𐙚 ellie

‧˚꒰ @pawpadd ୭ ˚. girlre - based blog! ꜱꜰᴡ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏɴʟʏ

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⭐️ this is my primary (one out of two) and most active regression blog, as I usually feel and identify as female, mostly feminine &/or soft while little!

paddedre community! to do list

I would still heavily urge that you read my main blogs before you interact, It covers everything you would need to know about my behavior and disorders if you would like to get to know me on a personal (/r, /p or /fam) level. (If you find reading overwhelming, or to read that much there is a TLDR (short summary) at the end.)

In this blog there will be color coordinated categories for words or certain phrases! all of which will be listed down below with context for those interested

red :: PLEASE READ. blue :: important/emphasizing green :: this blog only (can be interests, pronouns, etc.) pink :: primary identity in this blog purple :: sub, partial or extra pieces of an identity in this blog orange :: identity or other preferably used in main/other side blogs blank/no color :: if an identity isn’t colored it relates to me permanently/always.

16yo , (13+) any age can interact!

this blog may include :: potty mouth (minimal cursing and will be tagged), baby babbles/talk and rambles, plausible vents (there will be a warning and division so one doesn’t stumble across it unwillingly), agere art (fandom, kemonomimi, yume, girlre and padded centered, open to all SFW requests), and more!

this blog also includes a lot of bright colors, and is primarily pastel rainbow/pink girlre and paddedre themed. I apologize if this page is not suitable for any littles, but is also aimed to express myself.

I go by ellie, el or els! I also don’t mind still being called heavy, but I would really appreciate suggestions for new names! (preferably shorter, simpler and sweeter sounding names.)

he/him/his, she/her/hers, it/its, that/thats (+ shi/sie/shy hyr/hys/hir/hirs, fe/fem/fems, fay/fayr/fays/fae/faem/faer/faers, se/sem/sems, sei/seir/seris, di/div/divs, lee/lim/lis/li/lir/lirs.)

. . . (all hoard) xenopronouns I identify with / use most :: wa/waa/waas/waaself, ba/baa/baas/baaself, wuf/woof/woofs/woofself, girl/girls/girlself, and all canine (dog/pup) related.

all terms are okay but feminine and nonhuman are preferred, please refrain from using gender neutral direct (to my face) terms and refrain from using they/them as a whole.

I prioritize little for caregiver, pet for handler, and little for flip romantic, poly or fwb relationships! But typically prioritize and prefer little for little friendships/siblings!

in this blog I feel more feminine, and identity as primarily cisgender female. I’m more labeled as “genderfluid” while regressed as my gender, identity and pronouns fluctuate fluidly and occasionally rapidly while staying consistent and under the masculine umbrella while outside of regression. (hyperfem to hypermasc spikes with inbetween, then along with spikes of dysphoria from both either separate or together.)

I am also a therian, kemonomimic otherkin and fictionkin! I generally identify as nonhuman. (most of my kins may also have different, similar or the same exact sources as some of my alters.)

main kins :: nonhuman, alien, animal, jinx, shoya ishida, mike wheeler & jax

other kins :: sonic, tails, fizzaroli and blitzo!

plausible kins :: weird kid, zombie, shadow, dazai

I use canine vivterms, and do not identify as a human! (though consciously I understand I will never be not human, I am (all four) a kemonomimi, therian, pet regressor and plausible furry!) and will on occasion absentmindedly refer to myself in the third person when I am comfortable, or when regressed incredibly small.

I am a recent permanent ageslider regressor, in short terms meaning I am permanently a child! This does not fully impair or disable me, and I can be quite independent. this is a coping mindset I get stuck in to help me process and handle emotions, trauma, and/or past memories. Eighty percent of the time I am infant to toddler (0-4), and very rarely kid (5-7) regressed, but outside of that I am stuck mentally at the ages (preteen) 10-12.

I do not have a caregiver, and really immensely fear directly looking for one online due to stories and past experiences online in general. That does not mean I do not want a caregiver, and I am more than open to having one. as of right now, I am a platonic and sharing yume!

