drunken words till the afterlife.

my sober thoughts.

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[giesbible]

do addicts have to give up on the only thing that can kill and give them life?

I inhaled your scent in like it was oxygen itself

& I’m not stopping, I’m not just drugged, I’m spelled

by your ability to make me struggle differentiating reality from fantasy

so surrender to me, let our bodies sync till we reach ecstasy

intertwine those fingers with mine but I can’t promise not to make a sound

that mouth that utters immaculate words but manages to go south

I knew I was fucked since day one when I let you into my disturbed head

and now my bloodstream is filled with you, the only way out is dead

A part of me hates how this addiction I feel has always been unrequited

but I forget all of that when those eyes meet mine, I’m absolutely defeated

you are my personified drug, I’m high on you, I’m deliberately overdosed

I guess they were right, addicts are blithely compelled souls

[magicalmerry]

❄️“Are ye the ghosts of fallen leaves, O flakes of snow, For which, through naked trees, the winds A-mourning go?” ~John Banister Tabb❄️

Not the best of quality, but I had to capture the magic of these beautiful snowflakes~

[giesbible]

so, butterflies can love winter too

have you ever been stuck out in a blizzard?

I must have when I first met him; I even shivered

for his stare was captivating yet bone-chilling

& those lips not being on mine was unforgiving

he knew his smile was warm but cold words slip out his mouth

parts of him are still unpredictable, he’s dry ice,I can’t devour

oh, the divine duality this man holds was almost immoral

that no one can ever convince me that he’s a mere mortal

God, his beauty stripped off my integrity, leaving me frozen

I feel flurry when his hand is on my thigh, a touch from heaven

he appears fragile as a snowflake but he’s alluring as any vice

his name was Winter but all adored him—even a butterfly.

[moonsong2020]

i bet on losing dogs

a playlist with songs about love going unrequited and hearts getting broken. (based on “i bet on losing dogs” by mitski)

duration: 2 hours and 20 minutes

spotify link: x

apple music link: x

art: spirit hold by holly warburton

[giesbible]

Deadly Zephyr

They say breathing is the easiest thing to do

but they haven’t encountered anyone like you

who pollutes the entire space with his succumbing presence

you make oxygen seem like it has lost its essence

your blustery that tingles me all the way down to my toes

the addicting scent that you own comes in series of blows

how is it that I gasp for you & happen to end up suffocating?

this facade you tried to pull off but you’re actually intoxicating

you come in recklessly like a tornado wrecking my entire being

but you disappear the moment you start catching feelings

& now, my chest continuously swells from the aching pain

of not being able to call out my favorite word, your name

together we’re chaotic, our connection was a typhoon of lies

it’s crazy how I still want you even if all you do is make me cry

you were temporary yet had poisons that will never seize

I’ve mistaken you as air, when you were just a mere breeze

[janasojka]

Landscapes.

[giesbible]

The Loyal Nymph

I feel like clay whenever your fingertips trace across my skin

the forsooth capability of your hands to mold me is a sin

I swear to the heavens, your raw kisses make my world spin

anything near you unfolds, what you touch experiences spring

I am nothing but one of the nymphs in your vast garden

even so, I desperately want to keep you as my own garland

I can’t fathom your existence, the way you are’s almost foreign

it’s like you were personally sculpted for me by God’s hand

Surrendering into my arms doesn’t mean you’ve weaken

It means it’s your turn to grow, there’s no other reason

allow me to help you bloom, let’s create a new intimate season

because us together, it’s more than just a garden, it’s Eden

[giesbible]

Arson

by: gary

I am entirely yours but you were never mine

나의 밝은 별, that angelic face may commit a crime

If I even dare to touch you, I’ll be set on fire

& your very own bare skin is the lighter

But baby, you walk like you’ve got pyro in your hands

The words that slip off your tongue are everything but bland 

& your ability to use them at ease like melting snow

There’s no turning back from your inflicted inferno

If “ I burn for you” is what Simon feels for Daphne

Then being burned by you is what I consider flattery

& yes, saying that sounds like I’ve lost my sanity

But never had my headspace been in such blissful clarity

I’ll let my entire being be consumed by your flame

ugh, I couldn’t care less if you don’t feel the same

My mind is terrified but my heart screams, “you’re why I exist”

I voluntarily submit to be enkindled by you, my arsonist.

to hyunjin 🦋

[lariita019]

[giesbible]

