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WHAT IS LOVE if not an i̳n̳t̳e̳r̳t̳w̳i̳n̳i̳n̳g̳ of 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝 ?  

[godsand-archive]

all of this mess is just my 

attempt to know the worth of my life

@ GODSAND    independent / selective / mutuals - only GAARA from kishimoto's NARUTO series .

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@ournindos ( naruto )

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐊𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐇𝐀 blow with steady winds , quite different from the dry heat that stews in the bowl of suna's expanse . he breathes in the refreshing air , taking advantage of the coolness in his lungs . naruto sits comfortably at his side as they peer out toward the village .

                     ❛       things are different now  .      ❜   his voice is soft , free from malice , yet stricken with stress .

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@allgather  ( kankuro )

𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐊 , 𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐊 , goes the clock , the metronome of time resounding from the wall's centermost placement . it's silent for awhile , as the two sometimes find each other in the newly formed presence of one another . things are still fresh , despite how much has changed , so quickly . gaara's newfound resolve was formed with great haste , so it was to no one's surprise that new old - relationships would build with tension , trust , & awkwardness . it wasn't as if gaara himself was much of a talker in the first place . 

still , he's made it his mission to try . to heal these severed bonds & re - construct his bridges burned . 

looking to kankuro's complexion , he recognizes it , plastered with purple hues despite the late hour of the night . he wonders , for a moment , if he ever washes it off .

                     ❛       we finally have some time  .      ❜   he brushes off the thought & initiates a more , not so personal , form of conversation .

[godsand-archive]

like to plot / talk dynamics  !

[beamingsuggestion]

and here you are, continuing on, despite how hard it’s been

[cowboahs]

quotes that broke me starters

feel free to adjust pronouns / names as needed !

quotes taken from random sources or tiktok. i claim no ownership whatsoever.

❛   i’m supposed to be the one who protects you from monsters. i’m not supposed to be one.  ❜  

❛   if i could make a deal with god, and i’d get him to swap our places.  ❜  

❛  no one heard our screams for a long time.  ❜  

❛   i know so many last words. but i’ll never know hers.  ❜  

❛   there is a home for every departed thing.  ❜  

❛   it reminded me that i will never truly know you.  ❜  

❛   i also buried a part of myself alongside them.  ❜  

❛   after you died i could no longer hold a funeral. so my life became the funeral.  ❜  

❛   you don’t have to be awake to cry.  ❜  

❛   forgive me, for all the things i did. but mostly the things i didn’t do.  ❜  

❛   the human eye is the loneliest creation of all.  ❜  

❛   fairness is for happy people.  ❜  

❛   the things we lost will always be heavier than the things that stayed.  ❜  

❛   perhaps it is the greater grief, to remain on the earth when another is gone.  ❜  

❛   you stain the pages with yourself.  ❜  

❛   tears will not wash away the sorrow.  ❜  

❛   beautiful things grow a certain height and then they fall and fade off.  ❜  

❛    who in all these centuries has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?  ❜  

❛   i have scars on my hands from touching certain people  ❜  

❛   despite everything, i believe that people are really good at heart.  ❜  

❛   you tried to change, didn’t you?  ❜

❛   you can’t make homes out of people. someone should have taught you that.  ❜  

❛   i hid my deepest feelings so well, i forgot where i placed them.  ❜  

❛   we have no scar to show for happiness. we learn so little from peace.  ❜  

❛   i didn’t leave because i stopped loving you. i left because the longer i stayed, the less i loved myself.  ❜  

❛   at every moment in our life, we have one foot in a fairytale & the other in the abyss.  ❜  

❛   there are too many sad eyes on happy faces.  ❜  

❛   it’s strange, i felt less lonely when i didn’t know you.  ❜  

❛   things change, friends leave. life doesn’t stop for anybody.  ❜  

❛   it takes a lifetime to die, and no time at all.  ❜  

❛   i am deathly afraid of almosts. of coming close to what i want and then falling just a little short.  ❜  

