In the Land of Georgia

[georgiaolivia03]

Forgotten...

I forgot about this. Life happened and rained down hell on my emotional and mental health. Relationship issues with family and the SO. Health issues came up and derailed things A LOT. Work has come and gone and the struggle is, once again, REAL.

I traveled during a pandemic (by car not plane). Drove a total of 18 hours. It was fun. Had some serious me time and car karaoke is the best therapy. I went and saw some mountains and took some pics.

[georgiaolivia03]

I Forgot

Hi...

Pardon my neglect. I got caught up in reading and forgot that I was supposed to be keeping a journal. I read 2 books, Call Me By Your Name, and the follow up, Find Me. I love them (I’ll do a more thorough review once I actually finish Find Me). The movie is nice but it doesn’t do it justice at all. I also got back into reading some manga/manhwa online and read 3 different series. 

I was also sick for a few days. Not the rona but just a bit of sinus issues. I always get this issue when the weather starts getting colder. It’s an allergies thing really. No fever, just sinuses and cough. Stayed in bed for 2 days straight though because, well..., just because I didn’t feel like going out and being around people. Also, the weather has been miserable too. 

This is short for the amount of time I’ve been MIA but I started watching Banana Fish and I want to finish and see what all the hype was about.

Later, 

G.O

[georgiaolivia03]

A Quick Little Diddy...

Hello, 

I will not be lengthy tonight because I had a fairly uneventful day. 

1. My Miracle Morning Challenge has been severely lacking since Tuesday because I got depressed and drank 2 bottles of wine in less that 2 hours. Woke up hungover AF on Wednesday and called out of work. Just stayed in my jimmy jams all day and slept away most of the day as well. 

2. Today, Thursday, I returned to work and stayed extra hours to make up for lost time on Wednesday. I got a lot done and luckily not too many people interrupted my work. 

3. It’s technically Friday since the current time is 12:16am but I don’t do that shit where it’s like “Oh it’s after midnight so that means its Friday!” Nah, bitch, I didn’t go to sleep yet so it’s still fucking Thursday. 

Sorry for the cursing and lack of depth but I’m quite sober and not at all as moody as usual. 

Goodnight and have a pleasant tomorrow!!!

G.O.

[georgiaolivia03]

Oh, we’re back...

I didn’t write over the weekend and I’m ok with that. Not to say that this feels like work but that breaks should be taken once in a while. Also, there was much to do around the house like cleaning, doing laundry, watching anime, reading manga, naps... oh the naps lol. 

That was basically my Saturday. Woke up around noon which I haven’t done in a long time. I, for the most part, wake up naturally around 7 or 8, but Friday night I intentionally took an extra dose of my allergy meds so I could get some steady sleep. I have a bad habit of waking up in the middle of the night for no real reason. After I got up I went right to laundry and cleaning my bedroom and bathroom. While the laundry was still running I read some manga and had some hot coffee which I only offer myself on the weekend because I can take the time to relax and enjoy it. During the week it’s usually iced americano so I can drink it down fast on my way to work. While I didn’t go to the gym or really do any workout videos (I usually follow some on YouTube) I did get quite the workout cleaning. I even broke a sweat, more than I usually get when I go walking. It was probably just from all the hot water in the shower though, steamy... After that I folded all the laundry and watched Black Clover. I love Capt. Yami and Magna, they’re just swell. Luck is my third favorite because of how crazy he is for a fight. 

On Sunday the SO and I had to go to the mall and take care of some things regarding our legal bindings.... Ok, no point in being secretive anymore, I’m married and we went and got new wedding rings. We upgraded significantly to be honest. Maybe I’ll post a pic in a few weeks once mine comes in. We spent an unexpectedly long time there and by the time we were done we kinda just went home and did nothing the rest of the day. Well, SO watched football and I finished folding the rest of the laundry from Saturday and started a watching Demon Slayer. That intro though!! I knew and listened to the intro a ton of times before I actually watched the anime and so far I am not disappointed. I like where the story is going and OF COURSE the villain is so cute!!! I got ISSUES!  But that was pretty much it for Sunday. Mostly uneventful and just meh.

TODAY, Monday. Such a promising beginning. I woke up before my second alarm went off (yes I’m one of those people that set multiple alarms in the morning) and got right into my workout. Managed to get a shower and get dressed in a reasonable about of time and even made my coffee instead of stopping at the demon mermaid chain (you know the one). Made it to work on time (kinda, only a few minutes late) and everything was going smoothly until about 11. Tons of email complaints, systems reset and delayed my work for 20 minutes, needy employees that don’t know how to keep track of their own account information, customer complaints calling in, AND THEN, to top it all off, a MASSIVE accounting error on my predecessors part that I have to fix. Yes, HAVE to fix because I was not able to resolve the issue while I was there today. I have to go in on my day off so that I can take the time (which will probably end up being about 5 hours) to go through all the account info and fix and adjust everything. The annoying part? I know people are going to try to ask me for things and when I tell them that I’m not “here” they’re going to complain and whine like children to my boss. Then, when my boss comes to me, I’m going to have to yell at him and tell him that I’m here on my day off to clean up someone else’s mess and I don’t HAVE to be here but I am CHOOSING to be here to help HIS stupid clusterfuck of a company so that the other people employed here can still have a job. END RANT. 

