i wanted to wait to post this mess until my anniversaryā¦.
two years ago today, i went to the movies and saw mad max: fury road. i pretty much knew three things about it going in: it had tom hardy, a lot of the stunts were real, and it had made men angry. i wasnāt expecting much, tbh, especially since it was a ~reboot~
i walked out in raptures, wanting more of the story, the characters, the vivid world iād just seen. so bright! so shiny & chrome! when was the last time a movie had that much color, and told you that running away wasnāt the best choice, and had so damn many women who werenāt just set-dressing?Ā
two years ago i was depressed as hell. iād just dropped out of college for the second time, i wasnāt on any meds or in therapy, i had no interest in anything except sleeping & worrying about the bleak future
yet despite the fog i was in, something about this movie grabbed me and didnāt let go. i went home and immediately looked up the fandom, and within three days iād downloaded a cam copy (sorry!) so i could watch it again, and again, and again. it was the only thing that made me feel, and i watched it on repeatā¦. more than once letās say
and then, it took less than a week for me to dip my toes into writing fic. iāve never been a fic writer. a reader, yes, but the last āficā iād written was a couple of short anonymous things on a kink meme years ago & some truly awful attempts in middle school. but this damn movie got inside my head and filled it with stories, stories that didnāt exist yet in the fandom, and i felt compelled to force them out
one fic became two became three became an avalanche, a hemorrhage of words. i realized that i love telling stories, that i love the rush of feedback & validation that comes from posting a fic, that i was waking up not excited exactly, but determined to get words down onto the page so i could share them
last year at this time i was embroiled in planning for wasteland weekend, an absolutely insane event that i would never have predicted iād want to attend, much less love as much as i did. immersing myself in that atmosphere for a few days was amazing, an experience iāll never forget & hope to repeat in the future
i also never would have guessed that iād meet such wonderful people thanks to this movie, read such amazing fics and look at such fabulous art, and the meta! ye gods, the meta in this fandom is off the charts
two years ago i sat down to watch a two-hour-long car chase, and walked out of that experience irrevocably changed. iād like to say something over-the-top inspirational like my life is magical now, but truth is iām still struggling more than iād like. iām on meds now though, and trying to get back to school, and some days i even feel hopeful about the future for more reasons than āmaybe iāll wake up to a nice commentā
so thank you fury roadies, youāve truly made this a fantastic two years. what a lovely day indeed
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