Glowing, Waiting, Yearning

@glowingsecrecy

You are movement’s first will

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Will probably just put thoughts and things I like here. Might rant or vent at times but I will trigger warning it👍

This is just a personal place to put thoughts so I dont really care about posting things for notes

getting drunk and my head feeling heavy and my heart getting so heavy and trying to rip off my horns and ears and nobody sees them and nobody knows how heavy my horns are on my head and how heavy my heart is

and none of my frinds know😂😂😂surely none of my collegeaues🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😆norrr do my FAMILYYYY🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣if i leaveee somebody else will find u but nobody else could see me quite as clearly as YOU. YOUUUU!! YOOUUUUUUYY!!!!!! bbb ONLY KNOW KNOW!!!!!!! IVE LET ONLY YOU KNOWWWWW THAT I RIDE THRY A TUNNEL ITS DARK THE WHOLE WAY!!!!!!!!!🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

and U dont even know deep deep deep down in my soulest of my souls i carry the deepest secret i ever have and you will Never. Know. and it ruins me EVERY DAY

i miss you i miss you i miss you and i miss how youd care about me ALWAYS

hate being so isolated. every day bro it hurts my soul im always apart

just Hit me with a car im already dead enough

don’t worry darling, someday there will be rest and rain

Hey so when does the yearning Stop lol. Do I ever get used to this life

never Apparently

Maybe there’s something to be said about it all, about the fighting and the love I still hold. Fighting for the sake of it, even if it never mattered in the end, Just looking for some safety for my children. Maybe there is something to be said about how I carry my love for them with me always. There is nowhere to put it down and even if there were I would accept the weight of the love for the rest of my life if it means that it’s proof it was there

i would accept the weight of the love for the rest of my life if it means that it’s proof it was there.

#two years ago #been almost 4 years Btw.#ha. ha. ha.

Funny i was explaining my painting in class she pointed at Me Benny Simon and said “So these are the people in your head with you?”. Yup.! 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂.

I didn’t say anything abt it Either..Just said I was writing a book in my head and she saw them in my eyes I guess.!

There was a very specific and weird feeling when I watched it go up. Like not exactly terror or dread but more regret and remorse knowing it’s my fault. I did all of this. I can’t reach him fast enough and god knows I couldn’t reach her fast enough either. There are so many words I have left to say. But also a little bit of gratitude that it’s finally over

And then that other weird feeling in the other place. Simon is at the table and he has a cup of coffee I made him and I’m doing the dishes and my hands are warm. It’s cold outside but the fire is on and my son is napping in the room beside us. I feel greatful. The air smells a little different and I think I made some right decisions. And when I kiss Simon it feels like the first time I ever have

And then suddenly im a teenage girl who has fucking homework and taxes and I am actually a fucking weirdo and maybe this is why nobody likes me and leah isnt talking to me anymore because im weird

#living 3 lives is hard #i miss you siken and tawny

sometimes i think she can see him through my eyes. said she’d love me if i lost half my face, and covered right where i died. what an interesting coincidence. woke up with a headache right where it happened

i’ll kill you, and i’ll revive you, and i’ll kill you again, and i’ll revive you— how can you read me? how can you peer into the eyes behind my eyes, how can you speak in it’s voice?

i sometimes wish you’d understand what it all means to me

Will probably just put thoughts and things I like here. Might rant or vent at times but I will trigger warning it👍

This is just a personal place to put thoughts so I dont really care about posting things for notes

scrolling past this and seeing “One Year Ago” every time makes my heart ache. it’s been a whole year? how long will i yearn until i stop?

10 Months Ago. my toby is almost Three years Old btw.

going on four years guys.! now’s a great time to stop!!!!

when i die

when i die

can i come back as the rain?

see the world again,

to fall again

if im dark, all the better

to reflect the moonlight

if i mourn, all the better

to behold the sunrise

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