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hi everyone! I like to hear myself talk so that’ll be most of it. sometimes political. idk just going with the flow. here are a few things about me:

☆ star ~ all pronouns ~ 25 ~ queer // chronically ill // autistic

☆spanish/english ~ tone tags are appreciated ~ let’s be moots <3

mutual aid guide:

→ link to spreadsheet with all families/campaigns that reach out to me or I see

→ link to tumblr post version of spreadsheet

→ send campaign via ask or simply tag me! I don’t answer dm’s due to bots and spam lol.

→ I only repost vetted campaigns. if campaigns are unvetted I will wait until they are! I try my best to verify vetting but sometimes things slip, lmk if I ever make an error!

→ I don’t personally vet. all campaigns pertaining to other countries will be verified thru 3rd parties:)

→ not taking promoting requests atm. if you send me an ask i might not respond immediately.

i am currently unemployed and living with a chronic illness so if you would like to support me so I can continue doing this work:

★Ko-fi ~ buy my work or tip me ( •̀ᴗ•́ )و ̑̑

#mine #pinned post #about me

I also love driving 30+ min every 3 months to an appointment just for them to tell me “just take some over the counter melatonin and no screens!” after I mention that my pain is so bad it’s keeping me up at night

#like you don’t… think I’ve TRIED THAT 😭#like babe it’s the PAIN keeping me up. I can fall asleep FINE. man I can take a nap too #it genuinely feel like my feet are about to burst from the stiffness #being chronically ill is so exhausting #chronic illness

doctors after putting the hypothetical babies u might (will probably never have) over your debilitating pain like

#it’s not even that I know it’ll work but I’m not even being given the opportunity bc I’m young and fertile #I am on like 6 things rn. SIX! nothing is working. I still feel bad.#and it is SPECIFICALLY the pregnancy thing like they mention it everytime #delete later #chronic illness #they also told me to take melatonin after I told them my symptoms were keeping me up

dave and busters might actually be the autism gates of hell

#the minute I enter one of those I’m just mad as hell #autism #anyway hey guys I’ve been kicking grad schools butt (it’s kicking mine)#just loud as hell and for what

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me freshmen year

vs me senior year

vs me my first year of college

vs me my second year of college

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first day of the last year of college unlocked. the thread has been complete.

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first day of grad school

#baby it’s tradition at this point #been out of school 2 years I forgot how to school #ya girls going to be a librarian? maybe? if I actually finish

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i hope something good happens to me. i hope something good happens to you too. i hope something good happens to all of us soon

the concept of policing somebody’s weight when they’re already struggling to come to terms with their disability

#god forbid a girl have a sweet treat every once in a while while feeling like her body has betrayed her #suddenly everyone a dietician #I get my blood work done every 3 months like I promise having ice cream after dinner is the LEAST of my problems rn #my mother always reminds me why I have mommy issues 😍#personal #delete later

every time there’s a discussion about young ppl dying randomly some ppl would rather believe in some conspiratorial bullshit than the idea that the improper handling and disregard of a mass disabling disease might have something to do with it

#is it the vaccine or… perhaps the literal disease you have gotten 5 times meemaw #‘this is my sixth time getting covid lol’ you say while refusing to mask/vaxx and then you wonder why ppl are dying randomly 😭#covid #and this is why a whole side of my family doesn’t know im sick

no but fr how do you work through the anger and sadness that comes with watching ppl dismiss the disease that disabled you especially when it’s ppl you care and cherish 🤕

#like in a way I know a lot of ppl aren’t malicious they’ve just been failed by the govt #but also when I talk about it it’s like ppl nod and go ok we hear you and then don’t change #my parents gave me the infection that disabled me so…#ahahaha #covid conscious

the way some of you talk about Covid like its a long forgotten thing of the past is why disabled ppl like me can’t just “move on” with our lives 🙃

#bc I have to pick up the slack for ppl who don’t care :)#someone said I needed to stop being ‘afraid to breathe’ like girl fuck u 😭#covid conscious #‘Covid in the big 25’ I’m going to combust #Covid

the job incident

#anyway go support my art thru my kofi bc I guess a bitch is broke again #plz someone validate my feelings all I got are haters in my vicinity telling me to suck it up 😔#one like if I should quit and not feel guilty

I went to a job out of desperation (bc it was offered by a relative) found out that I would be working for a landlord and a Zionist. Decided not to go back bc I am an active hater of both and working there even for two months and 2 years of being unemployed would suck my soul. What about that screams “I’m nervous of not being good enough.” Man I’m TOO good for that 😭

#like tell me I’m not out of my mind??? ppl have quit for less???#like it’s an opportunity but the opportunity comes at what… genocide and the housing crisis???#and is it a privilege to care about the morality of your job? maybe do I care? no!#didn’t know abt either btw #I thought the job was just answering phones at the front office of an apt complex not gossiping abt ppls late fees #and the Zionist news was dropped when my boss casually mentioned how the owner just ‘goes off to Israel every couple of months’

everyone keeps telling me that I’m experiencing first day jitters. Man my entire life has been a first day jitters. I have never known a day of peace in my life. Every new experience is like the worst thing is happening to me. This is not that I swear. The idea of having to go back to that place makes me want to rip my hair out

#like trying to explain it but everyone keeps telling me it’s normal to be nervous #I’m not fucking nervous I just hate it #I hate what it stands for #I’m not working for a landlord I’m not telling ppl they don’t deserve to have a roof over their head #I’m not #it’s eating away at me #delete later

how do I deal with the guilt of knowing that my parents will never have the daughter they thought they had

#it’s actually round 2 of the spiral btw #was doing fine and then got a call from my mom and she ruined it again #gifted student to meltdown over job now I’m pressed up against my mattress like a dog in a kennel pipeline #i don’t think a job should make u spiral this bad #delete later #I’m lik those baby monkeys and the cloth mother

hey how does one get over the embarrassment of existing as I am

#re: last post #broke down bc I’m embarrassed I can’t even do a basic thing like an office job bc I’ve regressed so much with my autism #and ik it’s not my fault. I’m autistic it’s the way I am #but it’s embarrassing bc I’ve had so much weight put on me since I was a kid to succeed I feel like I’m not doing any of that #venting on main ahh just like the old times

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first day of my new (temporary) job do I quit yall

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I was joking but I actually don’t think I can do this job thing

#just had a meltdown 😇#going to be a part of the autistics who can’t hold a job I fear #it was just a lot more than I was expecting? and like I’ve worked a little before I thought I’d be fine #but I’m dealing with a lot more intense things I’m just overwhelmed and idk what to do

first day of my new (temporary) job do I quit yall

#I hate working #but money ? need that.#I’m only here for 2 months bc I’m filling in for someone #delete later

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