Good Iām getting in shape and itās a lot of feelings to recon with . My last doctors visit I had some elevated levels of some stuff Iām working hard to get down . Iām pretty heavy as it is .
But at the same time Iām trying to improve my health in a way where extreme bodily changes arenāt like the goal visually ? I value the experience of being fat and I love being fat and fat people and thatās taken a lot of time and effort to accept myself and how I look emotionally .
At the same time though working out, drinking a lot less, and maintaining a calorie deficit is making me feel a lot better . Iām getting better sleep, my mood is improving . I think so far itās a positive experience but itās taking a lot not to take this into obsessive territory for me .
Aināt nobody gonna read this probably but itās nice to get my thoughts out somewhere











