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色々な事を体験するって楽しいです。

[ghostlyetherealfleet]

I am going to watch the police that arrested me go to jail. And I get the feeling, they are so stupid, they will be asking: "What did I do?" When they literally tortured a heart surgery recipient.

[pururin]

[ghostlyetherealfleet]

my shoulder hurts from walking.

[ghostlyetherealfleet]

Tuesday morning... just trying to be social on social media, but I don't really get much of the social. I make my posts, and often they are layered with tons of complaints that are usually grounded in problems either about my health, how I am being treated, or some combination in between. I have a few folks that make some efforts for some things to go well in my life, but I think way too many people think that a job is supposed to be both unpleasant and literally even painful. Some could say that it is a feminist argument that a job for a woman should be nothing but pain, but the fact is, I have had heart surgery, and even men face the problem of society not recognizing what we can and can't do without pain. They don't place limits on me, they just throw a big: "do what you can." at me, and never pay me for what I can do or actually do. Shame on you all for actualizing medical slavery. You have your penalties for it.

[ghostlyetherealfleet]

I saw this post somewhere: "surely treating suicide as the most horrible forbidden thing possible and making it difficult to discuss candidly not only through social stigma but also the threat of kidnapping and forced drugging will prevent people from doing something that makes me personally uncomfortable"... and yet, even despite getting a fucking seizure from a mental health med, I'm still a little interested in exploring around them. wtf?

[hexpatient]

theres a lot of teehee'ing about autistic people needing things to be specific and whatever but i really do think everyone (allistics) could benefit from learning to communicate better and be more specific about things. miscommunication problems suck soooo bad and they can be reduced with a little more effort, like being more specific. who cares if its awkward or blocky if it means you both understand each other properly? i think its really important. personally i Need to be understood and being specific helps a lot i think.

[ghostlyetherealfleet]

Going out in public, I often feel like i am a bubble patient, as if everyone around me knows my medical problems, and everyone is smarter than me, trying to help me keep up because I am the slowest one around. I never have have proof that this is true, and I wonder if there are more people around me that aren't like that than I think. Life IS SPONTANEOUS. Not everything can be planned, and I like tok contribute where it makes sense to. But I am also regularly concerned that I might randomly freak out.

[rose-colored-heart]

💖 💕 🩷 💗

[ghostlyetherealfleet]

Trying to imagine that people in general are well intentioned, that healthy people actually look out for non healthy people, like fascism isn't real. There are plenty of times that I find that difficult to believe. Often, if I am surrounded by people that I don't know, I just assume that everyone is pretending that I have downsyndrome, and often, i sincerely feel like I do have down syndrome. I consider myself fluent in Japanese and English... and can do a little bit of Spanish and Chinese, but I also studied some computer programming... I sort of anticipated that by this year, many many folks might be very good at lots of programming languages, and I might hear people speaking as if folks were using a computer but speaking to it instead of typing to it. Very surprising that usually I just find a lot of "basic?" English, and ocassionally other human languages... i have yet to encounter people speaking as if talking audibly to a computer. Not every theory I had about reality as time passes: from when I was younger, like 20 yrs ago, has come to pass.

[mad2dog]

xd 🍎

[yellowsandwichs]

Light vs L

[ghostlyetherealfleet]

これはとても大事です。

[skm4]

gif ver.

[ghostlyetherealfleet]

Frustrating recently. Everyone actively discriminating against me. I am talking to myself in Japanese in public, sort of wishing to be talking to others, sometimes wishing that I were actually finding Japanese conversations. I am afraid to speak up in English out of: "What will I talk about?" Because I don't know the answer. I know how to talk to myself, and assume that if a Japanese speaker is around, they will respond simply "because"... I am in the United States, finding other Japanese speakers might be a rare and special experience? It actually DOES happen from time to time, suuuuuper cool! I wish I could get to know the people around me, but I really don't know what to say other than to pretend I am on my phone in Japanese instead of trying to reach out in English. I HAVE and DO talk to these people in English sometimes, basically every time I am here. There are instances where I go to businesses, and I actually will not use English at all from my end, I will use my phone with a translation engine to reach English, which means English is still being accesses/used, just not by my voice or even my direct typing. That's about where I am at. Not the worst day ever, but yesterday was horrible. I received discrimination about my medical problems.

[veryluckyclovers]

[exemiin]

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[rose-colored-heart]

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