gloomy SOVEREIGN

𝙖𝙣𝙝𝙚𝙙𝙤𝙣𝙞𝙘 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙘𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙘𝙞𝙩𝙮

[gloomysovereign]

i don't understand expressed feelings

here within a world of uncanny beings

where my mind forces me

to taste colors and see sounds--

--i just don't understand

HOPEFULLY SOON

I'LL GO AND VANISH

S O M E W H E R E

WITH ALL LIVING THINGS

BEING UNAWARE OF IT

A PLACE OF CASTED SHADOWS

AND DRY RIVERBEDS

WHERE MY BONES

ARE BATHED IN MOONLIGHT

AND MY SKIN BLEEDS

THE COLOR OF GALAXIES

- - - - -

they tell me i must never hurry

that i must wait here long enough

but when is enough really enough?

nonetheless i loom on despite my burdens

hoping while at the same time knowing

nothing worthwhile will ever happen.

~gloomy SOVEREIGN

[gloomysovereign]

how can i express the desire

to eliminate the pulse of my own heart

while introducing a poetic element to it?

I BELIEVE THAT WORDS EXIST

TO REPLACE EMOTION

THAT TRANSCENDS

LOGICAL HUMAN ACCEPTANCE

AND

CONSEQUENTIAL

MEANINGFULNESS

- - - - -

but what do i know?

my reasoning for wanting to know a premature end

stems from those who have known my love

only to treat it as a mere plaything.

~gloomy SOVEREIGN

[gloomysovereign]

has anyone ever heard the story

of how the eternal sun loved

the eternal moon so much

that he committed a terrible suicide

every.

single.

night.

- - - - -

just to give her a chance to breathe?

AND ON CERTAIN DAYS

JUST TO PAY BACK THAT SACRIFICE--

--SOMETIMES SHE WOULD VISIT HIM

DURING THE DAYLIGHT HOURS

JUST TO KEEP HIM AWAY

FROM HIS LONELINESS

that's the type of love that my brain

constantly makes me think about and crave

that's the type of love that keeps

this fragile heart of mine beating

even when it would rather turn off forever.

~gloomy SOVEREIGN

[gloomysovereign]

being of this world--

--i live apart from any and all

because my only ephemeral escape

is simply throughout my dreams

i exist aggrieved

AS TWILIGHT FADES AWAY

I'M MYSTERIOUSLY SAD

AND SO LIVE DISCONSOLATE

WILL SOMEBODY SAVE ME?

from tomorrow on

if i refuse to no longer exist

would there be more of those

who are beside themselves with joy

or would the entire human race

realize the intentional decision

that i'd made and be overcome

with nothing but mere grief?

- - - - -

i wonder.

i wonder.

~gloomy SOVEREIGN