Yin yang

they say I used to shine so bright that they barely see me

and everything you touched is swallowed by your darkness

yet to me, when I look at you all you radiate is my serendipity

but I hate how you’re fully aware that grin of yours is my weakness

it’s like I purposely allow myself to be burned by your fire 

& I’m the ice that you’re afraid of cause you cant outrun me

you say you can’t stand me but baby you’re a pretty good liar

cause when our eyes meet, every part of me is pulsed with ecstasy 

let’s not forget how our connection leads to our own calamity 

in a minute we can go from whispering I love yous  to cursing each other

still, no amount of jealousy in this world can tell me that you’re not for me

your laugh brings me sanity, fuck all the red flags & color me darker 

we’re complete opposites & that explains why we’re so magnetic 

 you drive me mad but despite that I’m utterly crazy about you

I admit your selfishness burns me out but your love is so damn electric 

I’m your ying, you’re my yang, our balance is something no one can undo

[michonnegrimes]

Lily Collins and Sam Claflin as Rosie and Alex in Love, Rosie (2014)          I was me, and you were you… standing where you are right now, perfect. And I took you in my arms, in a manly kind of way, like this, and said, “Rosie Dunne, can I take you to the dance?”

[giesbible]

friendly game of poker

My breath always hitched at the very mention of your name

yet you easily call me “babe” cause to you it’s all fun and games

here I am, confused, why am I upset when you can’t take me seriously

can’t believe that I slowly let you inside my heart, unconsciously

i don't think " just friends" is something we will ever be

cause when I look at you, I realize it’s not the same for me

I’ve always noticed that there’s this thin line that we both knew exist

a line that could either let you disappear entirely or put our friendship to risk

are we still called friends when a word from you completes my day

is it normal for a friend of mine to make me feel this way

to feel irritated when I find out you treat other girls the same

am I a little too selfish if it’s you and not our friendship I want to claim?

cause when I saw you laugh, I began wanting to be your happiness

even longed to be the one who drives you to the edge & make u a mess

to the point that I am the reason why you can’t sleep at night

the person you want to keep despite you going insane because of fights

will I still be able to keep you as a friend, if I let you know

or should I continue to bluff about the feelings that started to grow?

can I take the pain I’m gambling my heart into—will it fold or go all-in ?

either way you’re a poker game that I won’t stop playing till I finally win.

[giesbible]

i won’t love you, maybe.

picture source: https://genterie.tumblr.com/

maybe we can’t force the people we love to stay

to make sure they won’t leave our sight & walk away

& maybe we can’t stop them from making us cry

but i know whenever they hurt me, a part of me dies

& maybe he won’t find someone else’s hands to hold

cause, to him, you’re the only one who felt like home

or maybe your trembling heart is the one left that flutters

cause he’s gotten tired of you & he’s found another

but that’s just maybe----

have you loved someone that made you forget about uncertainty?

have you locked eyes with him without worrying about sincerity?

have you ever wanted someone & didn’t care about security?

fuck, that’s how liberating it feels like to love without maybes.

& darling, i look at you now, and my eyes begin to water

just by the sound of your voice my thoughts are left to wander

should i let you go? you’ve done nothing but drive me crazy

you’re always so confusing, i wanna unlove you but that’s just--maybe.

[giesbible]

car rides.

no, i will not choose to stay with you any longer.

a part of me thought, we're heading towards forever.

but you can drop me right here in the station

done going in circles, we clearly have no destination

stop right here, i can't breathe, i hate to leave u behind

thanks for the ride, think we're done with goodbyes

don't stop the car or even roll down your window

don't look at me like you don't wanna let me go.

pocketed my hands, felt your box of cigarettes

been five seconds, i miss you, you're still in my head

wanted to throw them away but ended up smoking

is this how it feels to be the only one who's been loving

still, i hope my phone rings & it'll be you

my love for you is a bad habit, i don't know what to do

i know this yet, i wish that the nictonine on my lips

was smothered by the hypnotizing taste of your kiss

i look up to see your car parked across the station

what does this mean? am i finally your destination?

he said,"you left yet i unconciously called your name."

i wanted to smile, "this time no more playing games."

[recaption]

[giesbible]

she seemed outrageous, courageous independent and she’s many more but she was in both extremes. she was either too much or too little. she didn’t know if anyone would dare handle her or if anyone still enjoyed a challenge. still, she remained true & she had everything under control— yet she lost sight of it all when a guy with the warmest brown eyes saw right through her. those eyes could see what she was, he knew she was gentle like a summer breeze but had passion as strong as any storm, she was definitely courageous but for a good reason, she had a mouth & she definitely knew how to use it, & to him she wasn’t just many more, she’s so much more. yes, she was never in the middle, she never longed to be normal, it was because she wasn’t any typical girl. she was herself. & in her eyes she saw that this brown eyed boy didn’t mind at all. in fact, he doesn’t want to change a thing.

[recaption]

[giesbible]

i always loved the planet saturn, something about it really captivated me, whenever i look up the sky, it made me wish to see it in person but now that i’ve told you this— when the sky turns dark & above me are millions of stars, it’s now you i search for.