Sarah

15 block don't report!

[gloomydoe]

Welcome to my blog

hi! im sarah and im 15. this blog will be documenting my wl journey, so if you are not comfortable with that please block me! i am not promoting anything and am pro recovery

this is a new blog but ive had an ed for years. i use ana tags because that makes it easier to reach people but im diagnosed with osfed, and present mostly mia symptoms ie binging and purging. so i don't want to hear any 'wanarexic' comments because i never claimed to be in the first place

my stats 。°˖♡

sw - 54kg cw - 49.8kg gw - 45kg ugw - 39kg 152cm

i will be posting wiat, updates, vents and whatever else comes to mind.

[gloomydoe]

maintained after i binged like a crazy person for three days. coule be a lot worse ig

[gloomydoe]

Heyy do u have any tips on reducing appetite as much as possible

for me caffeine helps a bunch. other than that you kinda just have to get used to being hungry

[gloomydoe]

13/08 wiat

salmon rice and veg - 500

monster - 11

protein bar - 203

small apple - 50

soup - 198

low cal hot chocolate - 35

another apple - 60

total - 1057

burnt - 337

net - 720

People probably r reading this thinking it’s way too much but I feel better than I have in a long time. I’m trying to get into running and it’s made a big difference for my mental health. Like I’m not recovering but I’m trying to be less extreme. Honestly idc what ppl on here think so long as I’m still losing weight.

[gloomydoe]

12/08 wiat

Salmon veg and rice - 500

monster - 11

Flat peach -39

soup - 200

total - 750

burned - 368

net - 382

so em no wiat for the past two days because they were spent binging, throwing up, screaming, crying and being an all round evil person. Think I’ve sorted myself out and should be good till next months complete mental breakdown. On a positive note I went on a run! I actually really enjoy running it clears my head and I put all my anger into it. I’m very bad at it tho. Ran 4.5k and had to take a min to walk twice 🥲 I’ll get better tho!

[gloomydoe]

hi, how was your diagnosis process like, and what background are you? im asking for personal reasons as i honestly want to seek help but im scared of what itll be like.

hi! I’m not sure what u mean by background so…. sorry if this isn’t helpful. But basically I was dragged to the doctor by my parents because I was purging like 4 times daily. From there I was referred to treatment. But I’ve never been inpatient or on any kind of meal plan as I’m not ana. It’s mostly family therapy, blood tests, weight monitoring, and monitoring my heart. The treatment for me has been hell and useless, but that’s not to say u will have the same experience! I hope ur doing well 💕

[gloomydoe]

People keep asking me what’s wrong but anytime i say what’s wrong im in trouble and im being yelled at.

[gloomydoe]

today is far to shameful to talk about on here. genuinly misserable rn. brand new cuts to hide. wl set back like 2 weeks. i hate my life

[gloomydoe]

09/08 𝓌𝒾𝒶𝓉

salad - 300

poridge with yogurt and apples - 260

monster - 11

pink redbull - 5

chocolate (binged) - 477

total - 1053

steps - 20k

net - 1053 - 402 = 651

actually disgusted with myself I can’t go two days without binging. Still in a deficit but I feel so out of control. I feel like I’ll never reach my gw

[gloomydoe]

i ate MORE. prob 1250 now. fml

[gloomydoe]

Woke up in the middle of the night, couldn’t sleep for hours, ended up b/p at least 1000. And i wonder why im so huge

[gloomydoe]

09/08 𝓌𝒾𝒶𝓉

salad - 300

poridge with yogurt and apples - 260

monster - 11

pink redbull - 5

chocolate (binged) - 477

total - 1053

steps - 20k

net - 1053 - 402 = 651

actually disgusted with myself I can’t go two days without binging. Still in a deficit but I feel so out of control. I feel like I’ll never reach my gw

[gloomydoe]

i ate MORE. prob 1250 now. fml

[gloomydoe]

09/08 𝓌𝒾𝒶𝓉

salad - 300

poridge with yogurt and apples - 260

monster - 11

pink redbull - 5

chocolate (binged) - 477

total - 1053

steps - 20k

net - 1053 - 402 = 651

actually disgusted with myself I can’t go two days without binging. Still in a deficit but I feel so out of control. I feel like I’ll never reach my gw

[gloomydoe]

if i lock in id be the perfect book accurate shannon lynch. irish, blue eyes, 5ft tall, brown hair and fair skin. but im not skinny enough

[gloomydoe]

when i lose motivation i think about how i spent my entire 15th birthday crying because people were asking me what i wanted for presents but all i wanted was to be thin

[gloomydoe]

08/08 𝓌𝒾𝒶𝓉

omelette - 330

porridge with apple and greek yogurt - 250

pickles - 50

low cal hot chocolate - 40

total - 670

steps - 14k

net - 670 - 270 = 500

not the best day but could have been a lot worse