I bleed when I fall down

Clu Davies Baxter. 18 years old. If you don't wanna get hurt best to stay away from me.

[clearlycarey]

Carey listened to his brother as he talked and nodded. “Why have you never said anything?” Carey asked before continuing, “Yes you’re here because of Larkin. He went too far this time, Cluey.” He chewed on the inside of his lip. “We’ve told the truth so hopefully he’s out of your life for good.” Carson swallowed the lump that had grew in the back of her throat as Carey told their brother what happened. “You have us and that’s all that matters.” Carson told him interrupting Carey after all Clu had asked her to give it to him straight. She wasn’t going to hold back. “We should have said something about this sooner instead of letting you suffer. That’s on us and we have to deal with that, okay? Not you, you just focus on being a teenager in love with his first real girlfriend. The first person he has ever let in besides us. Clu Davies, you are worth so much more than what he makes you feel.” Her voice edged with poison when she mentioned Larkin.

[getaclubaxter]

At his words Clu chewed on the inside of his lip. “Because you all already had enough to deal with.” There went his eyes again feeling so heavy he closed them and it took him several minutes to regain control over them. “I mean you literally save people for twelve hours, Care. And Cars and Clarkey are important too. I—“ He stopped inhaling slightly catching a second wind, “I’m nothing.” Clarke wanted to protest her little brothers words. “ You aren’t nothing Clu Davies Baxter. You are one of hell of a little brother you just got stuck with a bad hand.” She chewed on her lip and Clu welcomed the pause in his speech. “He’s not going to let me. He kidnapped her and killed me literally.”

[getaclubaxter]

Clu had to force himself to use his voice as much as it hurt, “I do sometimes. But I’ve never acted on them.” He admitted and looked to his brother and sister taking a minute before continuing, “Dad? And she’s been crying because of me. Tell me straight,Cars.” Clu inhaled wincing at the pain he felt. How could someone be hooked up to so many wires and drugs and still feel pain he wondered to himself as he saw Clarke enter his room.

“Oh my God, Cluey, your’e awake.” Clarke gave her brother a smile that all her siblings could tell was forced but none commented on it. “I’m so glad to see you.” She eventually made her way to his bed and leaned down to hug him tightly. She had missed him and thought the worse evident by how she was holding on to him. “Don’t worry about dad, Cluey.” She commented thinking he was asking where he was, “And also I’m ok now that you are up.” She wiped the remaining tears away once she finally realized she should let him go.

[getaclubaxter]

Clu had no memory of where he was so waking up with the hard tube pressed against his larynx and trachea had caught him off guard and he was ready to fight. Hearing his brother’s voice his confusion didn’t subside much but he listened to him and waited until the tube was out. He ignored the warning of not talking. “Wh—“ he stopped the pain was too much to continue so for now he attempted to sign to his brother. He hoped the soreness in his throat would go away soon. Where am I? He stopped boy was he tired he tried to remember what had happened but his brain was so foggy. He looked to his brother for an answer. His eyes closed slightly again as he waited for his brother’s reply. They felt as though they were meant to stay closed no matter how hard the teen was fighting to keep them open. Did I hurt myself? He felt as though his brother was taking too long to answer his questions and that made him anxious because every time Larkin did that it meant he was avoiding them.

[getaclubaxter]

Lucid dreaming|Clu +Care,Ft.Clarke +Carson

Clu had been put in a medical induced coma to give his body rest to recover. “Daddy?” Clu questioned his father who had his usual attire on which meant the boy was getting a new experiment done. “Yes, Cluey?” Larkin answered his sons question with one of his own. “Why do you hate me?” He felt his body tense at the question already ready for a response from his father who had a needle in his hand. “I don’t hate you, Bud, I want to make sure you’re safe so no one can hurt you.” Clu pulled his eyebrows together at his father’s words and didn’t have time to question it. Larkin started with the scalpel like he always did. It was hours and Clu couldn’t move, he couldn’t scream. The teens body started twitching a response to the lucid dream more like nightmare he was having of events that had certainly not happened at least not the way they were playing in his head. A nurse came in to check on the teen while his sisters were there noticing the monitors. She hit the button to call for back up. The girls were ushered out of the room and Carey was paged to the floor to watch helplessly as his brother was crashing yet again. It went like this for several days and no one could figure out what was happening.

