happy and hungry

i'm traci and this is my body positivity and life blog!

[gettingherlifeback]

TODAY is my second day eating intuitively... I'm sticking to the foods I know I'm comfortable with because I deem them "safe" and "healthy", I know the real challenge will be confronting foods that put me in the mood to overeat. (All the "bad" stuff I crave CONSTANTLY.)

I really want to nail it this year though, I need a balanced and healthy relationship with food 🍔🥦🍕🍉 I want to be able to focus on other aspects of my life and not obsess over the fear of gaining weight.

That's what I'm really afraid of. And honestly I couldn't have imagined that maintaining and developing healthy habits would be even more difficult than losing the weight.

I'm ready to find my peace 😤

[gettingherlifeback]

I haven’t tracked any food in... two months. It’s been so, so freeing but also very challenging. I have also not weighed myself since last November, for my own peace of mind. Still working on trying to balance and be mindful... after work/dinner is the time I still struggle with, figuring it out >:T 

[gettingherlifeback]

resting weight

oof, it is rough being comfortable at a resting weight... I’ve only ever lived for getting smaller, and now that I’m nailing the intuitive eating, I’m bigger than my unhealthy weight, but my brain absorbs that as being too big uhhghgghhhhhhggggggggghhhhh

[gettingherlifeback]

did my scary interview today .... feelin p good about it!!!

[gettingherlifeback]

ive got a second interview for a position i want so damned bad... it's almost too good to be true and perfect for my skill set/while being an awesome stepping stone into the Creative industry rather then more clerical stuff... I've been so nervous about interviewing because the thought of not getting it is devistating

WHICH is what my brain does!! I've got to calm down and just do my very best and accept that is enough!!! fear of failing gets in the way of me even trying properly, it's insane to think about

SO I'm channeling good vibes for tomorrow morning.... and praying I don't sweat my eyebrows off 😰🔥🔥🔥🔥

[gettingherlifeback]

had a weird job interview today, tgif :')

[gettingherlifeback]

beach walk/brekkie vibes 👌✨

[theweirdwideweb]

[nikasholistic]

Fear is just a feeling. Too often we treat it like a physical thing. Fear exists only in your mind, and 99% of things you worry about never happen. The best way to overcome fear is to face it. Trust me, you can do it, you can win, and you can live your best life. It’s all about attitude. You can’t play the victim your entire life. If you took away fear, what would you be doing now?

[gettingherlifeback]

feeling VERY grateful to be here ♥️☀️

[laceforest]

my bed is my cloud and i’m the little angel that sleeps on it

[bob-belcher]

[quotes-motivational]

[gettingherlifeback]

skype interview looks ✨ I continue to fool people into thinking I'm confident and outgoing!!! fake it till u make it BABEY

[akumeoy]

it’s honestly so toxic to leave a desirable object under a box propped up by a stick

[gettingherlifeback]

eating intuitively

1/23/20 (day 2) 

if I don’t decide to physically journal, i think i’ll keep track here. 

after getting home late (stressed n hangry) I decided I was going to come home and have the ground turkey chili I made for meal prep. I haven’t been weighing it, just kind of scooping with a 1 cup scoop, then trying to be SLOW and MINDFUL while I eat to see if that’s enough... (this is really hard for me because I’ve lost the ability to feel hunger and fullness cues over so many years of counting calories and measuring.) 

during my eats, I was staring at a chocolate muffin container on the table. the Costco ones, their freakin huge. I wanted one. A whole one. I finished my meal (too quickly) and settled for a piece of dark chocolate as a substitute. I still wanted the muffin. I ate half the muffin, feeling that familiar ALL OR NOTHING mentality start to kick in ... started thinking about those tortilla chips I saw... and of course the PB, but ... I decided to stop. USUALLY, this moment is the turning point where I binge to a level beyond uncomfortable. 

Miraculously, I stopped myself. For the first time, I paid attention to my stomach. I FELT full from my food... and knew that I only ate that half chocolate muffin because I wanted it’s TASTY DELICIOUSNESS to soothe my sour mood. The muffin was a stress-eat, seperate from my nutritional needs but JUST as important.  

I felt... pretty darn full afterwards. Mood was worse because I ate half a muffin and started beating myself up. Took pup for a walk, then took a small nap, still very ANNOYED.  

Woke up... feeling okay. Fine. Tried to refocus my perspective on the situation. Happy I got to have my muffin without spiraling into a bingefest. It was freeing. 

I know it won’t be like this everytime, but I feel like this was a really spectacular learning experience for me. 

[gettingherlifeback]

TODAY is my second day eating intuitively... I'm sticking to the foods I know I'm comfortable with because I deem them "safe" and "healthy", I know the real challenge will be confronting foods that put me in the mood to overeat. (All the "bad" stuff I crave CONSTANTLY.)

I really want to nail it this year though, I need a balanced and healthy relationship with food 🍔🥦🍕🍉 I want to be able to focus on other aspects of my life and not obsess over the fear of gaining weight.

That's what I'm really afraid of. And honestly I couldn't have imagined that maintaining and developing healthy habits would be even more difficult than losing the weight.

I'm ready to find my peace 😤

[gettingherlifeback]

hyped I can wear these jeans comfortably 🌞 ft. yellow shirt!!!