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@ghostsofruefell
Hey guys. So, I finally got a new job. I've already worked a couple weeks, but I'm still getting used to it and all the new aches and pains it's giving me. But otherwise, I'm happy with it.
That's all I have to update on, really. I hope working will get easier as I adjust and once I start getting my paychecks, I hope I'll feel less stressed and can finally get back to writing.
The LfS anthology now has an official blog
I decided to separate LfS into its own blog because my main is a mess lmao. But I will be able to tag more consistently over there so things should be easier to find.
I just finished it, and I've reblogged the most relevant posts to it. You can find the blog here: @loveforsundown
Note that I'm considering the entire blog Not Safe For Work so anything explicitly that will not be specially tagged.
Also if you sent an ask I never got around to answering (I don't ignore my asks, they just get lost, I promise) you can feel free to resend it to that blog.
If anyone here likes erotica and monster boys and wants to know what my side project is, I now have a blog dedicated entirely to it. This has the first game release and will also be used to announce the second game's release once it's ready.
Commissions open for all my works
So, my mom had to leave one of her jobs last week. She's trying to get a new one, but of course that takes time. I just got back from my trip, so my funds are currently depleted and I'm not back to work yet (I have one day next week, but that's as far as I know atm) so I don't have the money to help out right now. We're not in terrible shape yet, but I want to be sure we can actually afford to eat before someone gets back to her about a job.
So, this is all I can do.
My ko-fi for anyone who wants to donate
$5 for 500 words
$10 for 1000 words
Please message me if you're interested. I will do these as quickly as I am able. Currently, unlimited slots.
Commissions open for all my works
So, my mom had to leave one of her jobs last week. She's trying to get a new one, but of course that takes time. I just got back from my trip, so my funds are currently depleted and I'm not back to work yet (I have one day next week, but that's as far as I know atm) so I don't have the money to help out right now. We're not in terrible shape yet, but I want to be sure we can actually afford to eat before someone gets back to her about a job.
So, this is all I can do.
My ko-fi for anyone who wants to donate
$5 for 500 words
$10 for 1000 words
Please message me if you're interested. I will do these as quickly as I am able. Currently, unlimited slots.
Commissions open for all my works
So, my mom had to leave one of her jobs last week. She's trying to get a new one, but of course that takes time. I just got back from my trip, so my funds are currently depleted and I'm not back to work yet (I have one day next week, but that's as far as I know atm) so I don't have the money to help out right now. We're not in terrible shape yet, but I want to be sure we can actually afford to eat before someone gets back to her about a job.
So, this is all I can do.
My ko-fi for anyone who wants to donate
$5 for 500 words
$10 for 1000 words
Please message me if you're interested. I will do these as quickly as I am able. Currently, unlimited slots.
Hello, followers of this account and the others I will reblog this too. I'm just gonna kinda ramble here, but I also have some important info re: when Ruefell will be completed (and Burwick)
I'm sure people have noticed I have a habit of starting projects and never getting anywhere with them:
Honey and Fire, that was my first try at IF and I was a teenager and had no idea what I was doing and it's just no longer a viable project, so that's cancelled for real.
Burwick Destination, I was still inexperienced and young, so my planning is total garbage and needs to be completely rebuilt from the ground up, perhaps the story will change a good deal when I get around to that. But I'm not ready to do that and I won't be for a while. I'm ashamed of how long it's been on hiatus, so I need to take this time to clear my plate and just not look at it for a while, that way it won't go the way of HoF and take a toll on my mental health.
Magic of Ruefell, my planning is much better and I'm still confident in this one. But it's a big project. Which brings me to my newest project.
The Book of Broken Candles. @bookofbrokencandles This one is my new and primary focus. I feel prepared to see this one to completion.
See... I have problems lol. I'm just gonna level with you guys. I struggle really, really badly with executive dysfunction and some symptoms that lead me to certain labels I can't get diagnosed, but are symptoms that frequently strangle my creative efforts. I was in a much worse place when I started those first three projects (and my not-so-secret other one on my main) so they also got this treatment as I fell into yet another pit that prevented me from working. But I feel like I'm in a better place now. It's not perfect and I'm still slower than hell at writing, but I'm also still writing. Consistently, at that, which is something that hasn't happened for me since my fanfic days in my teens. That's a good sign, to me.
