Our Little New Atomic Age

Kaitlin\ 31 \ She/Her \ Canada \ I like volcanoes and SKZ (Code) and Death Note

[unanuvola]

🐹&🐰

[gettingsnowedunder]

It’s so fan service but you can love it for being fan service. I think that’s allowed. You know what a homophobic person would do? Nothing that minsung are doing on any given moment. The fan service is also a statement.

[steveyockey]

no “carrd.” you learn things about me based on what you can piece together from the vague details of my life I disclose in rare moments of vulnerability

[johnny-depp-is-loved]

[linokun]

/)/) ( . .) ( づ🎥🔪

[cringelordofchaos]

[minchns]

LEE KNOW ✦ "RUN IT" TEASER

[hydrachea]

> turns on my computer

> disables a new AI feature that was turned on by default

> opens my email

> disables a new AI feature that was turned on by default

> launches a software

> disables a new AI fea

[xalatath]

I have never, and will never, use "ofc" to mean "of fucking course". It literally stands for OF Course...

[i-am-a-fish]

I hope you get your favorite food this week and your favorite drink and your favorite 2k dollars

[kiyomitakada]

the fun thing about reading first friend as a lie is that L really didn't have to do that at all

[kiyomitakada]

the fun thing about reading first friend as a lie is that after light gets over his shock and says he'd like to play tennis with L again L replies with

"yeah that would be awesome we can do that as soon as i kill you dead"

[xxvexatiousveexx]

He was so mad and gay

[aropride]

(so mad i can’t see straight) Yeah i just don’t think chat gpt is a good classroom tool

[astralprogesterone]

GEMINI (May 21-June 20): I invite you to ruminate on death

[wiki-but-made-them-up]

[astercrash]

[wtf-is-hockey]

No for real. It’s the last day of school and you’re at a party with some friends and you’re signing each other’s clothes and bodies and having a good time, taking pics, commemorating your year together and yeah you’re the only poc at the party and you’re always the only fucking poc and yeah you have to deal with microaggressions daily but at least you’re being included.

Then later that night you go home and before bed you undress and go to shower to wash the marker off and you pass a mirror and you see a swastika on your head. You can’t remember who wrote what where. Which white friend thought it would be funny to watch you walk around with a swastika on your head all night without you knowing? Why didn’t any of the others tell you?

Years go by. You get away from those people, that town. You make new friends who are more like you and treat you better and get on with your life and before too long you haven’t thought about that night in years.

Then you blow up over night. Everyone knows your name. You can’t even go grocery shopping anymore. A lot of people love you but a lot of people hate you, and they want you to know it. They scheme to ruin your life day after day after day for months. They call you slurs. They suicide bait you. They stalk your girlfriend, say horrible things about your mom and your team. None of your white co stars are standing up for you. When one finally does he’s more concerned with defending himself. You’re microaggressed even more constantly only now it’s from your employer and from people with influence in the industry who could squash your dreams like a bug.

And they make a fake insta account framing you as a racist and it does something irrevocable to your fanbase and so many of the people who claimed to be ride or die for you the day before have now, without a second thought, despite seeing who you are for months and what kind of person you are, decided it must be true without any fucking proof and they hate you and they suicide bait you and yeah eventually it gets out the account was fake but damage was done.

And then one day, a month later, you wake up and discover they’ve unburied a photo from that night and they’re now using it to accuse you of being a white supremacist and they’re already celebrating your downfall and sure not everyone believes you’re a white supremacist but they once again, without proof, think you’re to blame.

You must have accepted it because you were being edgy. You’re basically white so of course you’re a little racist. It’s almost, for some reason, like they want to believe this about you. You, a moc, who has faced several lifetime’s worth of racism in a handful of months and people are angrier at you for that pic and hate you for it more than they have ever fucking been angry at or hated the people who have been being heinously racist to you for the last six months. They think worse of you than the white kid who drew it on you.

And this won’t even be the end of it.

[gettingsnowedunder]

Okay I hit the very bottom again I fainted three times but no concussion this time!! Called my friend who dropped everything at 9am to come to my house and watch me throw up, and he caught me one time when I passed out and started shaking a lot. But then I taught grade 1 online, and the whole time he stayed out of sight on my bed ready to catch me if I fainted out of my chair. I didn’t. When I was done he like held onto me and I know I was so sweaty and gross and scared. I can ask for help when I’m scared. And then. The guilt. Because every month I try to create boundaries but this was my closest friend for almost ten years and when I get scared I know he’ll come and not be weird, and then next time we hang out he’ll make it weird again. It’s like if there was a situationship without the sex. It’s a friendsuationship. No one else in my life likes him but when I’m fainting every hour who do I call. It’s tricky. Well, I got better. I got better and called my mom and she said “go for a walk so you don’t spiral” and I did and it was Great Advice. Everything is going to be okay. I just have to work harder be kinder boundary better and stop. Fainting. My body when it doesn’t have enough water just wants to be dead, it turns out.