[getaclubaxter]

Our Father happened to him|Solo

setting: Caleb Vineyard Memorial Hospital

Summary: Clu has Surgery and something scary happens while he’s under

Tragger warnings: Medical talk, death mention ,blood

It was early morning and Clu had to be rushed into emergency surgery for a blockage in his heart. Carey was paged to answer any questions he could before they operated. It was hours and Carey hadn’t heard any news on his brothers condition which made the man worried. “This teen’s heart is by far the worst I’ve seen in years.” The surgeon said aloud as he continued to work on the teen but soon alarms started going off alerting them the boy was about to code. “Crash cart stat.” He yelled and everyone went into action doing what was needed to keep the boy alive and in stable condition. “Remember this is Carey’s little brother we can’t lose him.” The surgeon reminded everyone. Soon the alarms stopped and things returned to normal. “Good job everyone. He’s definitely a fighter.” They continued to work on the boy repairing everything they needed to while he was under. “What the hell has this poor teen been through?” One of the nurses questioned taking note every scar and broken bone that had never been fixed correctly. The surgeon simply shook his head at her question before sewing up the teen’s wrist where the catheter had been inserted to fix the blockage. While there they took note that when he was stable enough they would have to fix his leg but for now they cleaned it and wrapped it. “Alright let’s get him to ICU and talk to Carey. They started cleaning up and getting Clu ready to be transferred to ICU. The surgeon who had Known Carey since the man had started working at the hospital when to update him on Clu’s condition. “I’m going to be honest with you we almost lost him.” He started sighing lately before continuing, “He’s a fighter for sure but there’s gonna be a lot of new adjustments for him, Carey. He’s going to have to have supplemental oxygen his lungs and heart are so scared he will eventually need a transplant for both. What did you say happened to him?” The surgeon asked to which Carey sighed heavily, “Our father happened to him. We’ve got it under control now.” Carey chewed on his lip as he looked at the doctor before him. “ I hope so for your brother’s sake. He’s eighteen and he shouldn’t have to deal with all of what we noticed in the O.R.” With that the doctor left and Carey waited a bit to go and see the teen. He called his sisters and Keeley to keep them all updated. Now it was a waiting game to see if the teen would wake up.

[kendollxtate]

Kendall was clearly upset at the both of them for trying to keep that away from her. But her expressions and tone softened when Clu grabbed her hand to hold it over his heart. “Beating hearts.” She said simply to let him know hers was beating too. “I’m still upset with you guys for not telling me, did you not think I could handle it?” Honestly she was only fairing with it because she was with people and she knew that. “Not that at all, little duck. You have the right to be mad but I think me and Carey will step outside and let you two have some time alone at least until visiting hours are over and you have to go home,Kenny.” Keeley said motioning for Carey to follow her outside to the hall to watch out for Larkin.The thought of leaving him was making her heart ache as she just got him back.

[getaclubaxter]

Clu gave Kendall a small smile for the first time ever he felt safe with someone other than his siblings. He waited until the others were out of the room before speaking,“K-Kenny..I don’t want to die without ever getting to say goodbye to you.” He swallowed the lump in his throat, “I don’t want you to be alone because you don’t deserve that.” He looked at her unaware that a doctor had come to talk to their siblings outside his room. “Before I wouldn’t have batted an eye to lie to you or anyone else that asked about me, Larkin, he makes me feel unwanted undeserving of love,” He paused picking a spot on the blanket that was covering him to stare at. “You’re the first person I’ve let in outside of my siblings, Kendall Wells Tate, I love you. And I promise I’m gonna do better.” As soon as Clu finished his sentence it was interupted by Carey coming in the room, “Cluey, I have some bad news you’re going to be in here for a while and its going to be a lot of work.” Clu sighed heavily causing him to wince at the pain it caused his chest and he wondered everything his father had done this time.