❛   i felt your absence.  ❜  

❛   what do we do now, now that we are happy?  ❜  

❛    you honestly thought anybody would love you? purely and truly love you?  ❜  

❛   don’t stop looking. he deserves to know someone saw his end, that someone noticed him.  ❜  

❛    i can bear my pain so long as it has meaning.  ❜  

❛   i dont have a single friend - not one.  ❜  

❛   i’ve had more than enough pain in my life, what’s a little more going to do?  ❜  

❛    it would have been you if i met you first.  ❜  

❛    i really thought he was going to be my forever.  ❜  

❛    maybe in the next life it would work.  ❜  

❛   in spite of everything, you’re still you.  ❜  

❛   the dead have it easy.  ❜  

❛   there’s an ocean of silence between us, and I’m drowning.    ❜  

❛   there have been countless times in my life when i thought i’d be better off dead.  ❜  

❛   what on earth… have i become?  ❜  

❛   don’t look at me! i don’t … i don’t want you seeing me like this.  ❜  

❛   i wish i could’ve been like you.  ❜  

❛   your fate was sweeping you away, like a flood.  ❜  

❛   the future should know the mistakes we made.  ❜  

❛   of course you have. you feel guilt. you want redemption.  ❜  

❛   i’m here because you can’t accept what you’ve done. it broke you.  ❜  

❛   even now, after all you’ve done, you can still go home.  lucky you . ❜  

❛   you’re all that’s left, and we can’t live this lie forever.  ❜  

❛    prometheus gave us light, and warmth, and eternal damnation.  ❜  

❛   take a gamble that love exists, and do a loving act.  ❜  

❛    i know i ruined your life. i suffer for it every day.  ❜  

❛   don’t let yourself get killed for… for pride. i’ve seen it kill too many folk.  ❜  

❛    you and me, we ain’t decent… but those folk… they were.  ❜  

❛   we’re more ghosts than people.  ❜  

❛   despite my best efforts to the contrary… it turns out i’ve won.  ❜  

❛   i gave you all i had … i did.  ❜  

❛   this whole time, I’ve blamed myself for that decision.  ❜  

❛   do you think even the worst person can change…? That everybody can be a good person, if they just try? ❜  

❛   i don’t want to break their hearts all over again. it’s better if they never see me.  ❜  

❛   please leave me alone. i can’t come back. i just … can’t, okay?  ❜  

❛   no matter the struggles or hardships you faced… you strived to do the right thing, you refused to hurt anyone. ❜  

❛    people like you don’t ever want to be happy.  ❜  

❛   i don’t want to let go. i’m not ready to say goodbye yet.  ❜  

[godsand-archive]

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[misschibidoodle]

Gaara fanart. I just love him, and painting this golden orange and sky blue together was so fun. I was in a bit of a digital art block and doing fanart usually helps to kick me out of it. And true enough, painting Gaara was just the thing.

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[lemon-wedges]

Serial killer turned babushka

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.   (  random assortment of sentences that can but don’t have to be used for muses meeting each other for the first time. feel free to adjust to better fit your muses.  )

