funny, surprisingly instructive?)

Another drawing character faces video

Literally my favorite art pose hack

Tutorial of how to make a whole ass Stardew Valley esque farming game in Gamemaker Studios 2??

Introduction to flying small aircrafts

French/Dutch/Fishtail braiding

Playing the guitar for beginners (well paced and excellent instructor)

Playing the violin for beginners (really good practical tips mixed in)

Color theory in digital art (not of the children’s hospital variety)

Retake classes you hated but now there’s zero stakes:

Calculus 1 (full semester class)

Learn basic statistics (free textbook)

Introduction to college physics (free textbook)

Introduction to accounting (free textbook)

Learn a language:

Ancient Greek

Latin

Spanish

German

Japanese (grammar guide) (for dummies)

French

Russian (pretty good cyrillic guide!)

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Want to learn something new in 2023??

Cooking with flavor bootcamp (used what I learned in this a LOT this year)

Beekeeping 101

Learn Interior Design from the British Academy of Interior Design (free to audit course - just choose the free option when you register)

Video on learning to read music that actually helped me??

How to use and sew with a sewing machine

How to ride a bike (listen. some of us never learned, and that's okay.)

How to cornrow-braid hair (I have it on good authority that this video is a godsend for doing your baby niece's black hair)

Making mead at home (I actually did this last summer and it was SO good)

How to garden

Basics of snowboarding (proceed with caution)

How to draw for people who (think they) suck at art (I know this website looks like a 2003 monstrosity, but the tutorials are excellent)

Pixel art for beginners so you can make the next great indie game

Go (back) to school

Introduction to Astronomy (high school course - free textbook w/ practice problems)

Principals of Economics (high school course - free textbook w/ practice problems)

Introduction to philosophy (free college course)

Computer science basics (full-semester Harvard course free online)

Learn a language

Japanese for Dummies (link fix from 2022)

Ukrainian

Portuguese (Brazil)

American Sign Language (as somebody who works with Deaf people professionally, I also strongly advise you to read up on Deaf/HoH culture and history!)

Chinese (Mandarin, Simplified)

Quenya (LOTR fantasy elf language)

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Want to learn something new in 2024??

Beginner-oriented video on how to sail

This guy has so many videos on baking different types of bread. SO very many.

Coding in Python - one of the most flexible and adaptable high-level programming languages out there - explained through projects making video games

Learn to swim! (for adult learners. I don’t care if you live in Kansas or Mali or wherever. LEARN TO SWIM.)

Learn how quantum mechanics works. Then read some more about it

[Learn about quantum mechanics again, but in a more advanced engineering/mathematics class. Then read more about the math and physics of it]

Poetry Handbook, by Mary Oliver

Something I learned this year: how to sew a quilt (Here’s a very easy beginning pattern that looks amazing and can be done with pre-cut fabric!)

How to hit the ball in softball

Tutorial video on what is under the hood of most (gas) cars + weird engine sounds and what they mean

Full beginner mechanics technical training, if you want to go more in depth

Playlist on how car engine physics work if you want to go ultra in depth

Lecture series on architecture design through study of buildings

How (American income) taxes & tax law work (choose “audit course” at checkout for free class)

Pickleball for beginners (so you can finally join your neighbor/friend/distant cousin who is always insisting you join their team)

+ Para-Pickleball for beginners (for mobility aid users!)

School is so much more fun when there’s no tests:

American Law - Contracts

Shakespeare’s Life and Plays

Fairy Tales: Meanings, Messages, and Morals

Modern Poetry

World History [Part 1, Part 2]

Learn a language:

Arabic + Resource Guide compiled from Reddit (includes info on different dialects)

Chinese (Cantonese) (audio)

Urdu (frequently recommended course on Reddit) + Resource Guide

Yucatec Maya

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I had to grow up very very fast. With the bullying, I had very quickly dropped anything cute, or anything I liked. pokemon, cc sakura, disney, that bad with a rabbit I had... I couldn't show to people what I liked, because it was perfect for people to find new ways to bully me. so quickly I when to loose jeans and black shirt, just to be as neutral as possible.

Now I have an entire collection of pokemon tshirt, and few other fandom stuff. I wear them everyday. I love them. I'm so happy I have the right state of mind to wear whatever the heck I want.