I am not new to the age regression community at all, I’ve been lurking for a couple of years but have only recently a couple months ago started being properly active due to the ability to safely regress and express myself in my (new and healthier) environment, I’ve been regressing knowingly and unknowingly for about six years now. (Though it is suspected to have been longer.)

i am a padded regressor! I use diapers for comfortability reasons, sensory purposes and the fact that they help me fully regress but I do not use them. I feel often uncomfortable without them, and underwear can be a sensory struggle for me but also a wet diaper is also a sensory nightmare. I also very much rely on a pacifier, teether or chewlery due to oral fixation and the constant need to be stimming. (I usually feel permapacified, and on occasion permapadded!)

I struggle a lot with sensory issues, making me more prone to meltdowns and irritated moods. My younger regression recently has been caused by the ability to communicate and express myself freely with no consequences, proper emotional support and professional care, the ability to release bottled up emotions, etc. I am in no way obligated to share my past, current or (plausible) future trauma online to anyone, any creature, or anything for any or all reasonings.

I enjoy more hands on and physical activities that don’t involve getting myself messy, such as building, working on my blogs or working on flags, journaling and scrapbooking, coloring, drawing and painting, editing, dress up, playing with toys, overall pretend play. I enjoy the more nostalgic, outdoorsy aspects and tend to cater towards those rather than regress outwardly online, as sometimes games and devices can be too difficult, overwhelming or frustrating for me to use while regressed. I apologize if there may be dry (little to no) activity or inactivity.

my aesthetic can and may fluctuate a lot throughout posts, I have a hard time sticking to one and find it easier to have and express multiple in different, separate or combined ways. this may or may not be linked to the fact I cannot stick with one identity and how complex it is.

I’m being incredibly brief and vague with my regression and how much details I share due to the fact I don’t want to be too personal and share too much information. I am incredibly comfortable with sharing uncomfortable areas about myself because I find it difficult to be triggered by things online, I may seem vulnerable but I am also incredibly intelligent.

a tag guide list will be listed below!!!

#★ mainposts — posts I make while big / majority of my mindset is out of regression, simple posts talking about my girlre, paddedre or the two topics overall in general!

#★ mature pup — posts with this tag may include light cursing (with maybe even just one to two), more mature or sensitive topics, etc

#★ babybabbles — posts I make while I’m infant to toddler regressed, may include babbles or random things that may or may not make sense lol.

#★ pacifier collection — posts dedicated to and showing off my pacifier collection!!! (images are always attached.)

#★ haul — posts dedicated to showing off new things I got that I would like to share or show off, especially around my birthday or the holidays!

#★ TRIGGER WARNING — posts with this tag may include harmful, triggering or deeply sensitive topics, be a vent or negative rant, or talk about topics that other smalls may not feel comfortable with viewing.

#★ headcanons — posts dedicated to fictional characters and regression hcs!

#★ girlre centered #★ paddedre centered

#★ regular art #★ yumeship art #★ agere/petre art #★ kemonomimi art #★ fandom art/fanart

#★ suggestion/request #★ anon request

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my spin on the infant (0-2) regression flag!

@pawpadd redesign :: I decided to add more colors, make them softer and blurrier and I didn’t add a symbol.

📕 “simple minded” regression :: there are more colors to represent how bright and vibrant the world can be during regression, they are softer and hazier to represent how light, nostalgic and freeing this regression can feel, the lack of a symbol is to represent the freedom or healing of stress and trauma. during this regression, one may feel easily amused or entertained, frightened easily or sensitive, infant mannerisms (such as nonverbal communication, newborn reflexes, coos, etc.) and may become more dependent on their caregiver.

this isn’t a personal flag, and is f2u by anyone!

credit isn’t necessary but is appreciated

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pink pastel rainbow girlre, lazy moodboard!

