“Subverting” Catholic art? Oh, okay. I see, you think this has nothing to do with you. You log onto the internet and you post about how “Wound of Christ” from Psalter and Prayer Book of Bonne de Luxembourg, attributed to Jean le Noir, c.1349, for instance, looks like a vulva because you're trying to tell the world that you enjoy Catholic art and imagery in an alternative, queer, risqué way that challenges Christian beliefs. But what you don't know is that that stigma isn’t just a vulva. It's not just a mandorla. It's not just yonic. It's actually intentionally erotic. And you're also blithely unaware of the fact that around 1297, Saint Angela of Foligno experienced a vision of Christ himself, who called her to put her mouth to the wound in his side and lick the freshly flowing blood. And then I think it was Saint Catherine of Siena who drank blood and a clear liquid from the wound before receiving a ring made from Christ’s foreskin? And then graphically erotic encounters with the side wound of Christ quickly showed up in the writings of eight different mystics. And then the yonic interpretation of the stigmata filtered down through the illuminated manuscripts and then trickled on down into some pseudo-intellectual corner of the internet…where you, no doubt, fished it out of some Pinterest board. However, that interpretation represents hundreds of years and countless visions of religious ecstasy. And it's sort of comical how you think that you've come up with an idea that exempts you from Christian theology when, in fact…you're posting an image that was sexualized for you by the very Medieval saints you think you’re so different than…from “subverted” Catholic art.
These are all gay as hell i’m so sorry also warning yapfest
• Transman does not pass whatsoever with his hair being kinda outgrown and has permanent hunched over posture
•Wears his binder 24/7 and it hurts his back a lot
•genuinely likes cars both because having a masculine interest affirms him and also because he thinks they are cool
•obviously much shorter than the other addisons
• Somehow manages to talk too little or too much at the wrong times generally just has a hard time knowing social cues
• Wobbly voice going from loud when he’s excited to quiet and flat when he’s upset
• Pretty awful sales from being an overall poor salesman causing him to be lower income (his apartment is shit)
• Loves to draw strives in creative fields but the business man lifestyle of addisons doesn’t leave much room for that
• Feels isolated from the addisons both by being queer and not having the same profits as them
•NEVER corrects someone when they misgenders him even if it is another one of the addisons
•Both craves the idea of getting approval from the other addisons to the point he started resenting them when he didn’t get the praise he needed
• Complicated relationship with the addisons and would rather not talk to them about any of his feelings then be misunderstood
•Romanticizes his loneliness “i’m not lonely i’m independent!”
•tends to ramble about things he likes
•picks at his feathers on his hands when he’s upset
•had a crazy one week relationship with jevil it was awful
•High temperament does not show it often
•No one in my life will ever truly love me as a man people around me won’t accommodate to something as small as my pronouns how could they ever truly love me even the people i’m supposed to be most alike i don’t fit in with how could i ever hope that i would be loved as i am
•Touch starved in a “I avoid all physical contact even small touches with anyone” Kind of way
• makes no sense to the lore of deltarune but i LOVE the idea of him being a mettaton fan seeing mettaton and it being one of the first realizations that you can be a successful queer person and be admired
•Cut his hair much shorter and passes better
•becomes friends with swatch around this time and gets HEAVY gender envy from them
•Spamton likes swatch a lott more as a friend than swatch likes him I think spamton partly knows this
•becomes a lot louder with his ego i’m the one in queens mansion i’m the one who got chosen to be a big shot mentality
•wears platform shoes to make himself taller
•Puts on an act most of time emphasizing the loud aspect of his personality while keeping the more anxious parts hidden from the public
•Thinks queen is fun but knows he’s only around because he’s successful
• Doesn’t talk as much to the addisons thinking that’s all in the past he got to get away
•terrified of over sharing at all
•Feels like he can only relax when he’s alone in his room back in the mansion
•Trusts the benefactor
•does NOT like the idea of being emotionally or physically close to anyone at all
•Definitely hates tenna when he first meets him this guys an amplified version of all the things i hate in myself and he’s a control freak
•is a control freak
•I have realized i’m only what i can provide for others if i leave first by always keeping one food outside the door i surely won’t get hurt