[clearlycarey]

It was Carey’s turn to explain and he only hoped the teen understood. “Kendall, you have every right to be upset but I thought it was for the best and to be honest I didn’t really think I was going to tell Clu.” Carey looked to his brother and he saw all this hurt behind his eyes at his words. “ I didn’t think he had heard me when we helped him back in his bed but I guess he did and it took him time to process it.” He takes a deep breath in and slowly exhales it before answering the how. “ Larkin ran upstairs and I was the one to get him back. I made a promise, Cluey and I failed.”

[getaclubaxter]

Clu had listened to everyone the whole time they were talking about the situation. He didn’t know that his brother had no intention of actually telling him that he had died. “Care, I-I didn’t know you were the one who he had help him bring me back.” Clu chewed on his lip looking at his brother and then to Kendall. “Kenny, I’m okay.” He said pulling her hand to his chest. “Feel it?” He questioned her, “Beating heart.” Though in this moment Clu didn’t know who he was trying to convince that his heart was beating.

[kendollxtate]

Kendall made sure she was careful for all the wires and wounds her boyfriend had as she wrapped her arms around him. “I promise I’ll stay.” She whispered as her sister and Carey looked at the teens. “You’re safe and I’ve got you, Cluey.” She repeated as she closed her eyes gently reminding herself where they were. “I’ve got it completely covered, Clu. Everyone knows not to let him in if he shows up.” Keeley spoke up letting him know she and his brother had things under control. Kendall gave her sister a small smile before speaking again, “You focus on getting better for me, Clu Baxter.” She leaned over and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek. “It’s my turn to save you.”

[getaclubaxter]

Clu sighed lightly his body still aching from all of what it had gone through with Larkin as he looked to Kendall. “I can definitely try for you,Kendall Tate.” He said a small smile on his face as he looked at her. He couldn’t say he didn’t still have fears that Larkin wouldn’t try his best to get him and hurt one of them for helping him; but he was trying to push it all aside and be in the moment with her. “I’ve gotta tell you something, Kenny and you have to promise you won’t leave.” he took a breath as he tried his best to think of how to phrase it so it wouldn’t upset her too badly, “ At some point during the month I-I uh I um died.” he chewed on the inside of his bottom lip as he waited for her to process what he had said, hell he was still trying to process it.

[kendollxtate]

At his question Kendall nodded as long as she was wanted and allowed she would go where ever he needed her to. “Of course, Clu Davies Baxter.” She saw her sister and Carey coming back out of the Tate house. “You both ready to go?” Keeley asked as the pair had reached the teens. “I’m ready.” She said with a nod and grabbed for Clu’s hand. Carey pushed the teen to Keeley’s Suv and they helped him in. The ride to the hospital was quiet except for the occasional wheeze coming from Clu but Kendall had not let go of his hand since they got in the car. “I’ve got you now.” She whispered lightly squeezing her boyfriends hand.

[getaclubaxter]

Clu didn’t answer he just went with it as his brother pushed him to the car. He didn’t really say a lot in the car because he was definitely tired but he did smile a sleepy smile to Kendall when she said ‘I’ve got you now.’ They arrived to the hospital and were brought back to a room already set up for the teen probably because Carey had called ahead to let them know. “Don’t leave.” He said to all of them looking with panic in his eyes. “We aren’t Cluey, but they have to have space for a little bit to get you straight. We’ll be right outside, I promise.” At his brother’s words he nodded understanding and didn’t fight the nurses who were hooking him up to monitors and connecting him to ivs. “You’re in good hands, Clu. I promise, I work with these people everyday.” Another nod from Clu as the others exited the room to give them space to get his vitals. When they were allowed back in Kendall scooted on his bed beside him. “I like this,Kenny.” He said sleepily. “Promise me you’ll stay even if I fall asleep?”

