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Renouncing the First Order was ONE thing but to return to the Resistance base with Rey was an entirely DIFFERENT matter. Not only was he certain that the Resistance order would SHOOT first, ask questions later ( not that he could blame them ), but they likely wouldn’t believe a word that he said, even with REY’S confirmation of what he was saying was true. With all he had said and done, it was understandable. He wouldn’t forgive himself either in their shoes, even if he had thought that all he had done was right and for a worthy cause.
A reason as why he had decided to trail BEHIND Rey on the way back, to both avoid being mistaken as the enemy and to avoid being seen and immediately shot down when he landed near to base. It would be a TEMPORARY stop, to allow Rey the time she needed to greet her friends and them the time to discuss what happened next. Whatever came next, would NOT be an easy road for him. People would come for his head; the ordinary, the angry, and whatever was left of the Empire, but deep down, he knew in his heart that this was the step towards, perhaps not redeeming himself, but trying to BETTER himself and better honour the memory of his parents.
Hands pressed against the glass of the scout ship, supporting his weight as he took a deep shuddering breath; DRAINED to the point of being utterly exhausted and WRACKED with agony through every fibre of his being, the approaching visitor was not at first noticed by Ben. It was only when a crack of a branch reached his ears that he realised SOMEONE else was with him. Assuming it to be just Rey, he wasn’t all too worried about it, not until he glanced over his shoulder to see that it was NOT Rey but the resistance pilot he had once interrogated. A sense of dread ( a new sensation in the face of the enemy ) washed over him, pushing aside the exhaustion and pain to turn towards Poe.
While it was unsure whether he had, in fact, been spotted, or if Rey had informed her friends about him, it didn’t really matter in the end. The real question was; was he alone or were there more alerted to his presence? Eyes warily scanned through the trees, feeling out with the force to determine if they truly were alone or not. For now, it seemed like they were. For how long that’d last, though? That was unknown.
❝ I’m not here for you– any of you. ❞
Adopting a calm tone, hands raised slowly, a simple of gesture of meaning no harm. This time. He truly hoped ( perhaps in vain ) that it would soothe any immediate urge to attack him.
exhaustion had all but settled into his bones . a renewed hope , not that it had been lost in the first place , with a rush of adrenaline had him thumping the backs of his fighters & welcoming the newcomers to the cause with the same amount of enthusiasm he was known for . what lay ahead ? he couldn’t say with certainty . but with the star killing weapons of the first order destroyed & an entire fleet under his command , it seemed peace was truly an option for the first time in forever .
& he would defend that peace , fight for it just as his general would have wanted him to . just as she trusted him to .
the only thing left to do was find rey . while they battled the enemies commanding large ships for the first order , she’d fought her own battle . he didn’t know how bad , but he had faith in the jedi . in his friend . the sound of her touching down at the base seemed to go unnoticed by everyone but him , blaster still by his side as he rushed over to a thicket of trees only to quickly seek cover behind one . the height , the way the man carried himself . kylo ren .
only , he recognised his face . kind eyes . someone from his past . but it couldn’t be ?
& just like that he stepped out from behind the tree , blaster now safely in his hand , caution in every step he took . the man - ben looked injured , less of a threat now that he was stripped of his mask and cloak . he had to break the tension , say something . acknowledge the other’s words . ❛ the mask didn’t take , huh ? i tried to tell you , hard to understand . ❜ he clicked his tongue , blaster still in his hand . he wasn’t going to take the risk . ❛ ben solo . so you’re alive . & the bad guy . & somehow , that makes sense . ❜
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