I’m back
It’s been a while since I’ve posted. You see the thing is I've fallen, fallen off my exercise regime, nutrition, and in just life. The crazy thing is that I don’t know where I went wrong, but about 4 months ago I completely lost motivation. I started binge eating again which got me in a seesaw of a lifestyle. One day I’d be okay, the next id be eating until I hated myself, and the day after my binge I would restrict my calories to an unhealthy amount because of guilt. I’ve tried everything, timed snacks, calorie keeper, sufficient calories through the day, but nothing worked. The worst part of it all is that I knew what I was doing while I was in the middle of my binge, but I couldn’t stop. However, this stopped about 3 weeks ago, after my Statistics final I had planned to go buy ice cream, chips, pizza, and a variety of other foods to binge on. Now when I binge, I binge, I'm not speaking of taking bites of everything, I can't stop until I'm done. As I walked to my car I stopped, I looked at the dark night sky and just said to myself: Why do you keep doing this? Why do you keep doing this to yourself knowing it’s making you unhappy? To this day I still can’t the answer to these questions. But, I’ve finally found the inner strength to stop myself. All I truly know is that
I’m back.