[kendollxtate]

Kendall shook her head at her boyfriend, “Hey, don’t say sorry. You can’t control him. I’m just glad you’re alive and here with me.” She chewed on her lip before leaning down to kiss him gently on his forehead. “Yeah, Carey she’s home go on and talk to her.” She had a guess as to what he wanted with her big sister. She had wanted nothing more than to be able to touch him, to kiss him but now she was so scared to even try. She was scared she would hurt him. “Cluey..I’m scared.” She finally admitted to the teen. “Scared that I could lose you and not know.” She looked at him getting down to meet him on his level. “Do you think they can stop him?” she questioned him.

[getaclubaxter]

Clu was glad he was with her there was no doubt about that. At her words he just nodded before taking off the oxygen mask. “I’m scared too Kenny,” He started taking as deep a breath as he could manage before continuing “but I’m here and our hearts are beating.” Though his was weakened he knew it was still beating. At her next question he didn’t know how to respond so it took him a few minutes. “I don’t know honestly.” He put the mask on for a minute to get a good amount of breath in his lungs. “Will you come with me to the hospital?” He didn’t want to be alone and she was the only thing he wanted to be constant. “I mean Keeley is coming too from the way my brother sounded earlier.”

[kendollxtate]

Beating hearts|K &C

Kendall had healed but had yet to return to dancing afraid she would hurt her knee so soon after healing. She was also focused on Clu she hadn’t been able to see him since they had become an official item but she was thankful for Carey keeping her informed of the cycle well except for one thing that is. So she had tried her best to prepare herself to see Clu as he had asked about her. “Cluey.” She said simply wrapping the boy in an embrace careful not to squeeze too tightly. She wasn’t going to mention how thin he was or the fact that he had oxygen and a feeding tube or the fact that he was borrowing a wheelchair from the hospital. “I’m so glad you’re ok.” She tried to keep things light and upbeat because that was who he needed her to be in this moment.

[getaclubaxter]

Clu couldn’t help but have tears show in his eyes as soon as he saw Kendall. She was off her crutches and he wasn’t there to see it happen. “Not okay..Kenny.” He swallowed hard he knew he wasn’t Carson had showed him that. “I-I’m—“ he stopped and looked at her eyes still full of tears. He couldn’t bring himself to say it. He didn’t want to leave her or his siblings anytime soon. He was gonna get better. “I’m so happy to see you.” He gave her a small smile behind the oxygen mask. “I’m sorry,Kenny.” Was all he could manage to say to the blonde. He had warned her that he was not worth the pain of knowing him and here he was proving it. Carey beside the teen the whole time and it hurt to know what the teen thought. “Kendall, is Keeley home?” He asked wanting them to have some alone time after all it had been a month. “Care, don’t.” Clu urged his brother not to talk to his girlfriends sister.

[getaclubaxter]

Setting: The Baxter house(Immediately after Chaperoned park date)

Summary: Clu finds out that his father has someone watching him and he gets punished for seeing Kendall

