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Xion swallowed as he stood, eyes drifting down to where her hands fisted in the edge of her night shirt. The clothes she wore to bed, soft shorts and a t-shirt she borrowed (stole) from Lea. She blinked her eyes to clear away tears to little success. At the least she contained her pitiful sobbing into soft hiccups. Tears fell irregardless of her will. She has explained and apologized for her actions, there was nothing left to do but pick-up the pieces of herself and flee with her tail tucked beneath her legs. If she was lucky Even would never speak of this incident again, but then against she already escaped punishment. Her fingers flexed in the cotton fabric of her shirt, frustration bubbling in herself.
She looked-up in time as Even reached down and plucked her off the ground. For a second she was weightless, held secure in his hands before perched in his chair. Xion sat awkward, confusion and surprise keeping her pliant to his ministrations. Violet silk fabric dabbed her cheeks and eyes, and Xion was allowing him to do it. The tears had finally stopped, leaving her trembling and hallowed out. In her lap, this time her hand clutched the neck tie, uncertain of what else to do with it. Or what else to do with herself as he knelt before her.
“Since the beginning,” Xion admitted. “When Sora lost his memory at Castle Oblivion, they started.”
It’s taken years but she now knew the full story. Naminé extracted Sora’s memories in Castle Oblivion and through Roxas they permeated into Xion. Not just any memories, the most precious ones, of his stupid childhood friend Kairi. She dreamed of the sea first, black and churning, it swallowed and drowned her till she awoke gasping for breath. Every night, till she feared sleep and her head ached. Now it was of Xemnas and Saix, Vexen with a cruel smirk, close calls in battles played on repeat to remind her to never trip up again. There were not nights when some phantom agony did not haunt her. Xion did not sleep, Xion passed out when her body exhausted. When she could not stand being awake and even the nightmares, were more preferable.
“When I lost my memory I dreamed of the Organization,” she leaned forward, arms wrapping around her mid section. Her eyes closed, voice softened, “And now it’s— everything, and I can’t take it anymore! I just want to sleep.”
still like stone in the way both even && vexen had only ever been while in deepest thought , he listens as though his own life depended on her answer . a crack in the mask appears only briefly when her eyes are already closed , with a subtle furrow to his brow && tension to his already thin mouth , at so simple a plea at the end of it all every accomplishment , glorious && horrible for him to live with , && he could not even manage to allow one of the most basic needs of survival to come easy to the girl sitting in front of him , who embodies most of them . even remains silent for some many moments afterwards . && then he mumbles towards himself in a further display of pensive habit : ‶ of course . yes , of course . how foolish of me . ‶
&& raises to his feet , fingers bracing his chin , && free hand taking hold of pen && paper he did not need to search for in order to find behind him .
‶ dreams are still a wildly unexplored field of study , ‶ even explains as he scrawls out some manner of writing very quickly . ‶ but there are , certainly , leading theories for all manner of different questions they present us with . one in particular stands out to me as pertains to you ; that they are a way in which the mind completes thoughts , without the immediate interruption of sensory input . ‶ the pad of paper is flipped && his efforts continue , still without true interruption , but now with pause from time to time in which he presses the pen to his jaw or gestures xion’s way with it . the motions of his hand imply there are more than only words being placed down , && at this point he crosses segments out with little discrimination .
‶ for one with so few experiences of her own that the mind can draw information from then , it makes sense that it would merely re-use the same small sample of memories available over && over again to fill in the space . yes , in fact memories work so well for confining the mind && heart for that very reason . ‶ he seems to recognize that he is vocally threatening a tangent , specifically towards a line of understanding that vexen had such particular interest in , but he does not stop speaking . it is very possible that he cannot stop on either front by his own accord , as the two steady streams of consciousness play off each other by his own peculiarities . he can merely realign himself appropriately , as necessary , until he is caught up with the many thoughts that must be followed
‶ you have the mental && emotional capacity for a person that would have had many more years of life experience in standard development . least to mention the specifics of socialization with others in similar stages && . . . ‶
until that . there are few discovered forms of life which evolved more dependent upon familial bonds for survival than humans , are there ? he creates a new fresh page to write upon , && now the pace of everything has grown glacial in comparison . his hand is steady in creating something far more precise than what filled the past racing moments .