❛  i know we only just met but i already feel like i’ve known you my whole life.  ❜ ❛  umm, is this seat taken ?  ❜ ❛  don’t be alarmed now but there’s someone following you. pretend you know me and come with me. i’ll get you somewhere safe.  ❜ ❛  my friends ditched me here and now i could really use a ride home.  ❜ ❛  i don’t think we’ve met yet but you looked like you needed someone to talk to.  ❜ ❛  can you please pretend to be my boyfriend / girlfriend for a moment so my ex will leave me alone ?   ❜ ❛  are you always this straightforward with strangers ?  ❜ ❛  here, i noticed you lost this earlier.  ❜ ❛  i’m sorry, i must’ve mistaken you for somebody else.  ❜ ❛  so, what brings you here today ?  ❜ ❛  hi, my name is [name]. it’s nice meeting you.  ❜ ❛  you’re cute. how about i buy you a drink ?  ❜ ❛  can’t you watch where you are going ?!  ❜ ❛  i just moved into the apartment next to you, so i guess we’re gonna be neighbors now.  ❜ ❛  oh god, you’re [name], aren’t you ?  ❜ ❛  here, let me help you.  ❜ ❛  is there a reasons you’re here on your own ?  ❜ ❛  apparently we’re going to be working on this together now.  ❜ ❛  you look like you could use a hand with that.  ❜ ❛  what do people around here do to have some fun ?  ❜ ❛  looks like this will take a while, huh ?  ❜ ❛  oh god. please tell me you haven’t just heard me talk to myself.  ❜ ❛  excuse me, i think i’m lost.  ❜ ❛  i just wanted to say that i really like your outfit.  ❜ ❛  do you come here often ?  ❜ ❛  do you mind if i join you for a bit ?  ❜ ❛  you looked lonely so i got you a drink.  ❜ ❛  i don’t think we’ve met, i’m [name].  ❜ ❛  what the hell just happened there ?  ❜ ❛  have you seen this anywhere ? i must’ve lost it.  ❜ ❛  can i please use your phone ? i have to call someone to get me out of here.  ❜ ❛  seems like we’re gonna be spending a lot of time together.  ❜ ❛  come with me, and don’t ask any questions. it’s urgent.  ❜ ❛  i heard strange noises coming from your apartment and just wanted to make sure everything is alright.  ❜ ❛  i have a spare ticket, you wanna come in with me ?  ❜ ❛  you don’t know me but will you be my date for tonight ?  ❜ ❛  we’ve got some time to kill so why don’t you tell me a little about yourself ?  ❜ ❛  i don’t usually just walk up to strangers but my friends set me up to it.  ❜ ❛  i think our orders may have gotten mixed up.  ❜ ❛  do i have something on my face or why do you keep looking at me like that ?  ❜

[godsand-archive]

Fingertips ruffle the others hair. (Temari.)

                                               , @sunchascd

TOUCH  ,  A  FOREIGN  concept  for  a  boy  whose  siblings  were  kept  from  him  through  childhood  .  the  only  one  who  ever  ruffled  his  hair  was  yashamaru  ,  &  it  remained  that  way  until  this  very  moment  .  the  brief  feeling  of  fingers  intertwined  with  unkempt  crimson  sends  a  shiver  down  his  spine  &  he  holds  his  arms  closely  ,  as  if  to  counter  the  near  overwhelming  sensation  .

he  doesn't  say  anything  ,  but  offers  her  a  simper  as  rare  as  can  be  .  it's  a  means  of  a  thank  you  ,  of  a  '  i'm  sorry  '  .

[kuma0980-deactivated20220421]

[godsand-archive]

@ozumakis​  *

SOFTLY  DO  THE  TREES  WHISPER  to  the  two  boys  who  almost  touch  hands  ,  but  not  quite  .  they  whisper  love  ,  they  whisper  hushed  feelings  that  have  yet  to  be  unveiled  ,  &  they  whisper  future  blossoms  .  gaara's  chest  is  tight  ,  all  the  way  to  his  throat  &  lets  out  a  hefty  breath  ,  still  quiet  ,  still  nervous  .  his  hands  are  shaking  .    

    ❛      we  are  much  alike  ,  naruto  .  because  of  this  ,  i  wanted  to  ask  you  something  personal  .      ❜

[godsand-archive]

shikeis·  *

@godsand· .

“ lord kazeka    —   er,   sorry;    gaara.     hey. “

he’s quick to correct himself,   spotting the look of discomfort warping the other’s visage.   lip curls into a smile as he draws a lit cigarette from his lips,  flicking it to the ground with a nod.   “ figures that after fightin’ by your side for so long,   we can drop the titles.   we did compete in the chūnin exams together,   after all. “   head tips skyward then,    a nostalgic expression overcoming weary features.    “ man,   to think that was so long ago now.   who’d’a thought we’d be where we are today,   huh ? “ 