I'm worried about what will happen as we get into December, because I already hate how early the sun sets where I live and I don't do well with seasonal depression. But I won't be too hard on myself, whatever happens, and I hope that will be enough to get me through this season without a great deal of pain to my writing.
But that's neither here nor there right now. I wanted to clear state what's going on in my head right now regarding my projects:
Truth be told, Burwick and Ruefell are too much right now. Burwick moreso, but that's for multiple reasons. I've already said it, but I need to return to it at a much later date and pick up the pieces of my teenage mess.
Ruefell, it's in a way better state, but it is... a big bite to chew right now, in terms of being my first completed IF. So I don't think it can be my first completed IF. Its cast and number of variables are on the large side and I don't want to burn out on it. There's also more promise in the plot that I'd really like to have the experience needed to deliver on.
Candles is... getting a bit on the big side haha. It's seeming larger than I expected when I first conceived of it. But I'm keeping it in a much tighter scope. Its focus is much narrower, I'm more confident in the decisions I'm making to keep the number of variables under control (aka not being too much of a people-pleaser) and I have a set limit on the number of chapters it will have, so I can see the timeline a lot clearer. What this means is basically just that Candles will take a little longer to complete than I initially thought, but it won't be harder to complete.
So here's the timeline: Candles completed -> Ruefell completed -> Circle back around to Burwick and complete that.
Then I'll see what ideas I've shelved in that time. I have some I've been kicking around for a long time, and one that may very well end up being my magnum opus when I get to it. And I think my dream is to one day write a VN. I have an idea, but it is also massive, so maybe I'll manage to make that dream come true with a smaller project before that one.
I think that's all I have to say right now... Thank you, everyone, who's been patient with me all this time. If you still enjoy my work, please follow me over at @bookofbrokencandles and send me asks and stuff, I need engagement to survive or I feel like I'm screaming into a void that won't echo.
Ok, bye.
Y'all I'm working on a new, shorter(?) project. It's an eldritch horror slice of life romance. Got a writing blog over at @bookofbrokencandles to support me in bringing it to fruition.
And on that note, yes, I'm still working on this game as well. 👍
Well... this month is hard.
Despite wanting to write at the start of the year, I got sick early in the month thanks to my mom. I think it was just a cold, but my mom thinks it was Omicron or something. It's not like getting tested was an option for me, so I'll never know. Regardless, that rendered me nonfunctional for a bit over a week. I'm all better now.
But unfortunately, the other night, one of our cats, Goblin, got out and got hit by a car. He had to be put down yesterday, which is really hard to think about because I loved the little guy and I'm gonna miss him. Things aren't going to be the same without him.
I also need a new charger for my laptop, so I've been too nervous to work on anything important until I get that, just in case, so I haven't made any progress this month. I'm gonna try to get back to myself and really get to work in February, but yeah... This has been a hard month.
Happy new year, everyone.
2021 was a struggle, to say the least. But so was 2020. Let's all do our best to make this year better than the last two and hope the universe complies.
I have Plans this year. I have to get a job before October, so I'll be doing that this year. Looking into part-time work, something that's not too hard to do with my disability. I'm very anxious about it, but I'm also looking forward to increasing my independence and bringing a little more money into the household.
That will probably affect my ability to write for a while, but hopefully I'll have already gotten MoR's first two chapters out by that point. Yes, that is also happening this year. I really wanted it to happen in December, but life made that incredibly difficult. I'm not going to call getting MoR's demo out a resolution, because I feel like that implies I otherwise think there's a possibility it won't happen this year and that's just not the case. It will be this year.
For more News for this year:
Burwick Destination is still on hiatus while I think over where I want the series to go. I rushed to start writing that one back then, when it should have stayed in the planning stages longer, and it's embarrassing I have to show you all how long it takes me to pick up my messes. But I'm not rushing. My focus isn't on Burwick right now, but someday in the future. I'm giving it time to marinate and one day it will be back.
A new entry to the Love for Sundown anthology is coming this year, though there might be a minigame out before then. I did not think it would take two years to write a second game, but I also did not expect these past two years to be what they were lol. So, Love for Sundown, back on track. I have many games for it planned, 2-3 already in the work, so we may even get the third entry in the series this year. We'll see.