‶ other staple factors . the cause && effect of what you are going through appears to have at least one clear possible explanation to me , which implies the ability to influence it towards better results . with more experience to draw upon , your sleeping subconscious will not be so inclined to only re-experience the memories you would like to move beyond . ‶ what he finally turns to show xion is an exceedingly simple diagram . a series of boxes pointing to each other sequentially with arrows && labeled in a depressingly small variety of ways : sora’s memories && her memories of the organization && nothing else , filling her heart && providing the material for her mind to work with when she sleeps . && in company , empty boxes waiting to be filled . the simplest of building blocks , as any proper theory must be broken into to start with , && practically waiting for an equally simple solution to the equation involved . he does not know how to ask anyone to trust him about anything , let alone her . the words do not even form properly in his mind . but she has provided even with a problem that she would like to be fixed , so he asks what feels right , accordingly :
‶ does my line of thinking seem sound to you , xion ? ‶
✧・゚: *✧・゚:* i forgot that writing is hard .
✧・゚: *✧・゚:* // i may have missed things looking through but for now here’s what i’ve put in my drafts to catch up on before i try making a starter call , or reblog sentence memes , & that kind of stuff . i would love to reach out & start new interactions too , but first i think it’s only fair i take on what i already owe ! if you would rather drop something i’ve listed here , or i’ve missed something you’d like to continue please let me know ! i’m sorry the organization on this blog is currently quite a mess haha !
i have some thoughts / personal interpretations to how healing magic works that i am too lazy to properly organize into something nice looking but here are some bullet points ( worth noting that , as always , nobody else has to adhere to this in our interactions && such . )
- healing magic is taking energy from another source ( typically the person who is casting the magic of course ) && putting it towards the regeneration of cells / restructure of mass that requires it + the effort of making that transfer in the first place . as such it is not an infinite source of revitalization for one person to perform on themselves or to perform back && forth between two people , unending . ( you gotta let your MP bar charge at least . ) - rudimentary && base skills with the practice will still hurt , especially because the healing work will likely be akin to patchwork . basic healing of a broken bone in the middle of battle for instance , is unlikely to be sustainable for the long run && overuse of poor mending will make it all the more difficult to fix in the future . - it will also be less efficient in regards to how the energy is utilized . on-the-fly general healing can be life-saving no doubt , but if the time is there it is certainly more beneficial for everybody involved to go about it steadily . - potions , on the other hand , are great at numbing the pain , but can also result in compounding injuries as they do very broad , crucial healing with a boost of adrenaline && are not precise . certain personalities && potions can be a dangerous combination because they can make you feel invincible when they’re really more of a mask for the pain && most immediate injuries . - the difference between crudely performed healing magic && mastery of the art form is night && day ;; it can be the difference between moderate fatigue && collapsing from pure exhaustion , a warm sensation of revitalization && absolute agony , life && death for either the caster or the recipient . - good , ‘ proper ’ healing magic takes a great deal of study && precision just like any other artform && , perhaps even more accurately , science !! understanding of anatomy && biological function can make a huge difference in being able to direct the magic as efficiently and painlessly as possible . masterful work can be made to not hurt at all , even for the most excessive injuries ( use of other additional magics for temperature && airflow can influence this as well ) && can be managed such that the caster feels little more than mild weariness at the end of spectacular results !
Commission done for @aquansis as a gift to @glacivn
Honestly, this one was just delightful to draw.
❋ vexen / even of the kingdom hearts series . private . multiverse . not spoiler free .
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❋ @zephyrlost mini starter call
‶ admittedly after meeting vanitas i began to have my doubts , && yet here we meet again , just as i hypothesized . ‶
‶ there is more to you than that too , however , isn’t there ? then , have your memories of the past finally returned ? ‶
❋ @enigmatias mini starter call
‶ there are means to assist if you regularly struggle to sleep . the psychological aspects undoubtedly lack simple solutions ‶
‶ as for the physical , however , i suspect your body merely needs practice of a sorts . ‶
❋ @wayweaver mini starter call
‶ my . . . previous affinity for cyro-kenesis && its surrounding class of magic is currently amiguous in its persistence , however my initial pursuits of science were towards matters of medicine , && remedial magics did come quite naturally in turn , yes . ‶
‶ i am pleased to find the aptitude remains to an extent noteworthy enough to be of help now , even to a mage as proficient as yourself . ‶
even unravels ; part 1 of ???
Shipping Info Meme
Answer the following for your muse so people know how shipping works on your blog.
WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER?:
what about even x peace of mind . even x some mental stability . even x genuine human connection .
WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO WRITE WHEN IT COMES TO SHIPPING?
