Your girl has gone 30 days binge-purge free~~~
In that time, I’ve eaten between 1100 - 4000 calories a day, depending on how I feel, what I’m up to, what food is around, and how my training is going
I’ve overeaten junk food but stopped when I’ve had enough without telling myself fuck it and binge eating everything damn thing I can get my hands on
Just this week alone, I’ve had a few days of eating like 5 donuts at once or two pints of ice cream, but not freaking out, and just continuing on with life without completely freaking out, and eating normally without over compensating later
My training has been going really well - recently hit a 2 plate (225 pound) deadlift and a 175 pound squat (bench is still #YOLO) at ~100 - 105 pound body weight (I may actually make my weight class without resorting to dangerous measures for once???)
My physique and body composition are actually improving (ABS ARE COMING BACK WHATTTT) because shockingly when you fuel your body with what you need, your body will respond appropriately
Not to mention, I’m no longer dangerously dehydrated from purging/over-exercising. I’m not constantly doubled over in pain from heartburn after a binge session. My throat is healing from the purges.
I don’t spend hours at a time in the bathroom or doing way more training than I need to compensate for binges.
Lots of stuff, both mentally and physically I still need to work on, BUT I’M GETTING THERE
Also, not related at all, but I’m also over a year and a half sober from alcohol~~~~ (unless you count like cooking wine or whatever, but I don’t)
Sorry I’ve been relatively absent. I’ve been needing some time to take care of myself. Eating disorders, physical health, and mental health are all exhausting and working to recover is hard, uncomfortable, and sometimes feels impossible.
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