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It’s kinda crazy how the only thing that keeps me from being insane is a pill i take every morning

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I just turned 26 and im off my parents insurance and I have to quickly figure out how to refill my antidepressants on medicaid and like clockwork on hour 72 of being off my meds I get a deep pang of doom and a hankering for killing myself (i wont)

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Hanging out with my mom is soul sucking because she constantly voices regrets and she believes shes too old to change anything now and i know she has no intention of changing anything

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This is so embarrassing but why am i being affected by the lesbian discourse abt female bisexuals and not being queer if ur dating a man. Literally its so terminally online to feel aliensted by that and u dont need anyone to “validate” ur “identity” but ive been having more moments in queer communities irl where i suddenly feel like an imposter and like i have to prove that im gay 😭. This self reflection was brought to me by me feeling guilty for repeatedly having superficial crushes on guys but i think i just need a hoe phase …

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If u hear someone say something bad about a friend of yours, is being a good friend telling them about it or keeping it to yourself? I feel like ive frequently had the former experience with the friend’s motivation being to make a point about that person’s character, but most often the information was not useful in terms of how id choose to interact with the third person and instead just hurt my feelings that someone would say that about me, and i wish i hadnt known. My mom always said that a good friend wouldnt deliver you unusable information that only serves to hurt you, but i think often delivering the info feels like loyalty to people.

Recently my friend had a falling out w her friend, and i was already on her side n disliked the girl from the way my friend talked about her, but then she also told me that she’d told the friend about a situation i was going through and that she’d said i was a “bad person” for how i handled it. My friend said that shed defended me, which was nice, but i ended up just feeling bad about this strangers judgement of me. I didnt even care that she told her, it has no bearing on my life, i’d just rather not have known about the personally hurtful part.

Idk what do u guys think

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Ive been skipping my care facility volunteering recently bc ive just been a little more sensitive being around death and illness recently and one of my favorite residents passed away while I was away and i feel worse for having not been there ):

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I'm trying to figure out student loans and the big naturals bill is making it so fucking hard to understand because there is practically zero information on official federal websites. On FAFSA their grad PLUS loan page has NO mention at all that the loan will be eliminated in two months, just has all the information about how to qualify and apply. Any useful information has to be found on third party law websites and reddit. Predatory as hell and literally requires independent comprehension and dissemination of said comprehension regarding the law.

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My current self drafted intarsia nightmare

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I never read patti smith bc i just had a feeling i wouldnt like her writing but i bought Just Kids at the airport because it randomly felt like perfect plane reading. But I cant tell if I’m being overly critical or jumping the gun but I kind of… dont like her writing. I feel like she writes like a high schooler?

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It never makes sense to me that people want big boobs. I have never worn something that looked better because of my boobs. Always looked worse lol

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Oh my god do you ever see a photo of a girl you used to have a crush on and their boyfriend and are just dumbfounded

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Meningococcal vaccine hurts so much i feel awful

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I feel like at this point i meet more people with adhd than without. The other day at the airport I overheard 2 separate conversations where people were talking about their adhd diagnoses. Yesterday I met a new hire and later in the day went to a bar with my bf’s classmate, both of whom mentioned they had adhd. Really im starting to think most of us are just slightly incompetent at the things we aspire to do

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I can recite 52 digits of pi but i cant remember anyones that I met after the age of 10’s birthday

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I know this is first grade level feminist analysis but just saw an Instagram post where a female surgeon was making fun of some manosphere guy’s post that was like “working hard so my future wife can hit 3 curbs on the way to Pilates in her lulus” or whatever and like MAJORITY of the comments were like “okay but not all women want to be a surgeon it’s valid to want to be taken care of and not want to work” and GOD i wish everyone could be normal with gender dynamics. Fucking.NOBODY wants to work dumbass we’re all enslaved but only some of us are also enslaved mentally. Just go ahead and kys. im in a mood

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I dont understand the sentiment that “everything showers” are therapeutic i get so overstimulated