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ as much as i like to make jokes & find it fun to consider , i haven’t actually put much thought towards writing out any romantic ships on this blog , so i haven’t thought about what i’m ‘willing’ to write for the most part . ( outside of staying away from the obvious , like shipping him with any minors and stuff ) i’m not exactly writing the most popular character to ship with , so i didn’t make the blog with any real expectations in that area haha .
HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?
i feel like with me placing even in his late twenties in BBS these things spell themselves out pretty easily because at that point it’s not really a matter of ‘age gap’ that makes things uncomfortable so much as actual maturity ? when you’re dealing with characters who are closer to being teens & young adults something like 3 years can make a huge difference , but once everyone’s a full adult i don’t think it matters much if someone’s 27 & another person is 37 or w/e.
ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?
er , probably ? again , haven’t thought about it much , but that seems pretty logical !
HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED NSFW?
skadjksjf UH i guess i’d just try & consider what would be dangerous for my boss to find me looking at if , for whatever reason they were okay with me browsing tumblr in the first place haha .
WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH?
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i’ve seen cute art of even/vexen with literally every other adult character in the series & while i haven’t seen any crossover art that i can think of , i see plenty of potential for almost anything so long as no one’s being driven dramatically ooc for the sake of it . i don’t want to go on a tangent here about it all , but i think there’s a lot of room for meaningful relationships with this nerd because he has been pathetically bad at them all his life .
all that said , if i were going to pick three i think are most interesting off the top of my head i’d go with maybe . . . . lauriam , xemnas , lea ?
DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?:
well i suppose so . it just seems like it would be a little difficult to do without both people being aware it’s happening sdhfjsjdfh
HOW OFTEN DO YOU LIKE TO SHIP?
i don’t know how to answer this question LOL
ARE YOU SHIP OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?:
I DON’T KNOW HOW TO ANSWER THIS EITHER . this is basically my first time writing on tumblr & my previous experiences were almost entirely 1x1 so everything was always rather organized and less theoretical haha .
ARE YOU MULTISHIP?
sure if it ever comes to that ! i would just make separate verses probably unless it was an established poly thing . ( i can’t imagine even being a home wrecker......... )
WHAT IS/ARE YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP(S) IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?:
ahhh i have a lot but i don’t know their ‘proper’ names in a lot of cases so i’ll just list some of them out . i really like xemnas/aqua , sora/riku/kairi , lea/aqua , lea/isa , roxas/xion , xemnas/lea , xigbar/almost anyone skdfjklsjf , eraqus/xehanort is really growing on me thanks to the fandom , one of the first ships i ever read for KH was saix/larxene & it’s sort of stuck with me don’t judge me okay , etc .
FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?: i don’t know if you can because just the fact that someone wants to ship with my rat husband at all might give me a heart attack but um . . . i would assume sending in starter prompts & stuff would be the easiest way !
Tagged by: @zephyrlost thanks this was fun to think about ! Tagging: ah , i don’t know who’s already been tagged but i’ll throw out a random five lovely people ! @maenadian @illusionstm @criticalimpxct @martyrcrowned @asundrop
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I propose a science experiment. How much blood can Vexen lose before passing out! It's for science and you are a scientific man, you can't say no.
‶ my , i had no idea you were so dedicated to the noble pursuits , but unfortunately i already have a perfectly acceptable estimate for any and all practical purposes . i am , however , lacking in such data on marluxia for this matter . why not provide the world with the solutions to its scientific quandaries that it truly deserves with all this precious time you have to spare ? ‶
hi void ! i know we havent talked much but i wanted to express how much admiration i have for you !!! your writing is absolutely gorgeous , it flows so so nicely !! i love your choice of words & how well they express even's thoughts , how clearly they convey everything ! i adore how much thought you've put in & how well articulated your hcs are ! you really bring even to life , & you've definitely put him in a new light for me . thank you for being such a wonderful presence on the dash !
ahhhhhhhhh thank you so much go , i’m *axel voice* so flattered !! especially coming from someone with such a lovely style of writing & beautiful characterization for - if i may be so bold to say so - one of the best characters in the entire series .have i said this before ? i’ve probably said this before . every time someone says i’ve made them care about even/vexen a little bit more my heart grows eight sizes , and my life span triples . it’s very excessive & i am nothing if not a mystery to science at this point , but that is irrelevant to the fact that i am very glad you find my ramblings & obnoxious stanning to be worth hanging around for . i no longer have a choice but to die for this dumb nerd but all the lovely people like you certainly make it that much more fun !you are very sweet , thank you for sending such kind messages to me & so many others these past few days !! what a beautiful light to the community you are !!