The Cappuccino Chronicles

The author is a caffeine-induced human being who is always mistaken as a snob but is in fact just really awkward at conversations with earthlings. Loves to write but too lazy.

[girlonpjs]

I’m counting the days until you decide to leave again 

My guard is up in case you decide that you don’t want this and that you made a mistake coming back. 

My “I love you’s” are hollow now. They don’t hold the same weight and the same intensity of when I used to love with all of me. 

I don’t want to give my all to people anymore.

I find comfort in the things you fail to do because I want to nitpick imperfections to know that this is real. 

I’m counting the days when we’re happy. Versus the days when we’re sad. 

I am afraid that you will leave again when I decide to fully let you in again. 

But your embrace is warmer and tighter this time around. 

Your kisses are not the same kisses you used to give me. They are deeper now. 

When you hold my hand, it’s tight and you don’t want me to let go. You used to let go of my hand before.

But the memory of how you left still plays in my head.

How you left me standing in the street while you buy yourself breakfast. 

How you never said another word to me again.

I don’t know what I’m feeling right now. 

I guess this is what hurt does to people. 

[girlonpjs]

Akala ko

Kala ko nung araw na bumalik ka, magiging masaya na ako. 

Akala ko masasagot na lahat ng katanungan na naiwan nang umalis ka. 

Akala ko ikaw ang magiging kasayahan ko at magtatapos ng lungkot. 

Pero nung bumalik ka, parang may nagbago. 

Mas mahigpit na nga ang hawak mo sa kamay ko... pero hindi ko na gusto kung gaano mo kagustong hindi ako bitawan. 

Mas mainit na nga ang mga yakap mo pero mas gusto ko nang matulog mag-isa kahit pa malamig ang kaliwang parte ng unan ko. 

Mas matagal na nga ang mga halik mo... pero mas gusto ko ang laya ng paghinga.

Mas madami ka ng kwento... pero mas gusto ko na ang katahimikan pag ako na lang mag-isa. 

Akala ko noong nawala ka, hahanapin ko kung ano at paano tayo. 

Pero nung sinabi mong gusto mong bumalik tayo sa dati... parang ayoko na. 

Ayoko na bumalik sa kung saan ako nanggaling at nadapa. Gusto ko nang bumangon at maglakad palayo patungo sa lugar kung saan malayo sa mapanakit mong salita at kilos. 

Kaya ko ng wala ka. Ah, hindi. Masaya akong wala ka. 

[girlonpjs]

Sulat

Magaling magsulat ang jowa ko. Feeling ko nga minsan mas magaling siya magsulat kesa sa akin. 

May mga salita siyang ginagamit na kailangan ko pang buksan ang dictionary app ko para malaman ang meaning. 

Magaling magsulat ang jowa ko. Nagme-maintain siya ng dalawang blog: sports and literary. Yung sports blog niya, iba ang pagkakasulat. Parang beteranong sports writer talaga siya. Minsan lang ako humanga sa mga manunulat na kasing edad ko at kakilala ko, pero hangang hanga ako sa sports writing skills ng jowa ko. 

Pero mahirap kausap ang jowa ko. Ayaw niyang nagtatanong ako sa mga problema. Ayaw niyang naguguluhan ako kahit sobrang gulo naman talaga. 

Kung anong kinagaling niyang magsulat, siyang kinapanget niyang kausap. 

Pag nagagalit siya, bigla siyang tatahimik at maglalaro sa iPad. Hindi niya ako kakausapin ng isang buong linggo (minsan tatlo). 

Ang lakas ng topak. 

Akala ko dati topakin na ako, mukhang nakahanap ako ng katapat ko. 

Kung anong kinadaldal ko, siyang kinatahimik niya sa bawat away namin. Hindi ko siya makausap, parang bato sa tigas. 

Sana kung gaano siya kagaling magsulat, kung gaano siya ka-eksperto sa paghabi ng mga salita at letra upang makabuo ng pangungusap, ganoon din siya kaeksperto sa pagpapagaan ng loob ko. 

Kasi ang bigat. 

[lilyadoreparis]

Restaurant Chez Julien, 1 Rue du Pont Louis-Philippe, Paris 4e.

Photo Mary Quincy

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me 

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Photos by Chasity Lollis (via TheRealDerv)

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[visual-poetry]

»everything is fine. keep shopping.« 

MaSAT (madrid street advertising takeover)

[grace--upon--grace]

[buzzfeed]

19 Things Your iPhone Can Do That You Didn’t Know About

[saddest-cat-hours]

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[askdoctorknow]

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Now in hi res, the cover of my new book Turtles All The Way Down, out October 10th 2017.

Cover designed by Rodrigo Corral! Find out how to get a (probably) signed copy (US/Canada only) at probablysignedturtles.com or my website. 

[allthingseurope]

Santorini, Greece (by Art Eroso)

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Why not both? (via AlexiaHuggans)

[instagram]

Celebrating 20 Years of Harry Potter with Illustrator @taryndraws

For more Harry Potter-inspired illustrations, follow @taryndraws on Instagram.

Like millions of others around the world, Taryn Knight (@taryndraws) first discovered the magical world of Harry Potter when she was a young girl, and hasn’t stopped loving it since. “I just kept reading them over and over,” she says of author J.K. Rowling’s book series. “Something just clicked. I was immediately obsessed.”

It wasn’t until Taryn, a Colorado-based freelance illustrator, was older that her love for all things witchcraft and wizardry began to manifest itself in her drawings. “I didn’t do a lot of art when I was first reading the books,” she says. “But once I started drawing regularly, my passion for Harry Potter began to creep in.”

Taryn, a self-proclaimed Hufflepuff, is excited about the celebration surrounding #HarryPotter20, the 20-year anniversary of the UK release of the first book in the series, “Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone.” “It seems to be reigniting everyone’s love for the Potter world,” she says. “It feels a bit like that old familiar buzz of a new book release.”

[teenagecrush]