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I discovered, downloaded and used OBS today. I super happy with the result

I also made pixel art. I always found pixel art fantastic and I made a drawing today for the first time! Yipee!!

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Today I also discovered bopomofo, the mandarin phonetics symbols used on taiwan keyboard (if I got that right? )

I'm gonna need to learn it. But not right now. First let's try to get general mandarin ^^

Image by M4RC0 on wikimedia commons

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Just discovered i can record my screen and download youtube videos with vlc. How is this so easy? Especially the second part? So much time going to weird website when I could have done this!!

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Opened kdenlive for the first time in my life. Discovered the pillar effect and how to cut a video at the end.

Clearly i still don't know ho to use that software. But I know Those 2 Things.

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It's time for revenge

I was bullied a lot in school. i was threatened to be hurt if I was speaking, if I was "watching" an other student (who sat between me and the chalkboard). there are so many things that were interesting in school, but that I couldn't follow the way I wanted. everything was awful.

I got bullied from 3 year old to 18. it's 15 years of my life which were hellish.

But now I have a psy following me, and I get better every day at being social, and I understanding that not everyone is out to eat me if I say anything wrong.

So now I want to get back to all the horror of learning, and turn this into fun. learn how to do videos, how to create music, to draw, to speak different language, to stop misspelling when I write, to code, to do sport and to be comfortable when I do sport.

I want to enjoy evolving.

I've already started that journey. but now I want to share it. the revenge on life an on learning.

so follow me if you wanna

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I have a new friends whose gender change too. We went shopping and now we both look fabulous !!

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Le fait d’avoir de nouveau des gens qui me genrent et me nomment correctement au quotidien est genre… la meilleure chose. Mais après deux ans de retour au placard du au covid et a la perte de presque toutes mes relations qui me connaissaient comme étant genderfluid, je peux voir a quel point j’ai perdu en terme de confiance en moi et de capacité a m’affirmer. Jai tellement la haine de devoir presque tout recommencer à zéro.

Genre “bonjour et bienvenue dans cette partie de la transition où vous réfléchissez à votre passing”. Ah mais oui c’est vrai que ca va me faire du bien vu que ca fait deux ans que j’ai commencé a me dissocier de ma perception a mon corps. Alors comment est-ce que je pourrais m’habiller…. Oh ! Jai des idées. Je vais faire un tableau pinterest pour men rappeler ? Mais que vois-je ? Un autre tableau avec EXACTEMENT les memes idées ????????

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quick poll out of morbid curiosity. where are you from and do you keep bread in the fridge

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learning that bread-in-fridge people are just like "yes that's normal" and normal people are outraged to learn that anyone does this

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Anyway. Got a burn out at work. But I’m back now

Also lot of cool validating gender stuff happened to me. So that awesome

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as a kinky person who belong to the sub side of the force, I have a problem, and this problem are doms I have a crush on but that I DO NOT DATE, getting into their role play for a second and askng me "so ? dom enough" YES !! and I don't know How I'm going to CALM DOWN after that !! X(

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I found some nylon string. So I tried to fix one of my shoe with it. let's all hope it will work. ><

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A week ago, the French president (who is, as we know, a genius (no)), said he wanted to "piss off the non-vaccinated people". Adding they were not real citizen because of their behaviour (fuck this shit).

That, like.... so shitty. It would be low coming from me, and I'm lambda citizen 6753839. HE IS THE PRESIDENT !!

And beyond that..... it's so easy to say from where he stands. What are the French non-vax going to do against him ? No shit. He is in his presidential residence, going on with his life, happy with himself.

So who are the anti-vax going to piss off, for revenge ?

Well. Part of my job in France is to check people pass. We already get threats and insults, regularly. So yeah. We are on the line because of the president !

Thank you, sir ! We spent so much time, when we control pass, to try to find better way to serves the people coming, even the anti vaxx. To be diplomatic and present alternatives. So thank you for crushing all the job we are doing with the anti-vax every day.

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I. am. Completely. Crushing. On too many people ><

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If you think the genderfluid journey is not going well, it’s because I’m still in the closet at work and with family, and I still have almost no more queer friends.