After I got home I cooked orange chicken and rice and did some singing therapy for over an hour. I talked to some friends on discord and was going to stream some audios with them but not everyone was available so we are saving it for another time. ALSO, I got some new anime gear from a friend on Tiktok and it’s of Shinsou from My Hero Academia!!! I love him so much <3

After all that, we are here, in my den at 10:15pm EST listening to Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap on repeat. It soothes me. What soothes you?

G.O.

[georgiaolivia03]

Well... We’re still doing this...

Today was more on the productive side.  I can safely say that I had a good day. I woke up early enough to get in a 30 minute workout, something that I stopped doing a few months ago. It felt good to break a proper sweat first thing in the morning. I got to work a little late but that’s no big deal since no one really has set hours these days due to Covid19. I had a fairly productive day at work. Managed to stay off my phone and actually get things done. I’ve moved from constantly scrolling through Instagram to scrolling through Tiktok to listening to ASMR audios which, by the way, aren’t always for sleeping. And that brings me to my next topic of the day.... I think I have a voice fetish lol.

The only reason I managed to stay off my phone was because I was listening to ASMR artists all day. If you don’t know what that is, which I’m kind of surprised because I’m usually the last to know about things, ASMR stands for  Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response. Some call it a brain massage but for me it’s more than just brain stimulation. It started with me watching cooking videos with no talking or narration and no background music. The only sounds would be from the cooking process. The slicing of the knife and the crunching of herbs in a mortar and pestle just gave me tingles and make the hairs rise on my arms. It came to the point that it started to really feel like actual brain scratching when I would listen. HOWEVER, and I must stress this, I also have the opposite reaction to ASMR videos/audios of people eating. The mouth sounds of food being chewed makes me physically sick and I have on a number of occasions vomited because of the sound alone. This isn’t to say I have a weak stomach because I, as an adult female, have encountered a number of friends throw up or gag, changed baby diapers riddled with diarrhea and other excrement, and even enjoyed seeing pimples get popped along with other extractions. So, NO, I do not have a weak stomach. Moving on....

So, earlier this summer I got into listening to a voice actor who would mimic the voices of anime characters and created a few particular types of these audios. I loved them. I thought they were so talented at their craft that I even contributed to their work in a sense. No, I will not give names, sorry. But, that one person opened an entire world of ASMR voice actors for me and NOW I am invested in no less than 5 different artists. Even the writers for these audios are amazing. They have kept me captivated for hours on end and in turn have occupied my work time with great stories and particularly relaxing voices. 

Today, I spent nearly all of my work hours listening to one of my favorite voice actors before my drive home where I sang along with some of my favorite belters, Celine Dion, Mariah Carey, Barbara Streisand, Whitney Houston, and Lizzo (lol). I very much missed singing and when I drive I picture myself on stage with a full band backing me up so I can sing all my favorite parts the way I want to sing them. Holding notes as long as I want, holding a pause in the music long enough for me to look at the band to make sure they’re ready for more of me, mic in one hand with the other pointing to the sky to show how high I’m about to go. 

Once I got home I panic cleaned my kitchen. It wasn’t that dirty but considering the MIL was coming over I had to put in a little effort so it looked a little better. I made a HUGE pot of pasta for dinner and then made my way to my little cave of a den/second bedroom/guestroom. I listened to more audios with some friends online and then streamed anime while the SO and MIL watched the NY Giants and PH Eagles play. 

And that brings us to now. Me typing up my log for the day. Current time is 11:56pm EST but you don’t care a bit. 

G.O.

[georgiaolivia03]

I Challenge You to a Miracle...

I started this Miracle Morning challenge with some people today. There’s a list of 10 things you’re supposed to aim to accomplish everyday but it’s ok if you don’t get all 10 done. Six of these things are prefilled and then you add 4 more of your own to cater specifically to your own self improvement. Without knowing I already started one of them, Scribing. I started this blog last night, if you didn’t realize, and it looks like I’m a day ahead of the game. The 4 additions for me are as follows:

1. Talking to my family, because I’m terrible at communicating with them, whether it be immediate family or extended. For some reason I don’t like talking on the phone, maybe it’s a millennial thing, maybe it’s a social anxiety that I didn’t realize. Whatever the case may be I just don’t like talking on the phone or texting my family. I am not particularly social with my mother’s side and my father’s side lives 12 hours away, if not more, and I rarely see them because of the distance. With that said the conversations can go on for an obnoxiously long time and be terribly one-sided. I would rather see people face to face and converse that way because then, for some reason, I feel actual comfort with their presence EVEN THOUGH I will give off the impression that I am very annoyed being spoken to and hugged and other things that aunts and uncles do to you after not seeing you for a year or so. 