•Died his hair black completely cutting off his idea of being an addison
•Extremely good on stage because the benefactor takes over for him
•ego so big he’s compensating for something
•Genuinely starts to like tenna after awhile causing him to become a little weary of the benefactor knowing tenna is supposed to die
•As much as he complains about it he likes working with tenna he likes tenna similarity’s and differences to himself
•Doesn’t let himself draw as much with “i didn’t earn this” feeling creeping in more forcing himself to stay to the more numbers part of TV world
•Enjoys wearing red knowing it’s tennis signature color kinda making him feel like he finally belongs to someone
•has the craziest most vulnerable confessions when he’s drunk
•Tenna works down some of the physical affection walls he has put up spamton constantly pretending like he isn’t extremely new to intimacy
•lies about his experience with almost everything
•being a man in his eyes means being a stereotype i run a car business i am strong and don’t show my emotions a lot i like alcohol and money is the main thing on my mind
•secretly likes fruitier drinks
•gets started on medically transitioning as soon as he physically can pretending like he’s cis if questioned
•awful boss very specific instructions
•no one is allowed near the phone
•HATES pda
•has a hard time verbalizing his affection towards tenna much more likely to do little things he knows tenna is specific about
•every time him and tenna do anything emotional or intimate he waits for tenna to say it was all a joke and that he pranked spamton but it never comes
•still pulls his feathers out when he’s stressed but does it in less noticeable spots than his hands
•has screamed out at least 10 minimum wage workers before and will do so again
•has gotten pretty used to being in physical pain it comes easy to ignore
•avoids mirrors
•i personally think everything about his puppet era is the benefactor telling spamton fuck you for dare disobeying my plan
•you were already shorter than all the addisons? your even shorter now! the black hair you wanted so much it’s permanent. you wanted glasses like swatch? you can have the poor eyesight too! tenna loved when your face would get red? you have permanent blush on your face now
•i like the idea of him still wearing the same blazer as the bigshot era but it’s been so worn he’s had to stitch it together multiple times
•crazy joint pain
•has started drawing again because of the amount of freetime he has but is much worse at it than before
•blames himself more than tenna it’s just easier to live with tenna being the one at fault
•picks at his sleeves instead of feathers now
•touch starved in a “i’ll take whatever physical affection i can get because i know it’s going to get stripped away from me eventually”
•hordes anything he gets out of desperation
•has a cardboard box he pretends is tenna and cuddles up to a little closer at night
•smells like shit
•jealous and angry at all of the addisons
•passes now but at what cost
•fully believes this is all deserved that it was his fault for questioning the system and wanting to be more that if he wasn’t less silly and conformed to his role in society both with his gender and his income that his life would have been significantly better
•even while being aware of this he doesn’t really regret it the deal is what led him to meeting tenna tenna was his freedom someone who loved his too loud laugh and his obnoxious quirks after the show was over even if it’s been taken from him
•still loves tenna under all the resentment
•peak gender moment is becoming a massive robot that shoots lasers or something
•gains weight as a sign of becoming healthier for the first time in his life
•ralsiel made him the sweater
•his hair is poofier from being washed more often
• started dealing with his joint pain instead of ignoring it
•realizes not as many people in castle town hate him as he thought
•doesn’t really initially consider that tenna would ever want to be with him again romantically
•ecstatic about supporting the lighteners and taking down the prophecy
•has a hard time communicating sometimes from being censored but kris helped him learn a little sign language
•when tenna wants to be close with him again dead as almost has a breakdown but keeps it in
•has a significantly more hard time crying after everything
sometime in the early 2010s caring became gauche, so now we spend our entire lives finding ways to stay as aloof and detached from our surroundings as possible. astral projection seemed like a good trick but it turns out the unbound spirit is even more attuned to the breathing of the world than the naive one. and nirvana didn't suit most of our lifestyles. these days i mostly just levitate around with my eyes closed and my hands bound behind my back as i try to avoid accidentally brushing the ground. if you see me floating by don't call out to me because i'm not listening