[dolletarian-dictatorship]

this identitarian focus on Trve Womanhood has gotten so bad i expect we will see unironic appropriation of radfem moon goddess shit within like six months

[yoshspace]

i want help ok

HI you might remember me from ,

but also! living in a very upsetting place and getting yelled at a lot while facing systemic discrimination/unemployment while dealing with the realities of whatever the hell is going on in the braincase + our brother keeps trashing his room and screaming about us making noise and instead of saying "hey you shouldn't do that" the family is doubling down on curfews and weird bullshit and IT'S KINDA HARD BEING PROBABLY SCHIZOIDALpluraltrans while grown men are resenting you more every day and HEY we got an idea:

we can leave!

but we can't but if we had gas money and maybe a bit extra for food we COULD https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/yobsh helpmeplease

[fungaldeity]

i think it’s really cool and mature how we’re pretending on here that femboys can never be a category of transfeminine individuals. glad to see that we are reinventing the irrational sissy-shunning of years past and present, but in a new form to catch out all the younguns as well.

on the other hand it is pretty funny how supposedly ardent transfeminists are reinventing the binary of (true) Transsexual vs (implicitly artificial) Femboy/Sissy/Etc like i think you would agree with blanchard if he posted like halimede

[assaultmystic-archive]

i have talked about it before but the level of animosity towards non-normative transfemininities on here is repugnant. routinely i will find that after a round of chatter about eg sissies, femboys, crossdressers - any specific reference to AMAB identities that could be called nonbinary rather than just a vague gesture in the direction, there are a handful of supposed transfeminists who will begin to sneer about how this is “centering men” (whatever that means). with absolutely no awareness of what dynamics in feminist history this might be aping.

[transsexualradicalfeminist-deac]

Okay, man. Now let's talk about women?

[assaultmystic-archive]

when you start to call trannies men, well, you must have learned a lot from your radical feminist heroes. i am not a man and it hurts me and frightens me when i am called one. is this your feminism? you keep your girls in line with the threat that they will be men, and ejected from what little safety we can buy each other when we disagree? i would like you to take a look at yourself and what you are doing, and i would like you to never speak to me again.

[maimonidiva]

everytime İ log on here İ feel less in touch with what is thought of as transfeminism

[maimonidiva]

İ simply don't and won't find myself compelled to believe that tma non-selfsubsumation under womanhood is a reactionary trait born out of untransitioned naïveté at best or transmisogynie at worst. Beyond it being personally insulting İ just don't see much potential in a feminist mode of thought the first step of which is identitarian prescriptivism

[girl-eater]

yes it's time for another indefinite break I think

[girl-eater]

i think there's just only so much I will put up with and I've hit my limit. this is and always has been unmistakeably a radfem/transmed infested site in every way, (including the scarce transfem community here,) and it's just not a pleasant or mentally healthy place for me to be with how much that rhetoric is spreading and escalating. I don't want to be part of tumblr any more than i want to be part of 4chan at this point. there are a small handful of people here I respect, but its not worth it to hang around just for that.

i'll check my DMs every now and then to see if anyone asked for my discord.

maybe I'll change my mind later if I get bored enough. maybe I won't.

[girl-eater]

yes it's time for another indefinite break I think

[dolletarian-dictatorship]

no yeah i actually think it's lovely that even though i pass now i can still recreate the "entering a Woman's Space early on in your transition and being treated with immediate suspicion" experience, except at the hands of other transfems, just by refusing to call myself the right magic words

[girl-eater]

I don't really actually want to talk about all the hypocrisy and cruelty on this site because it doesn't feel productive, nothing is gained, nothing is preserved by it. but sometimes I'm just so disgusted what I see that it's hard not to say anything. it's gross, it's abhorrent to me. this is not a good place, it is steeped in bitter acid. the moments of positive connections are lovely, it feels good to be heard and to hear others' voices, but the constant screeching noise of purposeless hatred against hatred often drowns that out. even when I try not to let it, tumblr tires me out. it's just a lot. I don't think this is something I want to spend my energy on as much as I have been. maybe I'll delete it off my phone or something so I only check it on my pc. we'll see.

[girl-eater]

I have generally been reflecting a lot on what is worth my energy and what is not, after coming to terms with the fact that I have precious little of it.

[weepingcandies]

See the thing is "queer community" has always been a smokescreen for a set of socially normative conventions USAmerican and (typically) white queers append to themselves in order to remain palatable to their parents at family gatherings and shareholders, and thus a cudgel to utilize against undesirables, but the thing that gets me the most is the call for "unity" and of course this is just a call for reestablishment of normalcy, but beyond that, whenever it is called out it carries a twinge of nostalgia for something that never existed. The implication that all those outside of cissexual normality were, or perhaps might still be "unified" and that whatever behavior unsettles the perceiver is disruption, disunity, rocking the boat, and we should just stop thinking about whatever created this "instability" at all costs (read: the desires or observations of those who are less important in the ingroups established hierarchy of petit bourgeois digital illustrators and AO3 users)

[girl-eater]

so true Vala

[girl-eater]

like and share if you're part of the femboy porn clique

[girl-eater]

an overwhelming malaise hangs in the air today. I feel it in my lungs and my blood. trying to fight through it.

[girl-eater]

getting sad every time I check my inbox because it has the corpse-blog of a transfem who was afraid of the backlash of being too much of a boy for other transfems' liking and responded privately to my ask telling them it's okay. they got deleted from the site as all the transmisogynised eventually do, boy or not. now that hesitant echo remains in my inbox, and I haven't been able to find and recognise them again. I hope they are able to be more of who they want to be now.

I try not to talk about this sort of thing all the time any more, but it's always heartbreaking to see the structures transfems mimic from cis people to wield against each other. it shouldn't be like this, none of us are disposable or unnecessary.

[girl-eater]

what can I even say at this point other than fix your hearts or die. there are no other words left.

[girl-eater]

getting sad every time I check my inbox because it has the corpse-blog of a transfem who was afraid of the backlash of being too much of a boy for other transfems' liking and responded privately to my ask telling them it's okay. they got deleted from the site as all the transmisogynised eventually do, boy or not. now that hesitant echo remains in my inbox, and I haven't been able to find and recognise them again. I hope they are able to be more of who they want to be now.

I try not to talk about this sort of thing all the time any more, but it's always heartbreaking to see the structures transfems mimic from cis people to wield against each other. it shouldn't be like this, none of us are disposable or unnecessary.

[girl-eater]

when we were in kindergarten there was a girl who kept making everyone argue and be mean to each other for no reason so we bit her and got in trouble but she stopped after!! many of u here need a good biting

[himejoshikomaeda]

trans girls need money

i'm so sorry, i can't really give out details right now, but @sheepy-0 and i are very suddenly in desperate need of donations. please, please help if you can.

paypal: [email protected]

venmo: himejoshikomaeda

cash.app/$himejoshikomaeda