how long until your blessing becomes a curse?

I am free. Have been for nearly a decade now. I have Alex to thank for that, bless him. The cult has not been making themselves known for a long while now, it's almost making me think Father is planning something big. I can't tell. Meanwhile, I am free to do anything, really, so I might as well make myself known. I am everywhere anyway. {Independent Ask/RP blog for post-moon children arc BEN. Read the Rules page before starting a roleplay or sending an ask please!}

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

what if one of your victims killed themselves but then became a ghost like you? seems like it'd be an awkward situation

Unfortunately for me, that never happens. I have to assume Father takes their souls after I complete my jobs.

Shame, really. 

Either way, death won’t save them from Father’s grasp. That’s the funniest part about it all, isn’t it?

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

Cough for us queen!!

No.

Why should I do as you ask?

You have no authority over me.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

how do you feel about the fanart, fanfiction, etc of you?

I do not care.

You want to draw me as a Link with bleeding eyes? Very well. You want to draw me as a gay teen who’s in love with Jeff the Killer, for some reason, even though I’m 12? Fine. Hell, you want to pretend I somehow care about you and your personal issues? Go with it.

I do not care what you do as long as you keep it to yourself or share it only with people who are also interested in it.

And also age me up for any of the more, ahem, “suggestive” content. Seriously. I am a goddamn child. You creeps. 

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

BEN Voice Over by Nate Fernandez

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1kbPfqgGGkQFPbwHwC2S0I1A4KK7u-6mI/view?usp=sharing

Thank you once again, Nate. Your voice is quite interesting to listen to, and granted it is similar to mine. 

I appreciate your efforts! This is the second time you’ve sent me your voiceover talents, and I like how you did it this time.

Rest easy tonight. Luna bless you.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

Do you have anything you get enjoyment from besides killing people? Perhaps a hobby?

You people have tiny minds. Please understand, I don’t kill unless I have to. Unless Father tells me to. 

I would rather not touch your filthy flesh. My hands are dirty enough with blood as is.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

Don't beat yourself up too much for falling for the Moon Children's trap. It's not your fault that they were manipulative and terrible enough to do the things they did to you.

Anyone would have guessed how things were going to end. Anyone.

There was no excuse for my stupidity. No excuse.

I wish they had just finished me off. But they were not that kind.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

did you ever get along with any of the moon children?

I always thought the Kelbris myth was a bunch of nonsense, from the start.

In fact, a lot of the Moon Children’s “teachings” sounded weird, as if they were made up.

Perhaps they were. All stories to deceive oblivious children and teenagers and lure them into an inescapable trap set up by Father and the other higher ups.

All those who did fall into it are idiots, of course, including the pitiful excuse of a past self me.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

what do you think the past you would think of you now? How would he react?

Foolish brat.

Anyone with the ability to think would have guessed how it was all going to end.

But he didn’t.

And I loathe him for it.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

Why do you get so hurt when someone mentions your mother? Haven't you suppressed all of emotions to the point that they don't effect you any more?? If not how does it feel to be really down on your luck or extremely happy in your situation? You're so young too it's a shame.

S̶̡̠̱͍͓͍̦͕̏͘̚h̷̰̣̼̖̱̭̱̳̗̫̒́͂̐͋̇̕ẽ̸̜͔̀͒́̅̈̔̑̐̽͝͝ ̵͙̘̋̽̈́͆̾̆̿̉̒͗̚ẃ̸̪̼̯̺͕̜͖̙͉̖̒̍̄̌̓̐͊͆͗̏̕ͅa̷͎͓̠̰̯̻̋s̴̲̐͂̌̾̈́̀̚ ̵̮̘̲̞̘̙͙̩̩̲͚̭͂̀̈́͆͋t̵̛̩̩̼̠̤̹̪̪͖̭̽̊̌͑̿̈́̓̏̈́̍̕͜h̵̢̻̫̼̠͍͇͔̖̯̉̇e̸͓̙̰̭̠͔͇̔̀̿̽̇ ̶̍̔͐̐̿̄̍̚͝ͅo̶͔̝̹͎͙̮͗̈́̾̀̃ͅn̸̨̯̲̗̯̩͍̭̙̹̻͙͊̽̾̉̕l̶̛͔̺̦̺͇͙̯͔̜̓͐̆̍̀̉͝y̵̛͉̹͍͖͊͒̏̇̃̐̑ ̸̢̖̫̜̟̯̖͍̍̿̀̄͋͋̇ö̶̧͉̥͎̝̬̻͊͆̈̄̽͆̐̇̀͘͝ṇ̷̙͖̽̋͐͑̒̅͌͜ĕ̴̹̽̎̄̃̄̈͝ ̵̘͉̲͙́͗̈̓͆̃̚w̶̢̡̧̖͙͍̑͊̓́̔̀͌̕̚͠h̵̛͚̯̖̎͋̓̓̆̈́̽͘͠ṍ̸͓̣͉̘̜͙̓͋̓͋̇͘ ̷̜̗̹̩̣͈̃̍̓͋̕è̷͔̬̘͍v̸̡̛̛̰͍̍̎̽͝e̵͉̭̥̟̹̠͓̻̗̳̞͉̽͒̕ṟ̷̡̱̜̺̘̖̱̮̥̟̈͊̊̆͗̂͠ ̷̛͓̣̤̈́̒̈́̓̿̅́ͅl̵̢̮̞͕̻͓͕̓̔̃̔̃̂͊̋̍͝͠ȯ̴̡͚̩̗̬͍͉̠́̿̐̏̍̌͌͆̂̚v̴̫̱͕̦͙̻͔͖̎͛͌́̇̽͝͝e̶̳̫̅͐̀̿̉̅͊ͅḑ̷̨͔̙̗̲͚̜̪̲̌̔̔̇͠ ̴̨̞̒̑͗̎̐m̵̧̲͚̝̺̪͚̣̭̫͓̓̓̒̈͋̕͘ę̸̱͍͈̋̀͜.̶̛̟̜̰̳̙̞̯̂̎́͑̊̅̚͝

