i'm rewatching the first episode of bridon arc and this whole scene makes me want to scream.
imagine you're cheng xiaoshi. you have abandonment issues due to your parents mysteriously leaving you as a small child. one day you meet a boy, and in his eyes you see the same secrets your parents kept from you. he's kind and good, but he's hiding something, and you're afraid it will take him away from you the same way it took your parents.
and you're cheng xiaoshi, so you can't be upfront and honest about these fears, and you have to mask your vulnerability with jokes. but he doesn't treat it like a joke. he says i won't disappear. he says i can use these powers for you. he says i can't promise forever, but i'll stay here as long as i can.
anyway, they make me ill.
#….suddenly i’m hit with this scenario where lg considers leaving for good as a way to save cxs and everyone#and THEN cxs frustratedly and angrily and tearfully reminds him of his promise here#he’s been so focused on fulfilling his promise at the end that he forgot his promise at the start#like imagine………..augh
@hoarderheart thank you for wounding me further, i am gnawing on the walls of my enclosure
