You may (or may not) have noticed that I haven’t posted anything on here for a while, and because I’ve been getting some messages/asks I thought I’d just post a quick explanation instead of just spamming your timeline by replying to everyone individually. So, here we go.
Hawaii Five-0 has been a big part of my life for the past seven years. I fell hard and fast for the charismatic cast, the beautiful scenery of Hawaii and the interesting storylines. I never missed an episode and got up at two o’clock in the morning to watch the show live. I traveled to Hawaii many times, attended fan events and was even fortunate enough to meet some of the cast. In addition to that, I met a lot of amazing friends along the way. I appreciate you all so much.
Unfortunately, as time went on, I realized that I lost some of the euphoria I had in the beginning. I remember when everything about the show was exciting to me. I had my favorites and preferences, of course, but I didn’t spend too much time obsessing over the things I didn’t like. But that changed with time. My bitterness toward certain characters and storylines (or lack thereof) grew steadily and I found myself complaining about everything. I missed the old show, the way it used to be. It started feeling like an obligation to watch the show. Like I had to watch, because I used to love and care about it so much. As you can probably already guess, that didn’t make anything better. On the contrary. I got even more bitter and annoyed. A few years ago, missing an episode would have been a disaster for me. I basically planned everything around the show. That is a whole other issue, though.
Anyway, a few weeks ago I decided to skip an episode. From the moment I read the press release, I knew that I would not like it, so I decided against watching it. And when I woke up the next morning, I realized that I was okay with that. I was okay with not having seen the episode.
Since then, I haven’t watched anything live and I still haven’t seen some of the aired episodes. I stopped constantly checking other people’s social media accounts to see if I’ve missed anything, I haven’t been on AO3 or fanfiction.net and I haven’t posted on Twitter in almost a month. This might sound stupid to you, but it’s a big step for me; a hardcore fangirl. But you know what? I’m good. I realized that this break up is the right thing to do. Because when you lose the joy and happiness a show (or whatever) brings to you, why force yourself to continue?
Hawaii Five-0 has changed my life in many ways. Steve McGarrett and McDanno will forever have a special place in my heart and I will follow Alex’s career until the day he retires. But, for now, I am taking an indefinite break from the show. But, who knows? Maybe something happens and I will return. Never say never, right? Maybe all I need is that one episode to lure me back in.
I will keep all my social media and fan accounts and might even comment or post something. I still care deeply show and certain characters, but I won’t obsess over it anymore. Life is too short.
Alright, now let me get a tissue. Because writing this post has been harder than expected. I feel like I’m breaking up with the love of my life *chuckle*
I’ll always be a fangirl at heart. I’d go so far as to say that it’s a character trait.
See you around, everyone.