  AH  ,  EVER  WITH  THE  formalities  ,  he  thinks  for  a  moment  before  shikamaru  does  away  with  them  ,  &  approaches  gaara  second  as  a  person  ,  first  as  a  leader  .  he's  right  to  do  away  with  the  titles    --    after  all  ,  gaara  would  have  corrected  him  if  he  ,  himself  ,  hadn't  done  so  already  .  he  wants  to  ask  what  it  is  that's  needed  of  him  ,  that  is  ,  until  the  man  begins  to  dwell  on  past  moments  .

the  past  is  a  tricky  subject  for  gaara  .  it  is  tainted  with  misery  ,  stained  with  blood  ,  &  crowned  with  an  overtly  antagonistic  ,  most  pessimistic  way  of  living  .  his  memories  are  not  all  fond  ,  but  he's  thankful  he's  been  offered  the  second  chances  that  he  has  .  the  boy  who  once  watched  him  try  to  steal  so  many  innocent  lives  ,  who  watched  him  at  the  foot  of  lee's  bed  ,  harnessing  the  will  to  lay  him  to  permanent  rest  ,  now  stands  before  him  as  someone  who  accepts  him  .  &  even  if  he  didn't  ,  gaara  would  still  understand  .  he's  learned  to  deal  with  the  hatred  of  who  he  once  was  .  he  hates  him  too  .     

  ❛       many  things  have  changed  .  our  standing  here  is  proof  of  that  .      ❜

[godsand-archive]

psychamancy·  *

The smile softens some – a touch nostalgic, though their history in normal cases shouldn’t warrant such a stirred emotion. In spite of, Neku waves a nonchalant hand – canting his head to the side. “ Don’t mention it. “ And the past is just that – in the past.

Shoes scuff against the pavement, and just as easily as Neku forgives, he seats himself beside Gaara with a hum – propping one knee up to hug it with his arm and rest his chin on it. The steps to Udagawa are nice for this: people watching, while being a part of the atmosphere all the same. It’s the perfect way to simply blend in. 

     “ From the looks of it, the UG seems to be settling down some for you guys, right? “ He turns his head to him – pointing a finger up at nothing while swirling it around. “ It’s been warms for a while now. “

@godsand·

SILENCE  BEFALLS  the  two  as  gaara  folds  his  hands  up  to  his  chin  ,  settling  ,  thinking  .  so  it's  true  that  things  have  been  less  chaotic  than  they  used  to  be  ,  less  strenuous  ,  &  for  that  ,  he's  thankful  .  neku  sakuraba  is  someone  he  once  truly  detested  ;  once  wished  was  dead  ,  along  with  several  others  .  envy  is  no  fleeting  feeling  ,  after  all  .  not  for  a  child  who  had  nothing  ,  &  wished  for  so  little  .

                                      ❛            indeed  ,  it  has  .            ❜

he  agrees  quietly  ,  whilst  guilt  gnaws  at  his  veins  ,  his  heart  ,  his  very  essence  .  neku  is  quite  perceptive  ,  &  gaara's  sure  he  may  take  notice  .  he  frowns  at  himself  for  a  brief  moment  &  sighs  warm  air  into  his  palms  ,  fingers  heating  slightly  before  devolving  to  their  previous  temperature  .

                    ❛            you've  changed  ,  sakuraba  .    what  was  it  ?            ❜

[godsand-archive]

florafate·  *

“  me  ?  oh,  nothing  !  you  just  looked  a  little  dazed  and  confused.  are  you  lost  ?  hungry  ?  my  mom  should  be  cooking  dinner  by  now  if  you  are  interested  !  ”  

                                        ❛      dinner    .    .    .      ❜

THE  OVERCOMPLICATION  OF  the  mind  grasps  ahold  of  his  sense  of  nostalgia  for  which  nothing  exists  ,  &  the  simple  pleasure  of  having  dinner  as  a  family  is  one  he's  known  so  few  times  .  

                   ❛      no  ,  thank  you  .  you  shouldn't  trouble  yourselves  .      ❜

[justgaara]

我愛羅