I’m neither happy nor unlucky. It was all a matter of chance.

All pure chance. I had no choice, you understand?

N̶̨̛̛͔̭̲̘͇͓̻͎̠̠̏͛̓̋ͅo̷̡̬̗̞̰̘̳̰̥̊̐͊͐̎͋͒̏͛ͅ ̷̧̣̭͙̝̰̦̣͇̮͈̣̝̲̙͛̇̊͆̐̋̀̀̊̃͒͂̇̈́͝͝ͅc̴̨̠̹͖̝̣̲̮̝̰̥͉͎̃̍̈́̀͒͆̊͒̈́̃̕ḩ̶̢͕̜̙̻̙͕͌̓̈́͆́̐͒̄̈̑̐̏̍̑̚͜͝ō̴͔͇į̸̨̛̦̭̼̙͉̬͉̪͎̯̝̞̌̑̈̈́́̎͗̅̏́̒̈́͌̅̾̚͝͝c̵̡͇̯̠̻̤̥͉͓̺̖̝̜͙̻͕̥̅̀̃̓̎͐̃́̓͐̾̊̿͘̕̕ͅę̴͍͔̺̩͉̍͑̿͛̔̑̽̎̆͑̈́̋̊̄̕͠͝͝

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

Are mommy's boy BEN?Also what are u not desensitized to?

Learn how to write first. Then ask questions.

I have a deep knowledge of all kinds of coding and programming languages, but unfortunately I’m not graduated in stupidity.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

Remember when you said "As for what happened that day. It is reserved for another. Another who asks."? Well, I'm another, and I'm asking. Tell meeeeeee

It is reserved for another.

Do not ask again. You are not worthy.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

How much pain do you feel? Physically.

It burns.

Not the comfortable warmth you like feeling, though.

I can’t breathe. I can only see by some miserable dark art Father casted upon me. My entire existence is a curse.

But it is who I am. And it is how things are.

Maybe one day I will be proven wrong.

But today is not this day.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

do you remember anything from your past life? what happened the day you died at the hands of the cult, exactly?

As for what happened that day.

It is reserved for another. 

Another who asks.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

do you ever shove things in the void of your eyes?

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

Why wear one mask when you can wear many?

One mask is enough to bring the sanest person into madness. It happens to all of them. 

Imagine more than one.

They would bring one much power, but at what cost?

That is an interesting thought.

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

Which face is your mask, though?

I am not sure. Is it my face? And if it is, is it my true face?

Has Father tried to change how I am viewed? Has he changed the mask, which I so sparingly wear to perform his dark deeds and sins?

My true face, I wonder. I am not sure.

What is your face?

[glitchy-drowned-boy]

How are you any better than I? We're both just god-like beings here. Cursed with pain. Cursed with knowledge. Cursed with the mask

Ha, in no moment have I ever said I was “better” than you. Please do not twist my words.

It is interesting, however, how you claim to be just like me. We are both god-like beings. I suffer through eternity in exchange of living forever, against my will, just as I have been blessed with the ability to know about things, but cursed by getting to know said things.

The mask Father wears. The mask his children wear. The mask I once wore, and am still forced to wear at times. I am bound to it. Unwillingly.

I’m glad to know we are similar to each other. Fascinating, even.