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flip! gallavich hcs

+ moodboard at end!

req rules

LONG POST

+ tiny trigger warning as this post mentions traumas!

mickey is autistic and has cptsd with healing narcissistic/npd traits! lifelong undiagnosed

ian has hyperactive adhd and bipolar 1 disorder and is both properly diagnosed and medicated.

both are flips, finding and incorporating ways to take care of eachother. mickey regresses a lot more occasionally than ian does, but ian finds more satisfaction from and copes better when caregiving than regressing.

mickey has been regressing a lot longer than ian has, ian would figure it out first term wise. (likely during a therapy / psychologist session.)

mickey would be reluctant, confused, and refuse to admit his regression at first. ian didn’t quite understand or believe in regression until he began researching more, convincing mickey to try it once. (it ended up sticking.)

mickey and ian ended up having an incredibly long talk about it, mickey mostly communicating his feelings and needs while regressed.

during the once in a blue moon they both regress, they typically enjoy outdoor (backyard) and tv play dates together. they both yearn for that 1990s - 2000s childhood replica and prefer regression off of online.

fiona would find out first after finding a pair of mickey’s nappies in the laundry, she was wildly & surprisingly supportive (happy the two had some sort of healthy coping skill) though only ever babysat once or twice. then lip would, after catching ian watching cartoons with a stuffed animal, lip took a (long) while to understand but eventually became Ian’s primary caregiver outside of mickey. (babysitting both, both stayed closeted!)

⭐️ trauma (tough as nails) & agesliding padded babyre/toddlere mickey, deer in headlights + bipolar regressor & kidre ian

mickey regresses due to a lot of trauma, he had grown up too fast + exposure, having gender stereotypes and homophobia pushed on him heavily, living with undiagnosed neurodivergence, and dealing with his abusive father.

he typically regresses to age three, but can be fluid from ages one to six. his memories are a blur in this mindstate due to amnesia, c - ptsd and the lack of feeling safe as a child, as he is trying to regain his childhood.

mickey refused to let himself regress for a while after he figured out the proper term and definition for it, starting to catch onto when he feels like he needs to slip. that stopped very quickly with Ian on watch.

mickey was defiant, stubborn and an angry little the first couple of times ian had properly taken care of him. eventually learning to properly release and cope with his emotions during regression. (he learned to be happy while healing.)

he was also very ashamed of his regression at one point, going through spikes of “I’m a big independent boy” and forced suppression, causing him to involuntarily slip into younger and more dependent regression. (ian always catches on immediately, which he would get rlly frustrated about afterward.)

ian helped mickey a lot with harmful stimming / destructive behaviors that mickey could’nt let go (hitting, nail/skin biting and picking, etc) during the early stages of figuring out mickeys regression, now he tends to rely on pacifiers and teethers or easy (baby) stim toys.

mickey has highs and lows in his regression, going through a rollercoaster of emotions. he finds he has a lot of emotional numbness / disconnection outside of regression, making it difficult to cry or release emotions when big.

mickey is very easily entertained & amused, finding simpler play activity fun. easier / children video games, cartoons, coloring, play pretend, imagining, i-spy, simon says, etc

ian regresses due to growing up too fast and being exposed to a lot of things one shouldn’t as a child. he finds this state much more freeing, and finds he doesn’t mask whatsoever.

ian is an entirely voluntary regressor, with occasional involuntary after depressive, self destructive or paranoia episodes.

Ian regresses to ages 8-10, but is primarily in between. ian remembers most of his childhood, though mostly lacked good memories. using his agere to at least regain and heal some missing or empty pieces.

he was actually more supportive of his own regression when he found out, after helping mickey heal and being his primary caregiver. he regresses at least once or twice every month.

ian is actually very well behaved, quite friendly and talkative and very bubbly while small! his agere helps him process his emotions, stress and thoughts properly, allowing him to fully comprehend a negative situation and he finds it easier to cry outside of regression.

ian prefers more handsy and moving activities. action movies, playing outside, running & physical activities, finger painting, immersive play, toys and action figures, parallel play

definitely a potty mouthed regressor, finding self control and impulsivity the most struggling. though he got better with support!

Ian doesn’t really enjoy any regression gear, though it may be due to the lack of and excessive sharing he had to deal with as a child. the most he uses when regressing really young is a teether!

he actually really enjoys being independent, it gives him a sense of positive control over his childhood and emotions, as well he doesn’t feel like he’s obligated to share anything.

mickey is higher in needs, and less functioning when regressed! while ian seems to stay high / mid functioning.

