Have a rare selfie! I make myself really dysphoric so I don't take them generally, but I had an old pic of me and my son DovahKiing on a good day, so I just threw on a filter, here go
Name: Loon, Loonie, Luce, Luci, I'm pretty easy! I'll respond to pretty much anything haha; if you're looking for my legal business name, I'll just dox myself before PayPal does, HonorRae, yippeee
Most Active Muse: Lucifer and Alastor are fistfighting for first place while Lilith and Vox are sneaking up with a couple of steel chairs — at least on discord. On Tumblr, definitely Lucifer!!
Experience: Hhhhhhhfghjfbhjbbh, define experience? Haha, if you mean just the concept of pretending to be a character and acting it out with your friends, I would do that after middle school with my friends at 13 playing pretend and acting scenes with characters from Animorphs and Lord of the Rings. If you mean actually write down scenes and taking turns round robin style, I would say 17, when I'd crack open my word doc and email 3-8 page replies with my roleplay buddy, haha (Doctor Who, at the time).
But for roleplay on discord using tupper that would be in 2020 (age...24??), and I'm super fresh to Tumblr roleplay, only started with this blog, um, last....may...? 2024 (28).
Fluff, Angst, or Smut: I'm a slut for writing of any kind, haha. My strong suit is angst, I think, I can really pull characters through an emotionally ruinous situation; and had way too many people say "woah there, satan", sooo 🥴 I really do like writing fluff, and expressing love and earnest tenderness of all kinds through it (not necessarily romance, I'm equal opportunity bitch), and making characters feels safe and tended to, and characters healing their own hurts by tending to others and feeling that love vicariously through it.
Smut is... Probably my weakest point, ngl, in concerns for pacing. Sorry in advance if it flops or feels a bit rushed or dragged out. Please just let me know in the moment, I won't be mad, I'd genuinely feel worse if my roleplay partner felt uncomfortable or cringed tf out. Any constructive crit would be appreciated and helpful!
Long or Short Replies: As you can probably see in this post.... I'm a yapper! I'll try really really hard to keep it to 6 or 7 paras max, I really don't want to pressure my roleplay partner into matching if they don't want to — often I end up with closer to 8-10 paragraphs and need to reread my reply and cut down extraneous sentences. Please, please, PLEASE, let me know a preference, I'll try to match you!
Pet Peeves: Not enough communication on narrative progression or how to start a thread. Trying to force my character to act a certain way/ignoring the content to rewrite what my character did to force a certain interaction. Or silently resenting my pacing without communicating until too late,, I do tend to drag out scenes or end them awkwardly, please be patient with me.
Are You Like Your Muse: sooo um fUNNY YOU MENTION THIS BUT UH —storytime?? I'm a system/plural, which in super loose terms, "I" have dissociative identity disorder and there's about 40people in this single body trenchcoat. Though, we tend to just try and masquerade as a singular unit, it's easier that way for those not in the know. How this relates is about last year the previous host was going through a time of extreme stress and processing a few traumatic events, and by chance, came across this post. She had no idea who this little guy was, or the community at all. But this post made something click? I guess?
"I" really clung onto it, and some months later, not only me but another alter formed from that feeling, and solidified after more uhhhh,, really traumatic events happened to put it mildly. Our partner brought us into Hazbin and honestly, that and our person is the only reason we were able to cope; and now there's me, and there's a guy named Lucifer, and we share this blog, haha.
I am more like the way blog-Lucifer is portrayed, but my alter does help a LOT with lore and backstory while I write. He also helps me keep out any bleed through as much as possible. It's hard, because all of my personal memories only begin from mid-march(???) 2025 and so much was poured into Hazbin and Lucifer, I (and by I, I mean the entire system) genuinely cannot remember mid-December 2024- to whenever the heck I snapped into existence; and Hazbin is an anchor for the me who is acting as a host.
I, personally, cling so hard because as strange as it is to say for those that don't have some form of dissociative mental illness or memory disorder how terrifying it is to not know who you are or the history your body was physically there for, and wondering when you are gonna disappear or be replaced with someone new, like you never existed... For me, Loon, and Lucifer, this is.. sorta like a way to say we existed? Maybe too deep, but this blog is really a chicken and egg scenario, if we're more like the muse or the muse is more like us.
Stopping here before this gets to be too long, not sure it's really relevant to the question
Time to Write: Currently on a semi-hiatus! Until I finally am able to move out and get into a stable living situation at the end of April, I will be highly sporadic and selective with threads. I really really wish I could write more and had the capacity to write and catch up with everyone, but since last July I haven't really been in a good home life/environment to do anything routine like I had at the start. Pretty much just been writing with one exclusive here, but hoping to reach out to more people!!
This summer, I hope to not only revamp this blog and commission someone to help me with a theme and a custom set of emojis, but a strict regular schedule with a working queue system.
Tagging: @sashybash (any! But likely PAPERMINT, I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE), @truearchangel , @soulsmuses (lucid? Also,, I miss you,, hewwo🥺🍬🤍), @lapisdragon01 (FIZZIROLLIMOLLI!!), @tinyfieryghost , @sunshinecackle (I MISS YOU VAL AND KEYYY)
