ray [she/her]

PFP: mystii-gur0 (amazing and based father) i check this website once every few months so try not to expect too much activity from me (lie)

[girimano]

hello my intro

ALSO before anything i just wanna say this is a rant/ramble account primarily and i tend not to properly tag my stuff cuz usually im tweaking out when i post so just beware lol (intro under the cut)

hiya im ray, im 16 and use she/her pronouns and am lesbian. im kind of insane in my brain and have other problems that arent autism, ADHD, OCD etc. going on but cant get diagnosed so just be aware. i enjoy drawing and listening to music in my free time!

hyperfixations:

twisted wonderland (rook hunt, scarabia, heartslabyul…)

hetalia (england and romano especially)

hypnosis mic (MTC, FP, BAT, but especially ramuda, rio, dice, and kuko)

identity V (mainly ada / adamil)

special interests/spins:

mitski (2020-)

the crane wives (2024-)

ensemble stars (2022-)

the dragon prince (2018-)

my OCs (2018-)

trigun & trigun maximum (2021-)

collecting (2016-)

Twisted wonderland (2025-)

i have some other things that i’m into as well, so feel free to ask me what i like.

i dont really have a strict DNI/DNF but i’ll likely ignore or block you if you're an adult (also people who are maga, pro-israel etc. can burn). also i technically identify as proship & comship, i dont care if youre an anti or anything as long as youre respectful. i probably wont post anything about it here though but just letting you know

[girimano]

I think i have to block the rook hunt tag atp because im not fucking normal abt this guy

[literally-black-jesus]

All y'all fucking love to say you would have fought Nazis during the Holocaust but now you're too fucking chicken to do it. You have the opportunity. Most armed country and no one's done anything. People are starving to death and you think everyone has the privilege to wait until the next election. How many people have to die for it to be bad enough? If I could I would be out there. I shouldn't have to be the angry one I'm just some random teenager on the Internet. I don't have the resources to fight for my people but you do so fucking do something. If you think you're so good then be it.

[girimano]

the same people will say that they want to make a change in the world but sit back and do almost absolutely nothing when it comes to literally any issue ever. they say they'll care about it but the most they'll ever do to raise awareness and "make a change" is like 1 post on facebook despite having the money/time/etc. to go out and actually DO something about it outside of social media. like dont get me wrong, talking about stuff on social media is good, but you are able to do more, then you should be.

[girimano]

the face of utter horror and (de)realization

[girimano]

the amount of times ive been locked inside or outside of my room the past week or two (or three, i cant remember anymore) is probably enough to give me c-ptsd and im not kidding. "oh i'll fix it tomorrow" my dad told me as he proceeded to do nothing and ive had several panic attacks and mental breakdowns trying to get in/out of my room

[girimano]

NOT TAKING YOUR MEDICATION IS VERY WIRTH IT IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!1!1!1!!!! Hahhahaha Now I cannot sleep ❤️❤️❤️❤️🤞

[girimano]

i feel like a dick but literally why do they only have nonverbal episodes when i get upset i swear this isnt a coincidence it happens so many times someone kill me bruh i think im just evil though can someoje put me in a psych ward please

[girimano]

i have nobody to talk to because nobody wants to talk to me because i dont want anybody to ask me how im doing

[girimano]

everyone was right about me when they said i'll never get better maybe i should just kill myself to make everyone happier

[girimano]

does anyone else feel like a real human being or am i the only one who feels like a hollow empty shell of themself

[girimano]

ive been on and off crying for days now. it feels like nothing will ever get better, so why cant i just lay down and die

[girimano]

i hate how everything nowadays is about sex and romance and kissing because jesus christ its so depressing to live your life as if its the only thing it matters. maybe its because im jealous that ive never had such a relationship with anyone and probably never will. im 16 and ive never even kissed anyone, all my friends tell me it'll come with time but i know it wont. i wouldnt even choose myself and i know nobody else would choose me because im nobodys first choice and im probably not their second or third either. im so sick of hearing about everyones love lifes. i dont fucking care about your boyfriend. i dont care that youre a bottom. i dont care about who you first had sex with. i dont care about any of it. i didnt even need to know any of that??? im so tired man sometimes i wonder if i should just kill myself and sure the month ive gone without my antidepressants have probably contributed to this but god i would rather be dead then have to deal with anything ever again

[vinterfeminism]

Happy Pride Month everyone!! This Pride Month, don't forget about intersex people!! Intersex people aren't some weird anomaly nor a fictional thing, we are real and we deserve a voice and a space and a community. Intersex people may be straight or not (including lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, asexual, or any other sexuality)! They also might be cis or trans or neither or both!! Intersex gender identities can have a very wide variety just like anyone else, and this may be exacerbated by frequently being inconsistently gendered or raised as one gender when their body has traits as what other people may view as the "opposite" (though really men and women aren't all that different so I don't really think there is an opposite, but that's not what this post is about). There are disabled intersex people, intersex people of colour, fat intersex people, old intersex people, young intersex people, and any other type of intersex person you can imagine! It is very possible that you know an intersex person even if you (or even they) don't know it.

This Pride Month, remember to love intersex people and make them feel included in the 2SIALGBTQ+ community!! (I spell the acronym this way since Two Spirit, Intersex, and Asexual and/or Aromantic people are often forgotten or spoken over)

We belong in the queer community, and we deserve to have a voice. Be kind to intersex people and most importantly, try to make an intersex person smile every day this Pride Month!!

[girimano]

now they (my crush) told their therapist about me😭😭 fellas i think we're cooked

[girimano]

crush said were jerkin it to me WHILST WE WERE ON CALL

[girimano]

got really stressed out because of my family fighting over a lot of things and had a seizure after I went to my room

[girimano]

it took me about four minutes to write that

[girimano]

got really stressed out because of my family fighting over a lot of things and had a seizure after I went to my room