⭐️ protective big bro + 420 caregiver mickey, bandaid + self caregiver ian

mickey is more about actions than words, having finding it difficult to talk to children for the longest time. He does his best, finding giving comfort was the most difficult thing to learn. but, he still refuses to give any other children comfort if it isn’t little Ian.

mickey had a lot of learning to do, Ian teaching him patiently in and out of his regression. mickey eventually learned how to communicate to, caretake and comfort Ian. (which he mastered.)

he adores that Ian regresses a bit older, the two often play fighting (mickey going easy) or playing sports together. though, he once figured out Ian enjoys parallel play, he incorporates more activities they could do together on their own.

mickey does his absolute best not to be like his dad, finding it easier to communicate to little Ian. he’s surprisingly an incredibly good teacher! he’s very cautious with his words, especially ones that hurt him as a child.

mickey is very lenient, allowing Ian to do pretty much everything he wants with like three rules, (no strangers, talk to him when he has self destructive thoughts, and communicate.) though he is also very protective. he knows how to properly discipline Ian without any harm.

Ian 100% spoils mickey, buying him things left and right typically without mickeys knowledge. (mickeys pacifier and stuffed animal collections grew HUGE and very fast, tons of mystery boxes they opened together, much more.)

ian makes tons of dad jokes, both for the cringe and the laugh. though only really ever does it to hear mickey laugh. (mickey says they’re dumb, secretly really enjoys them, sometimes with an occasional giggle!)

— he really enjoys the sound of mickeys laughter, had already been wanting to be a dad… so mickeys regression fulfilled both of their separate needs.

Ian is very lenient too, but is much stricter with mealtimes and screentime. he really tries to be strict with bedtime, but finds himself losing track or staying up late as well.

— he also finds himself more cuddly at night, and adores mickey’s rare affection. Ian really tries to hold mickey as much as he can, showering mickey with so many kisses, holding his hand everywhere they go.

Ian likes to be depended on, without it being a 24/7 job. though… he could never consider mickey a burden, finding it an easier role and dynamic easier to be depended on. (he really likes doing everything for mickey, tying his shoes, setting up his games and play area, filling his sippy cup, etc.)

— he is an incredible caregiver and was already great with kids, even with mickey being considered high needs he still adores his baby. (Ian definitely babies mickey way way too much.)

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my motivation fluctuates frequently!!!

fandoms boards hoards community

(reminder: I have the human right to say no!) I don’t mind making moodboards for fandoms or pieces of media I don’t know anything about! ( brief explanations appreciated! )

— however, I can’t do this for headcanons as a brief explanation will not allow me to the most accurate of versions. sorry!! :(

maximum amount of characters is three to four characters, due to how long my posts with only two characters can get!

there is no estimate for how long but my work does take time! It may not come out directly after or even the day after you request, and some requests may have more words than others! this is NOT due to favoritism.

I do stim/moodboards of sfw all kinds, but prioritize agere / caregiver requests! If you have an exact custom let me know! (aesthetic, shape of images, pngs, colors, etc.) if no specifics, entirely creators choice <3

— I can add headcanons to any boards, just ask!

always open!!!

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highlighted is priority!

‧˚꒰ @girlypawpadd / @pawpadd ୭ ˚. art

- none atm!

‧˚꒰ @girlypawpadd ୭ ˚. headcanons

- agere shadow, cg sonic

- caregiver! mama abby (tlou)

‧˚꒰ @girlypawpadd ୭ ˚. short stories

- caregiver! mama abby

‧˚꒰ @girlypawpadd ୭ ˚. long stories

- caregiver! papa logan (movies)

‧˚꒰ @pawwboards ୭ ˚. boards

- regressor shadow (sth)

- regressor ellie (tlou)

‧˚꒰ @pawsflagspam ୭ ˚. flags

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‧˚꒰ @pawwhoards ୭ ˚. hoard

- make introduction post

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⭐️ posted it!