Alone

Just last the year..

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"Night four that I'm alone with my thoughts of you." (Jan 30, 2016)

m.

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"Give me something to numb the pain and take your memory away."

m.

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I want to text you, just to tell you that I'm still here and always will be. To remind you about me, let you know I still think about you constantly. But I remember that, you know I'm still here; you just don't care.

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Back to the usual night of crying. If only you knew.

m.

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I’ve been through too much pain that I wasn’t strong enough to walk away from to run back into your arms now.

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Glad to see you're sitting there happy and laughing on snapchat. Yeah, fuck you.

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"I don't think I have any tears left."

m.

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"So was it your plan? To make me believe I was worth it? Was it all a joke to you?"

m.

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You hurt me. You ruined me. You fucking ruined me! Can't you see what you've done? You sit here last night telling me you want to take a break, that it'll be fine. You promise me you'll still be here. You promised we would still text, you promised not to leave after I poured my heart out to you. After I opened up completely, telling you I'm afraid to be alone again. After I begged not to be left behind. You promised me you wouldn't leave! But where are you now? I hate that I love you. I want to scream and tell you how much I hate you. But we both know that's a lie.

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Somebody real is hard to find, worth all your time. Somebody who can tell you the truth, who loves you for you. Someone who knows all of your flaws and doesn’t impose, try to control them; lets you be free. Doesn’t deceive. They give you a chance to believe, believe in something.

t.

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I made a promise. A promise to forever love you. And a promise never to hurt myself again. Though I realize I will continue to love you; I fear that I will become too weak to restrain myself.

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I don’t need you, but I want you.

j.a

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He doesn’t want you anymore. Can’t you see?