[girlfriendnumber16]

i’m always of the OPINION that u can’t really compress a human life into neat little labels or clean edges. you’re not something that's supposed to fit into a box. a box. singular. u see that?

we’re constantly shifting things and that’s kind of the point.

[girlfriendnumber16]

#spiritually living like this

[girlfriendnumber16]

oh. well

[girlfriendnumber16]

#spiritually living like this

[girlfriendnumber16]

fuck i don't know how to explain this right but does anyone know how to stop this kind of anxiety like when your chest is tight and your throat feels all knotted & your brain won't shutup. ive been trying to breathe slow and do the grounding thing and distract myself but nothing's working. it’s been 2 days of this and i’ve also tried sleeping all day just to not feel it but it comes back the second i wake up every time and i don’t know how to sit with it bcs it’s too much it’s too loud it hurts and it feels like if i don’t fix the thing that caused it i'll never feel okay again but i also can’t fix it. it's out of my control and i feel like shit, just stuck. i just want it to stop just stop for a second so i can breathe like really breathe, just want quiet inside my head and in my chest and i don’t know what to do i really don’t know what else to do.

it’s exhausting i just want one moment where it doesn’t feel like this where i don’t feel like i’m drowning in something i can’t name

[girlfriendnumber16]

the feeling that i couldn't quite name at the time was crippling anxiety. probably looks like a bit of an overreaction now but that’s mostly bcs i’ve moved on since then #yas

[girlfriendnumber16]

i've been through my share of blues, but i’m not really at a bad place now which is enough to make me briefly entertain the idea of adopting a cat. Realistically though, i know they’re a bit beyond my current survival skills when it comes to maintenance so i’ll just continue with my arrangement of emotionally adopting my friend’s cat (friends' cats) from a safe distance

[girlfriendnumber16]

Nice rebrand:) i like the colors

yaY. missed seeing u around here. hows life been lately? so so good to see u back again

[girlfriendnumber16]

last night was my humble attempt at

[girlfriendnumber16]

i live 2 luv my friends #myfriends

[girlfriendnumber16]

I'm very sorry you were going through that last time you posted.

oH actually things have really improved for me mentally; these days i've been feeling more at ease

[girlfriendnumber16]

are you okay?

you seem to be new around here

[girlfriendnumber16]

i can’t do anything. nothing works. music isn’t helping. i’m just sitting here stewing in this horrible anxiety & it won’t stop. i’ve tried everything i know how to try. i can’t breathe. i can’t think. i just want it to end. i don’t care how. i can’t do this anymore. pls just make it stop. please. i’m so tired

[girlfriendnumber16]

fuck i don't know how to explain this right but does anyone know how to stop this kind of anxiety like when your chest is tight and your throat feels all knotted & your brain won't shutup. ive been trying to breathe slow and do the grounding thing and distract myself but nothing's working. it’s been 2 days of this and i’ve also tried sleeping all day just to not feel it but it comes back the second i wake up every time and i don’t know how to sit with it bcs it’s too much it’s too loud it hurts and it feels like if i don’t fix the thing that caused it i'll never feel okay again but i also can’t fix it. it's out of my control and i feel like shit, just stuck. i just want it to stop just stop for a second so i can breathe like really breathe, just want quiet inside my head and in my chest and i don’t know what to do i really don’t know what else to do.

it’s exhausting i just want one moment where it doesn’t feel like this where i don’t feel like i’m drowning in something i can’t name

[girlfriendnumber16]

despise how i always feel like it’s the end of the world, when it’s really just the start

[girlfriendnumber16]

beyond repair. fucked up so bad i’d do anything–kill to rewind just one day

[girlfriendnumber16]

i feel like anxiety’s gonna kill me before the iron deficiency has a chance

[girlfriendnumber16]

people with a cold are unintentionally hilarious. like im over here offering you soup and youre curled up like a victorian orphan whispering “i welcome death” ok dramatic plague rat do you want that served with lemon or a side of garlic? you’re NOT dying. dont die. you’ve got a lifelong contract to outlive me so suck it up and take your damn chai

[girlfriendnumber16]

i wish i could find it in my heart to tolerate people when im overstimulated but man