2. Work on learning Japanese. When the state first went on lockdown for Covid19 I took the time to start learning Japanese online. I was at it for about 3 months but then had to return to work in the office instead of working from home. While I know I should be grateful that I managed to keep my job, because so many people are struggling right now, I regret dropping my study so suddenly and not picking it back up sooner. At this point I will essentially have to relearn the alphabet and relearn a ton of phrases since I’m so out of practice. But that’s the whole point of this exercise, to improve on your life where you want to see a change. 

3. Sing for 1 hour a day. SING. I used to find such joy and release in singing. Singing anything and everything. I would sing the notes of guitar solos or sing along with piano instrumentals. I would sing big belty ballads, slow moody jazzy oldies, hair raising metal, tragically emo sounds, and bubblegum pop. If I liked the singer or the intricate playing I would try and sing it. I grew up singing in my house all the time. First thing in the morning music would turn on and we would start our day singing. On the weekends when my parents would make me and my sibling clean up, music would waft through the whole house like a summer wind blowing through the curtains of an open window.  My parents would have dinner parties and on occasion, when I wasn’t terribly shy, my sister and I would sing for them. When I was older I joined a cover band and sang with them for a few years and while it started off great, like many things, the joy began to fade and it turned into work and not fun. I stopped singing with the band. Stopped going to karaoke, stopped singing at home. I focused all my attention on work and lost that joy. Only recently have I started singing in my car again and very sneakily when I’m home alone. Since I started again I realize that it is now more therapeutic for me to sing all alone, when no one is around, instead of talking to someone about what I’m feeling. 

4. Watch 1 Disney movie. Last year I paid for a years subscription for Disney+ and come December I can either renew or cancel. In this time, the only things I’ve watched are The Mandalorian and Disney Renaissance (The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast (animated), Pocahontas, Aladdin, etc.) I feel that wasn’t a well spent $100. So now I intend to get my money’s worth and at least watch one movie a day or start a series and hopefully finish before it’s time to renew. I may end up renewing anyway because I’m a sucker for Star Wars and they just announced season 2 of The Mandalorian. Whatcha gonna do?

I can already tell this is going to be a long journey for this transformation. The other items that are predetermined on the list are as follows, Scribing (which I previously mentioned I already started), Reading (I count reading manga as reading), Exercise (obviously something that will be included because EVERYONE could be in better health than they currently are), Visualization (I really don’t know what this one is supposed to mean but I’m assuming it’s along the lines of see it to achieve it?), Affirmations (I found some youtube videos and podcasts that specialize in this kind of thing, it’s not so bad), and Silence (for someone that avoids conversations as much as possible and often spends most of their time alone, this one will be a piece of cake). 

So, this completes entry 2. It was a bit of a ramble and just talking about stuff and thangs. Like I’ve said before, this is just me talking, venting, word vomit and all that jazz. Maybe one day I’ll have more interesting things to talk about and discuss. Until then....

G.O.

[georgiaolivia03]

Hello...

I’m Georgia, this is my first post. I don’t intend to follow any particular themes for this other than making it my daily blog. It was suggested that I keep a journal or a diary of my daily feelings, moods, etc. but I felt the idea of a diary was a bit “adolescent” like. So, I did the millennial thing and created a blog instead. 

I might post audios depending on how lazy I am or if I have a day where I don’t even have the will to get out of bed. Audios will likely be videos with a blank screen or have a visual that is just scenery and not actually me. I prefer to remain anonymous and before you ask, no Georgia is not my given name however it is the name I have chosen for myself. If you end up following this blog, I apologize in advance for disappointing you. Majority of my life is just annoying and disappointing but I have no one to vent/talk to about any of my feelings and thoughts. 

Here is a little “about me” that you can skim through on the off chance that you actually might have interest in following me:

Name: Georgia Olivia

Age: Over 21, that’s all you really need to know.

Relationship Status: Legally Bound.

Time Zone: EST

Sign: Leo

I am LGBTQ+ friendly, Black Lives Matter, Pro Choice, Pro Death Penalty (don’t @ me), Anti-Fracking, Otaku, Millennial, Jeopardy>Wheel of Fortune, Slytherin, Americano extra sweet, Worst. Gamer. Ever., Nerd in Training, Wannabe DDlg  but really a BruhGirl, Emotionally Unstable, Probably Bipolar (not officially diagnosed), and if you wonder anything else about me you can ask here or find out more throughout my future posts. 

If you read this far without just skipping to the bottom you are either really bored or you’re the police trying to find where it all started.