Triggers: Abuse, foul language,Medical talk, death mention

Clu couldn’t believe that him and Kendall had made it an official thing so soon after the whole ordeal or the fact that Keeley was okay with it. But in the back of his mind he knew one person in his life wouldn’t be and he was about to face him head on when he entered their house after his date. “Clu Davies, you went to see that Tate girl. I thought I told you she didn’t want you.” Larkin’s voice was edged with poison. “It was just to say goodbye, daddy.” Clu lied hoping he wouldn’t get in more trouble. “Goodbye my ass, Clu. I have a witness that saw you two kissing in the park. March down to the basement right now.” Clu wanted to protest but he knew how that would go with his father. The same as it always went. He also wondered who his father had as a witness as he slowly marched the familiar way to the lab. “I don’t know what I’m going to do with you. I’m at my wits end.” Larkin said as he entered the basement. “I try my best to protect you and you disobey me time and time again.” Clu chewed on the inside of his lip as he listened to his father. He wished he was anywhere else right now but he knew if he wasn’t the one getting the punishment either Carey or Kenny would be down there instead and he couldn’t have that so instead Clu went to his safe place in his mind. Larkin started by strapping his son to the table like normal and next worked on sedating him. Meanwhile Clu was with Kendall far away from the hands of his father and he was happy for once in his life. He saw his whole future with her now. This cycle of punishment lasted for an entire month. When Clu finally was allowed to wake up he was nothing like what he had been before. He was weak and had all the tubes you could think of connected to him. He looked around he was definitely in his room so he tried his best to get out of his bed falling straight to the ground. At the thud all of his siblings came rushing into his room. “Oh my god,Clu.” Clarke cried out at the sight of her brother on the floor. Carson and Carey helped him up gently placing him back in his bed. “I’m calling Keeley and this ends now. We lost you once while he had you down there for a month,Clu Davies. I’m not breaking my promise again.” Carey said with tears in his eyes as he looked to his brother. “I told you we needed to break the cycle. The only way I know how is to get you away from him.” Clarke held her brothers hand which currently looked so little compared to hers. “H-ho-how’s K-Ken-Kenny?” His first words out of his mouth as he looked at his siblings. “I’m fine. Don’t—“ he started but stopped as Carson brought a mirror over to show him himself. “I’m gonna die.” He said tears and fear evident. And as much as he didn’t want Kendall to see him like this he really thought it was the end for him and he needed to say goodbye to her. “Take me to Kenny. I need to see her.” Carey simply nodded that he would take him to her and then the hospital with Keeley’s help he had faith that Larkin would not get his brother this time. Carey also let out an unnoticed sigh of relief that Clu hadn’t heard him say we lost you once because he was already consumed by the night that Larkin ran upstairs to get him to help bring Clu back. He didn’t have it in him to go through that again. He had developed a new fear and it was costing him sleep. He would tell Clu when the time was right but for now the teen needed his help and that’s what he was gonna do.

[getaclubaxter]

While he loves all his siblings for what they provide him he reaches for Carson when he needs tough love. She has no filter when it comes to what he needs to hear and while he doesn’t always listen to her he knows he can count on her for anything without judgement as she feels the way he does about their father never wanting him but the rest of the family can’t live without him.

[kendollxtate]

Kendall blushed at his question of kissing her. She licked her lips and looked down and back to Keeley for a second. “I don’t think she would. I know I wouldn’t mind it.” She bit at her lip, “I’ve wanted to since you rescued me. You’re my knight, Cluey.” She said leaning in a smile on her face.

[getaclubaxter]

Clu couldn’t help the smile that formed as they met for their first kiss. He had never seen himself falling for someone as he was her. He thought he was happy pushing people away so they didn’t get hurt but Kendall certainly changed his point of view on a lot of things. “Your knight in broken armor, Kenny. I must confess I wanted to since I rescued you too.” He said as he leaned in closer and before he knew it his lips were colliding with hers.

[hollandershane]

JACK O’CONNELL as JAMES COOK in SKINS (2007-2013)

[getaclubaxter]

Whenever Clu found himself in regular trouble he usually found Clarke. She understood his need to feel like a normal teenager and she had the way of sweet talking their father that usually eased the punishment Clu would receive. It also didn’t hurt that the two of them were much closer in age out of the Baxter siblings.

[kendollxtate]

Keeley had decided to hang back a little ways to let the two have their time alone. She knew neither would be completely settled until they had seen each other.When Kendall her the familiar voice she smiled resting on her crutches ever so slightly. “Hey Cluey.” He smile didn’t fade as she looked at him though she could tell he was hurting. “Lets sit,” She offered up pointing to a bench nearby. “You must be hurting with everything.” She chewed on her lip as she started walking she was surprised he was even standing.

[getaclubaxter]

Clu nodded lightly at her offer to sit. “Told you I can deal with a little pain.” He said as they walked to the bench. “You look good.” He was glad of that. “Do you think your sister would mind if I um maybe kissed you?” He asked her he had wanted to do that that day in the hospital but he didn’t.