And the game I will be working on alongside MoR is in the planning stages. Some worldbuilding needs to be filled out a bit more, but it is at the point that I am starting my outline and we may get that demo this year as well.
The years since I started writing IF have been a big learning experience for me and everyday I'm growing and understanding better. I'm embarrassed by a lot that I've done in this time, namely not getting anything done, and how many people have seen that, but I want to thank everyone who is still standing by me, even when I go quiet for so long. I'm going to work hard to make all that worthwhile for you guys.
Thanks again and happy new year.
Happy birthday to the twins, who wants a birthday slap? (I'm kidding, but apparently that's a thing??)
I have NO idea what that is, but does sound like something they'd do to each other
Happy birthday to the Jones Twins
I have nothing for it this year but I've acknowledged it so they can't be mad at me~
In honor of spooky season, what is each of the ROs favorite candy?
Gonna avoid brand-type candy, and I'm gonna have to fudge (heh) history a bit here, cuz only types of candy I can think of (from what I can tell, at least) came a good bit after the period this is set in... but so did telephones, so we're gonna pretend I've already come up with historical lore for why these types of candy are canon in this time period lmao.
Seven isn't much of a sweets person, but I can see him absentmindedly popping a lollipop in his mouth while he works. Maybe cherry. The idea of him tasting like cherries suits him.
Neither is Teddy for that matter, but I do get the feeling he'd like milk chocolate and cotton candy.
Bookie would like sour candy if it existed in this era but I can't pretend that hard lol. It definitely doesn't. Gonna say cotton candy for him, too.
Voca does not eat candy.
Key also doesn't eat candy nowadays, but they're at least familiar with it. When they were a kid, wafer cookies were a reward given to them for various things, so they have a nostalgia about those and would say those are their favorite.
Reiya likes maple lollipops.
And Mel likes both dark chocolate and white chocolate. Really playing the field lol.
So how have you been? Drinking water, resting well?
Not great, but not the worst. Some days are better than others. I've been working on consistently having more fruits in my diet cuz that's been making me feel a lot better, but I drink a lot of water normally so at least I dont have to try on that one lol. I was actually sleeping pretty good until a couple days ago when my usual pain issues started back up, so that's dipped me back into struggling territory. I made myself rest a lot today, tho. Hasn't made it better but prevented it from getting worse, at least.
I'm just getting by.
Ah damn, I was gonna send in an ask but adhd brain went "lol no" and I completely forgot, I hope it's still alright if I do!
So....I know you mentioned the twins' birthday is soon, so how would they celebrate? And happy birthday!
Well, asks can be sent in at anytime 😂 I just took this time to prompt them so I can be more active.
I think the twins would celebrate their birthday quietly and with each other. And, of course, other people who they care about like MC. But they did not celebrate (well, Bookie sort of did for a time, but his heart wasn't full in it) when they were separated.
It's not a sad time, and it's not an overly complicated time, but it's not quite crossed the threshold into being a happy time for them. They used to celebrate in secret when they were kids. Actually, the orphanage did have a birthday tradition for the orphans, but it was a cold and forced tradition. Especially for those two, who were not liked by most of the nuns. So they had their own tradition in private.
In time, as MC potentially grows closer to them, they can inject a bit more fanfare into the day. But as of right now, all the twins go for is a cake shared between them and a quiet moment of reflection, trading memories of a more innocent time.
How surprised are the poly!ROs when they end up in their relationships? Anyone Stunned by the development? Always assumed they were monogamous?
Hm... to skirt spoiling the joy of finding this out in-game, Bookie and Reiya would definitely be surprised to find their own polyamory.
The others are more surprised by being in any type of relationship at this point.
I don't have a question at the moment, but I'd just like to say I'm excited for this story no matter how long it takes. I've already made Pinterest boards to hoard inspiration for three MCs.
😂 You have my full support. I intended to get back to writing it sooner than this, but then my laptop's battery had a tantrum. I hope to get out the first 2 chapters for everyone to play before the year is over! That's my plan, so it'll hopefully not take too long.
Still taking asks today cuz I only got one yesterday lolll
